Selfish Husband

Powerless Feelings

Vania seemed to lose her voice unable to continue her speech when she felt a hand violently touch her cheek.

For the first time Zeyn touched Vania with a slap right in the face. A very hard blow made his head come to a forced look. The surface of his face was warming. Vania did not expect something like this would happen and succeeded in making her stunned.

"Look yeah! Don't ever repeat that to me again." Threaten Zeyn with the jaw starting to harden. "And how dare you pin things like that or maybe you're whoring*r out there, huh? that's why you think I do the same thing you do?"

Vania was sobbing from the pain she felt or perhaps Zeyn's words were so piercing that they made her this sick.

Vania tried to brush off the thought because the sentence had been heard very often from her father's mouth, and Zeyn's punch was not comparable to the punch her father did.

"But why should I cry?" vania said in her heart.

"Don't look at me with that pitiful look of yours because it just makes me sick. I said this once and will never repeat it again. If you ruin my good name, I don't hesitate to ruin your life either"

"Stop it" said Vania while hiding her pitiful face. Vania could not stand it and her anger had now touched the crown.

"What did you say?" with a rough rub of tears on his cheeks. Vania slowly raised her head and floated a wrathful look.

"What do I feel like in hell right now, so what's the worst thing that's gonna happen, huh?"

Seen from the look of Zayn's face that does not like the words of Vania. Vania with slow steps and hands that were still busy getting rid of the unceasing liquid coming out of her eyes. Vania is tired of being a doll and she doesn't want it to happen again.

"You have no right to touch let alone hit me" Vania said sarcastically.

His hand spontaneously raised and also left a red mark on Zeyn's handsome face. Vania felt her soul disappear leaving her body, a feeling of fear attacked again. Zeyn rubbed his reddened cheeks, a murderous gaze emerging from the look in his eyes.

"So, this is what you want, ******? You deliberately caused a conflict?" zeyn shouted right in front of Vania's frightened face.

Zeyn pushes Vania's body against the wall. The pain felt by Vania and the knee that is getting longer can not support her body.

"So now you dare to fight me?" ask Zeyn and strangle Vania's neck. Vania's mouth was clenched speechless." You seem to want to get hit so badly?"

Vania seemed to forget how to breathe properly and her head felt like it was going to explode. "Will he kill me?" inner Vania.

"All you have to do is act like a perfect wife, but you can't do that. You're a useless and pathetic woman. You came to destroy me and bring misery into my life."

After finishing his sentence Zeyn left Vania. Vania never thought about why and why all this had to happen. Vania was only able to curl up and hug tightly to her two knees, crying out as Zeyn's words reverberated in her head.

Vania is facing a great test of life. The feeling of helplessness, was not what he expected at this moment.

Vania never thought after being free from the pressure of her parents, her life was even more chaotic. Vania realized after living with Zeyn it turns out she also needs a role of feeling in supporting her life. Something he never experienced and never knew.

The word matchmaking made Vania very aware of it. From the beginning Zeyn even convinced Vania that she would never have feelings for Vania. But who wouldn't want to hear the word marriage or husband. After hearing what Zeyn had said just now, Vania did not expect that it would happen again in the future.

But Vania just wants to live a normal life without lies, no words of pretending, without having to be a puppet, without violence, with someone who can be close to her, accept her advantages and disadvantages, he said, care about Vania's situation, and hope to live happily. Is that too hard for Vania?

All that hope seemed to melt away, leaving Vania lying on the floor, crying, just like the previous nights.

All the actions that Zeyn took became a big blow to Vania's life. Vania has been through everything for years. Zeyn's actions were the same as the ones Vania's father had done. Blame, scream, and now hit. But Zeyn's treatment of Vania is almost nothing compared to what her father did. But why did Vania have to cry and feel hurt? Is his hope of living a normal life already shattered?

Vania is also wrong, she already knows Zeyn is drunk and will be angry if Vania dares to fight him. Of all Zeyn's words, Vania should have remained silent but the rice had become pureed and Vania's position was also being emotionally consumed by Zeyn's words.

Vania's father did not do much to his son, but he gave him a decent place to live, education and gave him enough money. Except for lack of love, affection and honesty.

From childhood to growing up, Vania has everything there is not even less in her life. Although she had to accept abuse and abuse, Vania would not cry if she heard harsh words or swearing from her father's mouth. He even had time to think if he was created as a human being who is not equipped with tear glands. But along with Zeyn, Vania had to dismiss that thought and know she had it too.

And maybe Vania was angry that she had just had a happy day and Zeyn ruined everything.

Vania didn't hold it back, her emotions just came out. It only took a second as Vania's hand bravely slapped Zeyn's face. Vania is very sorry to do so. There was something in Zeyn's eyes that made him feel afraid to make him want to die right then and there.

After the slapping incident occurred, Vania only realized that she was very afraid of Zeyn, her husband.

"I thought he'd be my savior, but he hurt me more."

After being satisfied with crying, Vania did what she used to do in this situation. Vania will take the P3K box and take it to the bathroom and with the help of mirror reflections she can give medicine to the area of her face and neck so as not to leave marks.