Thank You for True Love

05 GETTING CLOSER - PART 2

"I love you Dit.." Finally the confession came out of my mouth.

Adit who was still looking at me looked shocked, not expecting me to say that.

"I love you, but I'm not sure what kind of affection Dit is. I'm afraid I'll let you down later..." I continued my sentence.

I don't dare look at Adit anymore. I'm afraid he'll be disappointed. I'm afraid he'll get angry or change his attitude towards me.

I dare not imagine Adit would stay away from me because of my answer..

"Kok looked down like that, did not look beautiful ah..." I heard Adit teasing me. I'm appalled.

I raised my head to look back at him.

He's still smiling. There was no change in his attitude or expression.

Looking at me who looked puzzled, he laughed.

"Why? Can't believe you say it's pretty..?" He still teases me.

"Aren't you mad at me, Dit?" My toot. While my heart was still uncertain because of the fear I felt.

"Anged with you? How can I be angry with the girl I love, let alone beautiful like this.."

He still continues to tease me until my cheeks are probably already visible to him.

As long as I've been close to her, I've never heard Adit say pretty to me, to any other girl.

"I'm afraid you're changing, Dit. I'm afraid, after this you stay away from me.." My honesty.

"It can't be Din! There's no way I can get far away from the people I love.." I breathed a sigh of relief hearing Adit's reply.

"You want no, the first time I asked you what..?" Of course I remember, and I threw the same question back at him.

"I just want to know how you feel about me. And you answered it.."

"If you think I'm going to demand recognition or status about our relationship, you're wrong Din..!"

"Just let everything flow like all this time. Allow time to test our feelings. And let God's destiny be the one that will give both of us certainty.." In one word and full of maturity.

Adit was two years older than me, even though we went to college together. He delayed his time to continue his studies.

"O Allah, thank You for bringing someone as sincere as he is.." In my heart I am truly grateful for Adit's presence in my life as it is today.

"Din, can I hold your hand..?"

I was surprised by the question. Just now this heart is calm, now again made dag dig dug again by Adit.

During this time, we rarely had physical contact. Only occasionally, even just shaking hands, a soft pat on the shoulder when greeting, a head tease when joking, and a few casual glimpses of attitude in fellow friends. And this time, he wanted to hold my hand in a different sense.. Duh, drift again it feels..

Adit remained silent waiting for my answer. I finally allowed it with a single nod of the head. Immediately he grabbed my right palm, pulling it slowly into his grasp.

He held my hand gently with both hands. Instantly I felt a different warmth touch my heart through that grasp, although my hand still felt stiff, not daring to return his grasp.

"Oh my God, it turns out like this is what it feels like to be touched by a guy, like drinking a round, warm.." Think innocence.

"Well, you're drinking a round of wedang right.." I used to think silly in a solemn moment of martyrdom like this.

Adit looked at me sharply..!

"What do you feel right now?"

He tightened his grip as if he wanted to channel his feelings through our fused hands.

"Do you feel this warmth? Me either.. You feel happy? Me either.. Do you feel comfortable when we are together? Me either.. Are you afraid of losing this togetherness? Me too.."

No need for me to answer everything, Adit would know if we felt the same way.

I ventured back to his gaze, without a word coming out of my mouth.

I just want to enjoy the moment, enjoy the feeling that is dominating this heart, enjoy the warm grip that I just felt this first time.

I subconsciously returned Adit's hand. I returned his warm grip, and now our hands are really holding each other as if they don't want to let go of each other.

I saw Adit's face change, looking happy. Maybe he didn't think I'd return his grasp. I also got late in this atmosphere.

Suddenly from inside my heart came a feeling of uncertainty. My heart feels claustrophobic with happiness mixed with haru. A moment like losing my breath, and coming back with an increasingly erratic heartbeat..

Oh my God, is this what is called love..?

Is this what it feels like to fall in love..?

This time I felt all this..

