The Lost Sense

Chapter 66

"Something's gonna mean a lot, right after we lose it.,"

Bram Pov

"I saw a post on IG-ku.Photo selfies of my two children Devan and Mitha with my ex-wife, Reny, in a park. Their smiles beat the sun.

The hue of happiness was on their faces. I don't know if that selfie photo is going to insinuate me. When I saw the photo, my blood was rushing. I try to remember when the last smile of the three was with me.

When was the last time I was with them was like the moment in the picture. When was the last time, I saw their smiles and laughter come off. It turned out that I failed to dig through my memories only to find a smile of theirs between the circles of my life.

Apparently, nothing! Or it's too faint to show up because I'm too busy with my own world.

I try to count the days, months, and years. How surprised I was when I realized the number of numbers I had passed with them. But there is no memory of anything. Like an album, all photos appear blurry, indistinct faces framed in each memory sheet.

I could not find a smile or a laugh, there was a dull face holding back the crying and pain.

"Papa, tomorrow's the day off. We're playing to Yuk Beach!" little Mitha's invitation was silenced by my snaps.

"Other people are busy!"

Or

"Pa, buy me a toy car with a remote, tomorrow's my birthday, Devan."

"Ah, noisy! Don't you see papa's work!" I shouted because I was bringing work home. At that moment, Reny would be busy silencing their broken cries for my rude rejection.

Then a while later, Reny would come reminding me not to be rude to Devan and Mitha.

"Bang, once in a while what's wrong with obeying their requests. If you can't, speak softly. Poor thing, they're still kids."

"That's because you're spoiling them too much. Every time I'm home, there's always their behavior that makes me feel uncomfortable" I jolted.

"Yes, God! They're our children, Bang. It's only natural that they ask for our attention. Brother is too busy at the office, there is no time at all for the family," said Reny held back tears. If it is so, instead of me pity even more evaporate my emotions. I left them all day, even until late at night I just got home. So every time there is a problem. I used to run away more often and go to my mother's house.

I'll feel more calm there. Spent my time with Martin and Vikky. Every time they went to the house, the mother was both there, playing because they were signed by Sarah at the mother's house.

I kept this rotten secret behind my marriage, and sacrificed the happiness of my own family.

When Mitha asked for a vacation and I refused, tomorrow I was in a tourist spot with Sarah and her two children. When Devan asked for something and I refused, because I had promised Martin and Vicky something

In fact, when I saw that Crisp was so shabby with his negligee and I demanded his appearance. It was Sarah who got my money. Those whom I had neglected, had finally been relieved of my responsibilities due to the divorce.

Their lives are happier after they are no longer with me. They have the right recompense for all the suffering I have described on their foreheads. I've been probing, if Reny's biological parents were a tycoon.

Even Reny has now become a Ceo, from his papa subsidiary . Even I heard that Reny is now close to a reliable lawyer, who is so in disdain for many people.

Lawyers who have the status of a widower with one daughter, even often show off his affection in public. Makes me often burn with jealous fire, not to mention that he was the lawyer who handled our divorce case. Too late to correct all my mistakes.

At first I thought, Reny bullied me when he said Dion Bimantara's class lawyer could afford him. I underestimated it so much at that time. When that divorce case was won by Reny, I had nothing left.

My life can now be said to have been ruined. Just light the axis, then around me will burn out. It's up to me to prevent the fire from burning or to let it explode and get bigger. What is clear is that whatever my actions seem to be in vain.

"Sir Bram," the knock and call at the door, blew a long monologue in my heart. I was shocked by that call.

"Yes, Asti's mom. What's up?" gelagapku.

"Father called, Boss!"

"Oh, yes. I'll be there soon."

"All you guys bring PT Sakti Jaya's report."

"Okay, Mrs Asti, I'll be right there." I immediately rushed to the room of Mr. Alvin, the head of the Finance Division and brought the necessary files.

"Good day, sir!" I said after knocking on the door.

"Come in, Mr. Bram!"

I sat down at Mr. Alvin's desk and handed him the file.

"This is sir, the file you ordered."

""All right, Mr. Bram. My father sent me to bring this file to the head office. Because our business partners suspect that the reports made are loaded with violations. So they wanted complete confirmation from here." As soon as cold sweat poured down my back.

"What's up, Mr Bram?"

" Eh, it's okay, sir. I'll be leaving soon."

"Alright, please you report to the public relations section, regarding the father's accommodation while there."

"Well sir," I immediately came out of Mr. Alvin's room with a raging heart. Though the report I submitted the other day was already in acc at the center. Why re-revision? the monologue of my heart is anxious.

There was no other way I should have come to the headquarters. Explain the report suspected of being problematic.

After a one-night journey. I arrived at the head office and was immediately referred to the associate leader, who managed the housing development project.

The emergency meeting was held, and when I was present in the meeting room I was surprised to see Reny and Dion there as well. In my mind I was thinking what business they had there.

"Welcome, Mr. Bram. Please sit down," I take a seat on the right side of the envoy from the headquarters. I loosened the tie around my neck, which suddenly seemed to suffocate me.

"Look, Mr. Bram, I introduce Mrs Reny Theresa and Mr. Dion Bimantara as part of our partners, who manage housing projects. From the incoming report, there are several irregularities found by PT Bangun Insani, especially financial statements. After being traced, there are indeed some irregularities and it turns out that Mr. Bram was involved in this case. That's why Mr. Dangill to the head office to give information directly to PT Bangun Insani as the direct responsibility of this project. Miss Reny Theresa." I felt my neck choked at the explanation.

With great difficulty I swallowed my saliva. I really can't squint anymore. The evidence of my involvement must have been in their hands. They just need recognition, whether the allegations are true or not. Because the partner I worked with was already there like a sickle.

Finally the confession came rushing out of my mouth and it changed my next life. The career I've been proud of all this time has been ruined.

"Thank you for the honesty of your involvement, and that will be a consideration later in court" Dion said. I can only smile wryly. The shadow of my face going viral on social media caught in corruption bribery cases, will be a hot and shocking topic, especially for my family. My mother's face will mourn me.*****