The Pain sacrificed

jungkook's affection for yoongi

After meeting hani, Jungkook immediately returned to his apartment to rest. Before that, he intended to take a bath and change his clothes, he entered a room where his clothes were arranged. However, there was a box that stole his attention, he took the box and opened it, a pair of matching shirt stellans for father and son that he accidentally ordered for him and cleo, the one she was wearing on the wedding day. Jungkook stroked the dress quietly while imagining he and Cleo standing at the wedding altar.

"what am I imagining'' he said, shaking his head. He quickly put the shirt back in a special box.

When the jungkook laid his body on his bed, he recalled where when the yoongi hugged sarah ''what decision are you going to take sarah?'' muttered. However, he again rattled his hair irritated ''why I keep thinking about him'' he then got up from his bed and took his laptop. ''preferably I should finish my work'' he said trying to shift his memory of sarah. Working day and night to make the jungkook exhausted, he fell asleep with the laptop still on his stomach.

The next morning the man woke up and prepared to go back to work, because it was actually his wedding and sarah so there was no work at all, but he tried to stay busy while shifting his memory.

Upon arrival at the office, Jungkook immediately met the rebecca who was waiting for him in his room.

''good morning sir'' said rebecca while arranging the jungkook goods on the table.

Jungkook just nodded silently, he took off his suit and sat in his chair ''what time does the trial start ?'' ask jungkook.

''ten local time sir''

''means in a moment'' he replied casually.

''are we really not coming?'' ask rebecca

''I don't want us to stand out there, after all everything is taken care of by my confidants''

''I hope the trial goes well''

Jungkook was silent, although he felt very confident that he could improve his mother's name, he still had a sense of worry in him. ''why he did not show up too'' he said confused because his mother did not show herself.

''I think he's watching us, I think he'll come out when the trial declares his innocence''

''you're right, if he shows himself now it's not impossible that kim dami will do something to him'' Jungkook replied.

Rebecca smiled slightly.

''what's up?'' ask jungkook while glancing at rebecca.

''today there is actually no work for us''

''Why isn't there?'' ask jungkook

''it should be your wedding today, so the schedule is empty from today to the next week'' rebecca replied.

Jungkook fell silent after hearing it, he looked at a calendar that was on the side of his desk. 'I've already made the decision to cancel it' Jungkook's inner self while staring at the date.

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knocking on the door made jungkook and rebecca startled, rebecca rushed to open the door and showed Sarah standing behind the door.

''you?'' rebecca

''i want to talk to mr jungkook'' said sarah.

''who?'' ask jungkook at rebecca because he still can't see who's behind the door.

''sir, sarah wants to meet'' said rebecca

Jungkook was surprised, but he tried to look flat ''let him in'' he said.

Seeing sarah in front of him made the jungkook nervous, but there was a bit of a sense of pleasure because he could see sarah up close. ''what is it?'' ask her in a weird voice.

Sarah was silent, but she approached the jungkook who was still sitting in his chair. Sarah took off the ring in her hand and put it on the jungkook table ''I gave it back'' said sarah.

Jungkook momentarily looked at the ring that he and Sarah had chosen to be on his desk ''you can throw it or sell it''' he replied.

Sarah looked into the jungkook's eyes in disappointment.You know, at first I had no intention of letting go of the ring, even when you decided not to proceed with our wedding plans unilaterally'' sarah paused her words for a moment, she seemed to have trouble saying every word.Either why I keep wearing the ring and hope the marriage continues. But today is the date, and you didn't come to see me at all. So that I became very sure it turned out this really happened'' continued sarah.

''you hope I don't cancel it?'. asked jungkook slowly.

''agent wo told me if you keep paying him and wait for the time to be reassigned, I think you changed your mind. However, when we met in the elevator you didn't even say anything. Even until now. It made me very stupid, but at least that way I can accept if it's worth ending" sarah smiled a little trying to lie to herself that she was okay in front of the jungkook. He breathed slowly and slightly straightened his body.

''I agree to cancel our marriage. And, let's go back to the way things were.'' said sarah firmly, she also slightly lowered her head ''then I will go out'' he said in a formal tone and then turned around to leave.

Jungkook was silent a thousand languages, he just stared at the back of Sarah who slowly disappeared behind the door. His eyes looked back at the ring on the table, Jungkook realized that he had not removed the ring either.

''why does it feel so hard'' Jungkook was crying with his hands clutching sarah's ring ''sorry sarah, I've made you hate me so much, forgive me'' he muttered softly along with a painful cry.

Long enough to vent his emotions jungkook trying to calm himself, he brusquely swept his face trying to remove the sad trace on the look of his face.

Someone without permission immediately entered the jungkook room, which was none other than alex. ''hay jung,'' he said, waving at the jungkook.

Jungkook immediately turned his face away from alex's gaze, he did not want Alex to know that he had just cried.

However, because he has been a friend for years alex already knows that jungkook is sad, even just from the look next to his face. ''are you crying?'' ask alex

''no, no, no what'' Jungkook tried to dodge, he stood up from his chair and walked towards the window.

''are you crying because it should be your wedding day?'' alex asked back as he approached the jungkook.

Jungkook is silent about not saying anything, he does not want to lie but also does not want to tell a story.

''ayoolah, just tell me, don't be pendam'' alex tries to seduce the jungkook to tell him about the problem. ''all feels complicated because you're already in love, right?'' alex patted his best friend's shoulder.

For a moment, Jungkook was intending to tell me about his feelings. He said that yesterday he was still waiting for me to change my mind. But he already has limits. He wanted us to act like strangers back after this''

''Then what are you saying?'' ask alex to wonder.

''I couldn't say anything until he left. But, my feelings hurt a lot when I realized we were going to be like strangers''

Alex looked at the jungkook with pity so, do you realize now that you're in love with him?''

Again jungkook just silent not answering alex's question, he just stared wistfully at the street view from behind his office window.

''do you stick to your decision?'' ask alex again.

''yoongi is an angel in my life, it doesn't matter how I feel, I'm just trying to make sure that I won't hurt him''

Despite knowing about his feelings, Jungkook remains in his decision, only so that Yoongi can regain his love.

''you just decided it, then,? you didn't ask Sarah if she agreed or not,? you're making him even less appreciated jungkook''

''I know I hurt her again, but I don't deserve to be with her either. His misunderstanding and yoongi will improve as long as I am not in the middle of them''