The Lost Sense

Chapter 40

After a few seconds, Sakti took off her kiss. Without a word Lisa immediately left Sakti, she walked quickly towards the bathroom.

Sakti wastes a rough breath. Lisa avoided herself. "Your spirit of patience is unlimited." Clenching his right hand into the air. He encouraged himself. Strange indeed, it is legitimate but his wife does not want to be touched. It's not about lovemaking that Sakti thinks, but just a kiss and a hug that Lisa always avoids. Sakti gets out of bed immediately. He picked up the phone located on the bedside nightstand and immediately ordered food through the green application on his phone.

Lisa was silent while holding her lips kissed by her husband. There is a sense of anger and hate but it is not halal for Sakti to do this. Lisa thinks Sakti only wants a physical touch with her to channel her passion. But the truth is, Sakti loves her so much. And Lisa doesn't know about it. A heart that has not been able to love wholeheartedly to his life partner is always doubt and fear as what Lisa experienced.

"Where is Mas Sakti?" Lisa rolled her entire gaze to the corner of the room. She did not see her husband. Lisa immediately went downstairs to look for her husband.

"It turns out you're here, Mom?" Lisa sat herself down next to her husband. Sakti is watching tv in the family room.

"Dear, are you hungry? wait a minute, I've ordered food, maybe it'll be here soon."

"Yes, thank you." Lisa admits that Sakti is a patient and understanding man. But why could his heart not be moved in the least. His heart was filled with guilt, a kind and loving husband before his eyes. But his heart was still adrift with another man.

After Sakti's order came they ate in silence. There was no sound just the sound of a spoon echoing in the room.

After finishing eating Sakti immediately invited Lisa to go home to Yoga. "I think we're gonna stay here?" Lisa asked shortly after they sat in the car.

"You want to stay here?" Instead of answering Lisa's question, Sakti asked back.

"It's not like that, I think it's already night. Everything is available here too."

"Maybe one more week we'll move on baby, Mas's very busy later. So I'm worried that you're home alone. I've asked Mama to find someone to help you take care of the house, but I haven't been able to until now. I don't want you home alone if you're out of town or abroad.

Sakti's left hand tightly grasped Lisa's hand. "Darling Mas knows you can't accept this marriage yet. But trust me, I am sincere with you. And this marriage is not a toy for me, so learn to accept me."

Sakti softly kissed Lisa's hand there is a fluid that pooled in both corners.

Lisa just cried she didn't answer her husband. He hated the current situation, Sakti forced himself. Didn't know from the beginning that he didn't love Sakti. Wouldn't it be like this they would just hurt each other. He immediately pulled his hand from Sakti's grasp. He directed his gaze out the window so that Sakti would not see his tears.

***

Tonight Bagas prepares to go to the cafe to meet Lala and Adam. At least he still has friends to share his story with.

Lala ran a little when she entered the cafe, because she and her husband were half an hour late from the time they set.

"You've been waiting a long time? sorry I'm late." Said Lala while sitting on a long bench facing Bagas.

"It's only been half an hour." Bagas laughed at Lala's behavior.

"Sorry it's stuck."

"It's not jammed, you're the one who's been dancing too long so we're late." Adam who had been silent came along. Because it was Lala who made them late.

Adam hugged Lala. He was so anxious when he saw Lala sulking like a child.

"Ck, if you want to show off the intimacy at home. There's a single whose heart just broke."

"Eh... Sorry." Lala said unkindly with Bagas.

Adam and Bagas were just chatting around work. It seemed like Lala was getting tired of the chatter of the two men she was with.

"You went to Bandung to avoid Lisa, didn't you? now that he doesn't work anymore why don't you come back here again?" Lala's sudden question made Bagas silent a thousand languages.

Adam grabbed the wife's arm. When he saw the change in Bagas' face. Adam who understands the feelings Bagas understand very well the attitude of his friend.

" I hope you're happy Bagas too! don't torture yourself by still hoping for Lisa. You both love each other but you're not meant to be together."

"Didn't destiny change Adam? my heart felt slashed when I saw her cry like that. I'm too stupid not to fight for it."

"I know but she's got a husband, don't you fuck?" Lala felt like Bagas wanted to do something.

"I won't hurt the people I love La, my mind is still sane to do things that don't."

eat away

"Thank God I thought you'd..."

"No La." Bagas cut Lala's speech.

"I believe you, okay."

***

Bagas arrived in front of his house. He felt reluctant to go into the house. It reminds me of the pain. The house we went to, the place to unwind. But Bagas was alone in the house. A neglected kara is unwanted and thrown away. His mind went back to a few years ago. He's an orphan, is this the end? will it remain alone.

In notya the door of the house. Walk slowly to the family room. As empty and empty as he is today. Does he not deserve family? do I not deserve to feel love? the question kept on popping into his mind.

Bagas crammed on the floor of the family room. He leaned his body on the sofa. "In the end it's all the same as it used to be, I'am Alone." Bagas spoke to him, and a clear liquid came out from both corners of his eyes. Only the cold night wind and darkness accompanied the man.

Author's note: Hello readers... Sorry new up date yes. because some days work is very busy 😔. Last night I wrote even overslept so tired her 🤭.

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