Thank You for True Love
06 CHANGE OF STATUS
Day after day passed, years had changed since our confession that night. Nothing has changed in our relationship. It just feels like the more days we become more open to each other. There was nothing else covered between the two of us.
Sometimes we fight, just small pebbles in a relationship. (Relationship.., I don't know what our relationship is called.).
And every time angry, Adit must always give up on ending the quarrel. Whether he's wrong or not, he's always the one who apologizes first and invites me to refer back.
"Din, where's Adit..?" Elisha was confused because I came alone to class. Usually even though we were having a ceasefire, we still came and went home to college together even though we were still silent..
I just shrugged, "From last night there was no news. Her phone hasn't been active until now either."
Rinaya looked astonished. It's not usually Adit there's no news like this. He tried to call Adit's number with his phone, but nothing came of it. "There is only the sound of the train passing by, tut tut tutt.."
"Hey, you guys fight again...??" Elisha looked hard at me. I immediately shook my head quickly.
"Yesterday afternoon he was still telling me to go home. When he was at his house, he still called me. But the malem, I sent a message, the phone's off.." My heart felt anxious. I was worried something would happen to Adit. He's not usually like this.
Until the first lecture began, Adit was not seen at all. Even until the last lecture was over, it remained unseen.
"I'm anther you go home yuk, Din." Take Rinaya, watch me step out of class with a passionless grunt.
"Eehhh do not go home first, which there is a remark that if Dinda at home alone thinks Adit, can be more manyun he Rin..!!" Elisha hastily prevents Rinaya's offer to Dinda.
I just kept quiet in my steps, listening to my two best friends argue small to try to comfort me.
"Yes, if so before we go home to the cafe across campus aja yuk, all nanya to the children there, any time anyone knows. Usually Adit also likes to hang out there anyway.." Rinaya.
Because Elisha agrees, I don't want to follow their will.
While continuing to walk towards the campus gate, I tried to contact Adit again. But his phone is still inactive.
"Oh Allah, I feel very bad about Adit. Where are you Dit.." My little squeal in my heart.
Usually, even if we don't see him for a few days, our communication is intense. This time I lost contact altogether.
Not long after we arrived at the cafe. Only a few visitors who are relaxing in the front porch of the cafe, just chatting unwind after lecture.
Elisha pulled my hand into the cafe, followed by Rinaya who was still busy with a cell phone in her hand. Elisha chose the very end, near the glass window that led to the side garden.
"I drink first, as always, right..?" Elisha got up from his seat preparing to go to the order table at the front. Rinaya and I just nodded in agreement.
"Eh, wait for Sa, and I'll get my car first, still in the campus parking lot. Let me just bring it here, and we'll just stay cusss from here, okay..!" Rinaya chased Elisha out.
I sat alone waiting for them to return. Termangu stared out the window, with thoughts still about Adit.
"What's wrong with you, Dit? Did I go wrong with you until you didn't tell me.." I wrote another message for Adit, though I saw that my previous messages had not been read by him.
"Are you sick, Dit..? Until college you stayed.." I sent him another message.
I looked towards the front of the cafe, looking for the figures of Elisha and Rinaya.
Ten minutes have passed, they have not returned.
A waitress came to my desk, carrying a glass of orange juice.
"Lho mas, not my friend was the message three drinks huh..?!"
"The mother was just this one message to mbak. Then I saw them break into the campus again mbak.." Obviously it was me. I nodded my head at him.
Before leaving, the waiter took a piece of paper from his pocket, handed it to me.
"Oh yes, this was a deposit for mbak, really mbak Dinda yes..?" He made sure that no one was wrong.
"Yes, I'm Dinda. Who was this from, Mom?" I asked while receiving a paper that was still folded neatly from him.
"I'm sorry I don't know, but that's not me. I was just signed by my friend, but he's back at work, mbak."
"I'll excuse you, ma'am, there's still another order.." Please excuse me politely.
Alone, I opened the fold of paper I had just received. As soon as I saw his handwriting, my heart suddenly changed happily immeasurably.
Dear Dinda's,
I'm sorry that today I've made you sad and agitated.
But you know, here I am also sad and agitated, waiting for someone to come. Someone I hope will be willing to meet me here.
Someone who for two years always filled and accompanied my day, both of them followed a colorful togetherness. There are likes, sorrows, cries, laughter, sadness and happiness.
Someone I have always mentioned in my prayers for two years, because I love him so much and always want to make him happy with everything I can do for him.
Someone I know, he loves me just as much as I love him.
But I don't know yet, will someone be willing to accept me more than ever.
Will he be willing to stay with me, as I offer more togetherness than ever.
To be honest, I was afraid that after this, I could no longer be with him like I used to.
I'm afraid she'll stay away from me, after I ask her for more.
But whatever the decision may be.., I want her to know that I will stay with her as I have always been.
I want him to know, nothing will change even if he can't give me more than this.
Sinda..,
Do you remember about today?
Today, exactly two years ago I got to know you for the first time.
When I saw you enter the examination hall and I heard your voice for the first time.
From that moment on my heart has chosen you, choosing you as the only one who will occupy the best and most special space in my heart. Then, now and forever..
Sinda..,
If you'd like to tell me whatever it is your decision, I'll wait for you here ..
Whatever your decision is, I'm here to hear it..
I love you and I love you,
Adits.