While I was still immersed in my feelings, it seemed that Adit was enjoying this time to keep looking at me, seeing the smile on my face, seeing my happy hue, seeing me looking at her with an uncertain mind.

The cold breeze of the night began to feel bone-chilling. After being satisfied looking at my face that was still silent, soft and slow Adit released his hand.

Hurry up she took off the casual jacket she was wearing and hurriedly placed it around my body from behind.

"Your habit, if you go out never want to wear a jacket. Choke is used, you will be cold..!!"

I who seemed to wake up from the subconscious, a little awkward immediately tidied up the jacket that had wrapped my back body. I feel my body getting warmer..

"Thank you, Dit.." A smile suddenly puffed up on my lips, greeted by the same smile from Adit's face.

"It's nine o'clock, I'll drive you home now yeah, let's not be late at night.."

I nodded my head as we headed to the parking lot, after stopping by to pay for the wedang ronde order we had enjoyed earlier.

Arriving next to Adit's bike, then I realized something.

"Dit, you're the one who brought the bike in front, you dong who wears this jacket, you're sick.." I was about to take off the jacket I was wearing, but it was held back by Adit.

"I've got another jacket in the motorcycle seat, you keep the jacket on..!" As if an order, I also quietly undo my intentions.

Adit took one more jacket from his motorcycle seat and immediately put it on. After that we immediately went through the cold of the night, driving me home.

Half an hour later, Adit stopped his bike in front of the main fence. It's impossible to get in front of the terrace of my boarding house, because it's approaching curfew.

"Thank you for tonight. I'll go home first, yeah.." Pamit Adit who I replied with a slow nod and a small smile.

"Ati-ati's on the street, Dit.."

Adit was still on his bike. It seemed that there was still something he wanted to say but hesitated.

I frowned trying to find out, looking at him who was still looking at me.

"Suddenly I'm so excited again ya.." I started to get nervous on my own without being able to hide.

"I love you.." Said Adit with a faint smile.

"Dinda, control yourself, don't be shy..!" I said in my heart, calm myself down.

"The horde went in there.." His head coded for me to enter the main fence immediately.

Thankfully, he didn't wait for a reply from me.

Without thinking long I turned around, walked slowly until entering the front porch.

I see Adit's still out there. As usual he always made sure I got to the front of the house first, and then he passed, disappearing from my sight.

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Finished cleaning my body and changing clothes, I lay down on the bed. Shut up for a moment, focus on looking at the ceiling of the room with a bright mind.

I stared at the white, clean ceiling of my room, decorated with only one lamp hanging right in the middle of the room.

I thought I started to float while continuing to look up. But suddenly..

"Lho, uh..., why does his face exist up there anyway..?!" Suddenly I was surprised to find Adit's face nongol there with a smile on his lips.

Spontaneously I jumped up, I rubbed my eyes to make sure my vision just now.

Once ucek, I looked up, he was still there.

The second line, he changed into his smile.

The third patch, clean and laundry, ready to be dried tomorrow morning. Hehee, I'm starting to digress.

The third rickety actually, finally the shadow had completely disappeared.

"O brain, don't shorten dong plis, cook your handsome face nongolin up there, I'll be scared.." Toyor-toyor my own head.

The ringing of the phone on the table shocked me. Kuraih immediately and I saw a message from Adit.

"Not slept?" Brief message. Maybe just want to make sure I've moved to dreamland or not.

"Otw sleep.." Short also my reply.

"Yes already. Buruan sleeping. I'll pick you up tomorrow morning.."

Well, he wanted to invite me, usually his routine is only after college.

"Don't go up in status.." In my heart I was curious and smiled to myself.

"Okay, I'll wait for you in the morning, Dit." My reply.

I thought I was done, I was ready to pull the blanket when my phone rang again. There was still a message from him.

"I love you.."

Aah, that sentence again.., made me smile to myself with a thumping chest.

I decided not to return his last message. "Let's say, that's also in front of the fence he didn't wait for me to reply.."

I put my phone back on the table and immediately took the position of a shocker.

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