SUPPOSE THAT...

I'M HONEST

"You call Jonathan. We're going to have a press conference. I'll tell you if that guy was me." Dave says.

"Why do you suddenly want to confess ? Don't you care ?" Kirana stood up as Dave got up from his seat.

"I have a heart too." Dave looked at Kirana. "I don't want people to suffer because of what I do" he continued.

They look at each other. Feeling uncomfortable, Dave looked away and was about to get out.

"Dave." Kirana grabbed the back of the man's shirt, making him look back. "Why did you hug me then ?" tanyakanya.

"It's just guilt because I've been so rude to you." Dave answered without emotion.

"Are you the one who wanted to kiss me also out of guilt ?" kirana's eyes glazed over at him.

Dave's expression changed slightly. Kirana was still looking towards him, demanding an answer.

"What do you expect Kirana ?" finally Dave said.

They look at each other again. Kirana doesn't understand what Dave meant to her.

"What do you want me to say ?" dave asked back.

Kirana. "I was expecting what ?" he repeated Dave's question in his heart.

"You have Jonathan, I have Angela. We each have a partner that we have to take care of his feelings." Dave says.

Kirana.

"Our legal word is brother. Dad, Mom and your Mom. How would they feel if they knew something was wrong with their children ?" dave's eyes watered as he explained. But he tried to hold back all the turmoil in his heart. "Mom and my biological Papa were never married" Dave was a little stuck. Makes Kirana feel like she's just realized something. "What if the public finds out about it ?" dave's face was pinched.

Kirana closed her mouth with widened eyes. He never thought he would get there. All he thought about was himself being hurt. He remembered Angela so well. "How would Angela know ?" kirana's feelings are getting more uncertain. "Daddy, Mom, can you rest assured that it's with Dave ? His eyes widened to look at Dave who was still looking at him. "The cave.." Kirana held onto her chest which was always racing faster when near the man.

As if I just woke up from sleep. Kirana finally realized her own feelings. "Dave." he grabbed Dave's arm and stepped closer.

Dave was a little surprised. But he just silently looked at Kirana's face and especially her two bright brown eyes and looked even more beautiful when looking at her.

Since he first came into his life. His heart only trembled when it was near him. His eyes were only on him. And despite the one thousand scathing words and bad manners she was shown, Kirana still only thought about it.

"Let's go see Mom and explain if we hug just because you think you're getting married" Dave said. "Call between brothers." Dave stresses. "I think Mom will understand. And if it was Mom who delivered it to Dad, everything would be fine."

"Are you really hugging me for thinking I'm a brother ?" kirana asked as Dave was about to turn around.

"Do you not understand what I'm saying, Kirana ?" a little emotion Dave said. He lowered his head to align with Kirana's face and pointed at her. He was upset that Kirana was questioning what was making him more upset, even though he had explained.

"I just want you to be honest." Kirana told him for the first time.

"I'm being honest !" dave's voice is rising. He was getting frustrated because Kirana was pressing him.

"Then say !" snapped Kirana with a flushed face and bristling eyes.

"Nothing to say anymore. I told you everything." Dave started to calm down. He breathed heavily and looked away. "Don't act like a child. We better finish this scandal for the good name of our family and our partner's feelings."

"Why does everyone say I'm a child ?" Kirana angry. " I'm trying to be honest and they don't want to know ! You keep the good name of the family and the feelings of others. But what about my feelings, our feelings !" For the umpteenth time Kirana cried because of this man.

"What are you crying about, Kirana ?" Dave smiled cynically. But his teary eyes can't lie. "Our feelings ?" he chuckles. "Are you dreaming, huh ?" Dave paused for a moment to sigh and rubbed his hair back, then looked back at Kirana . "Remove your feelings. Never be big and dreamy that is impossible." Dave says. "There is no feeling unless we are just brothers on paper. You and Jonathan and I will soon marry my fiancee. We'll be happy with each other's choices." Dave paused for a moment to regulate his emotions. He swallowed. There was an unbearable feeling as she looked at Kirana's teary face staring at her without blinking.

Once again Dave took a deep breath. He bowed for a moment and brushed his hair back. "..We have a right to be selfish." Dave said after a moment of silence. "But if our selfishness sacrifices many things and especially the happiness of parents, wouldn't it be better for us to learn to accept ?" Dave looked at Kirana with a difficult expression.

Kirana could not hold back her tears. His heart hurts to hear it. So painful that it felt tight even though he had squeezed his chest shirt. Dave's right, too much is being sacrificed. For the first time Kirana imagined the look on Jonathan's face. Jonathan is his good little friend, who always protects him. Which is always there in every way he needs it. Even now Jonathan has become a great actor with a myriad of achievements and has many fans. But Kirana's attitude and unfortunately never changed.

"Trust me, learning to love the person who loves us is easier. You can do it too." Dave smile. The smile that made Kirana envious of Angela, because Dave never showed her that friendly face. But this time Dave smiled and it showed him.

Kirana. Now only he knew, all this time he saw it only from afar. And when Dave smiles at close range like this. Kirana could tell if the smile was fake with my eyes expressionless.

"Again, Dave." Kirana said after wiping her tears.

Dave was still standing in front of him and was looking at him.

"Say once if we feel the same way." Kirana's tears are back. "Tell me that what I'm feeling isn't wrong."

Dave's heart is shaking. Grieved at the bottom of the heart that he tried to hold for years when he remembered the face that was now in front of him and was shedding tears. His stiffened face slowly loosened and his lips formed a sincere smile without saying anything.