SUPPOSE THAT...

I'M SELFISH

"There's something that doesn't have to be revealed if it's only going to make things worse, Kirana" Dave said, looking away.

"Good, Dave. I get it." Kirana wiped her tears and tried to toughen up.

Dave took a long breath. This is how it should be. She was grateful that Kirana understood. Although heavy, the girl should not know his heart.

"I'll cancel my wedding."

Dave had just turned around and was about to open the door handle, when Kirana issued a sentence that shocked him.

"What ?" Dave lamgsung turned to him. Not sure what they heard.

"We only live once, Dave. I don't want to regret." Kirana says.

"What do you mean ?" dave's forehead wrinkled. "Are you crazy ?" his normally calm face, now like a tangled cloth. "Did I say the wrong thing ?" Dave asked in his heart. Guessing what part of it was that made the girl be able to this whole thing say.

"It has nothing to do with you." Kirana. " I'm selfish, I can't be like you who thinks of everything. I can't pretend to be happy with someone I don't love."

"Your marriage is in sight. Don't act rashly just because of the scandal and the corrupting news." Dave stresses. "We can finish this. I'll confess. We can work together to restore the situation." Dave explained.

"It has nothing to do with you, Dave." Kirana repeated her sentence. He could not usually say this calmly. "It's purely my own decision."more.

Dave rubbed his hair back. "Think Dad, Mom. And Jonathan, he loves you so much." Dave tried to persuade. I don't understand why Kirana suddenly changed like this.

"I told you, I'm selfish." Kirana's bright brown eyes stared fixedly at Dave. "I can't make everyone happy while I'm not happy myself." those eyes were back in tears. "I will never be compared to the kind and gentle Angela ever before." she gulped. "I will never be able to repay Jon's kindness and the time we have spent together in vulnerable companionship with him."

Dave was silent looking at her with a bitter look.

"But my heart can't lie." Kirana's tears overshadowed. "Maybe one day I'll regret my decision, but it's better than I regret it without doing anything."

"Kirana." Dave tried to block the girl's move to the door.

They looked at each other with teary eyes. But Kirana, though she was clearly crying, looked steadfastly at Dave.

"You don't have to do anything." he smiled. "You can continue your relationship with Angela. I'd be happy if the one next to you was an angel-hearted like Angela."

Dave grabs Kirana's arm as the girl returns to open the door handle. "Don't be like this, Kirana." Dave begged. "Think carefully. What are you doing this for ? There's no time for our relationship."

Kirana's face glared at him. "Our relationship doesn't have a future Dave." Kirana smiled bitterly. "Aren't I the only one who's selfish ?"

Dave gasped at Kirana's statement. This time he just kept quiet as the girl walked by him and opened the door handle and left.

Dave was motionless staring at the small back with his long hair twisting modestly and moving in a rhythmic swinging of his light footsteps.

"What's a look around ?"

Dave remembers the first time he met her. A tomboyish-looking girl with her long, messy hair. One who instantly stunned him with both of his beautiful eyes that stared fiercely at him.

"Ma, I'm sorry.this one I'm confessing wrong..."

Coincidentally the second, the girl in an unfashionable dress looked at him timidly when he accidentally became the cause of his favorite car rubbing against the sidewalk of the road.

"I'm sorry !" Kirana said loudly. "Even I want to replace it, why do you even mock me...??"

Do not know, if at that time Dave's heart also shook when he looked at him.

Dave recalls accidentally meeting Kirana at a Mall and Angela introduces him as her roommate.

"After graduating from college, we'll get married."

For the first time Dave wanted to yell at Angela and tell her to be quiet because of Kirana's bright brown eyes that were staring at her.

Dave rubbed his hair with both hands in frustration. Do not know if when they meet again and bump into each other on campus Dave is jealous to see him with Jonathan.

"Try asking your Tunagan, how many times he hit me."

The scathing words that Dave had spoken to Jonathan back then.

"You remember my car, don't you..?"

Back then Dave said cynically to Kirana whose parched face was staring at him.

Their hot night is almost the biggest sin of Dave's life.

"It turns out I do love you, Dave.."

Dave groaned as he rubbed his hair many times, eyed Kirana who was under him resignedly and held both cheeks.

He's been able to keep it all to himself for years. A faint feeling that instead of disappearing with time but instead grew clearer and stronger. Filled in the gray satinyan. Asking for her other heart. Now the more Dave suppresses his feelings, the more intense the turmoil.

"Kirana." Dave banged his forehead against the wall. Grinding and shuffling her own hair. "If this love did not exist." she covered her crying face with her palms. Gundah chooses between the honor of the woman who gave birth to her or the woman she loves.

"Kirana, where's Dave ? He was looking for you." Marisa said as her daughter came and sat down.

Kirana was silent while looking at her Father and Mother alternately. "..I want to cancel my wedding." she said.

"What's..?" marisa's eyes are round.

"What else is this, Kirana ?" His father folded the newspaper he was reading.

Kirana looked down when her mother called a Servant to invite Kiandra who was following a puzzle in the family room to accompany her to play outside.

A little Kiandra protested when the waiter grabbed her hand and invited her to play in the backyard. But the intelligent Kiandra found out when she saw her sister's face and chose to leave immediately.

"Sorry Daddy, Mommy." Kirana said slowly. "But I can't do this marriage." He raised his face that was reddened by tears. "I'll take responsibility, I'll apologize to Jon's parents." he bit his lower lip and ducked back.

"You're just being distressed by all the news that cornered you, Kirana." Marisa tried to strengthen.

Andreas stared at his daughter. He was already furious with the problems his son was growing, and now added his statement that made him even more disappointed.

"I'm sorry." Kirana's eyes warmed up.

"It's not enough that you put your family to shame, Kirana ?!" her father's high-pitched voice made Kirana's face wrinkle sadly. "Your Daddy's trying to cover your scandal and you without thinking we can say that ?" Andreas is really angry.

"What exactly is Kirana ?" Marisa held both of her children's shoulders to raise her face.

"Sorry Daddy, Mommy..." Kirana stared at her parents. "But I want to be like Daddy and Mommy, live happily next to loved ones."