Selfish Husband

Unilateral Love

There was nothing more that Vania could do, she nodded in agreement with the deal Zeyn made, after quite a while of silence in her place. Vania finally stood up and ran out of the house, even reluctant to see Zeyn, Zeyn said as if to lead her to nod her head.

Vania tried hard to wipe away the tears that had been flooding her cheeks, her head lowered to hide her pitiful face. Vania walks aimlessly, she just follows wherever her footsteps will take her.

There were no problems with the previous marriage contract, Vania was only disappointed that Zeyn added a new part to the contract.

"I have no problem with his cold behavior towards me, I accept all his hatred, I have no problem with the intensity of my encounter with him lacking, he said, I'm fine with all that because I know one thing for sure, I have it. I have at least one person next to me. Even though he doesn't care about me, all I need is his presence. His erratic attitude, thinking I don't exist and then being sweet to make my heart melt is also okay, because I know he is with me. I hope one day his harsh and cold attitude will fade with time." Vania hit her chest softly which felt tight.

"But now I don't even have hope, I can't have it. Zeyn's gonna leave me. I don't have anyone, I'm alone anymore. Unfair, there's nothing left for me? what's gonna happen to me? should I die? because my mom and dad won't let me live after this divorce. Plus when they find out if the one who filed for divorce is me, then gradually I will feel the pain of torture, endless suffering. That's what's gonna be waiting for me. Not only will my heart ache but my whole body will also feel pain. I'd rather lose it because of another woman, lose it because of my lack of affection for me. But losing Zeyn to his own will was too painful for me to bear,"

"What can I do? I will lose the only person I care about, the only person I miss, do I not deserve to be happy or just hope, God?" tears flow like rain in the cold night wind.

Vania sat on the park bench, let out all her anger and calmed her heart and mind. For a while Vania had felt relaxed even though a hiccup in her chest never disappeared but still staring at the sky at night made her feel a little calm.

Vania spends her time in silence but the fluid in her eyes still comes out without her permission. Vania turned to look at her barefoot walking foot. "I even forgot how to wear sandals."

Something cold touched the surface of her cheek skin, Vania looked up with her eyes wide open. He's Yudha with ice cream in his hand.

Vania smiled faintly, her heart breaking as if it was revived just by looking at the handsome face of Yudha.

The look on Yudha's face shriveled to see Vania, but Vania gave him no time to ask questions or react. For now Vania just needs warmth and a backrest.

Vania stood facing Yudha and thoughtlessly hugged the man she knew was her husband's best friend, drowning his face in the chest of Yudha's field.

Tears began to wash over Yudha's clothes because of the sobbing Vania. Yudha did not even move but her hands spontaneously raised stroking Vania's back, calming down.

'I just found out if hugging someone makes me sob even more and I promise I won't do it again, ' she murmured inwardly. Vania slowly took off her arms and took a few steps back, wiping away the tear marks on her face.

"I'm sorry, I'm not polite to do what I want without thinking about your comfort. Again forgive me."

"T-no, that's okay," Yudha laughed awkwardly and scratched her nape misbehaved.

The silence began to hit, the awkward feeling began to feel.

"This .. eat this," said Yudha to give ice cream. "I hope it will comfort you," Vania accepted Yudha's gift while nodding softly.

Yudha sat on the bench and Vania did the same. Yudha tried to dilute the awkwardness between them. Starts to break out the rant and makes Vania laugh because of the joke Yudha made. Vania couldn't help but laugh, even if her eyes were heating up from crying and she didn't care much about the words Yudha said. But her face was enough to make Vania feel better. His eyes were curled as he smiled, his soft-sounding voice had already made Vania feel an ultimate comfort.

"thanks for your efforts that made me smile. Thank you Yud ...."

"If you feel weird about the call, just call brother. That sounds more familiar."

"That means we're friends now" Yudha added and made Vania smile. For him, this was the first time in his life that someone had invited him to be friends.

Yudha lowered her head to tie her loose shoelaces, but her eyes focused on Vania's bare feet. "Wait here, I want to buy something first in the store across," Yudha said as she pointed at the department store across the street. Yudha ran away from Vania on the bench.

It didn't take long, Yudha came back and a bag of crackles in her hand. Yudha crouched right in front of Vania took out a pair of sandals from inside the pouch and put them at Vania's feet.

Vania was stunned when she felt Yudha's hand pull on her leg and put a sandal on her leg. Is Vania moved? the answer was yes, he was moved because happy at least there was a figure of a man who cared about him.

"Thank you, sister" said Vania stammering as she held back her sobbing and her eyes began to blur.

"I won't ask why you're crying and why you're here in this condition" Yudha said, as if she were a brother worried about her sister's condition. "If you're calm enough, I hope you can tell me everything later."

Yudha's smile reappeared on her handsome face and stood up. "Unfortunately, you have to leave now because there's an appointment and again, don't try to cry when I'm not around, okay?" threatening Yudha with a joke and gently stroking the head of Vania.

"Yes, brother," said it as if full of struggle for Vania to take out. The next second Vania waved her hand and was also countered by Yudha.

***

Vania was no longer afraid, although there was still the fear of losing Zeyn but after hearing the word friend coming out of Yudha's mouth, the fear slowly disappeared.

Vania breathed a heavy sigh as she looked at the piece of paper she should have signed the consent. Vania began to think rationally, what actions should she do because there is no choice for her to choose.

"I even lost the power to make him change his mind and cancel this plan, but back again I am worthless in his life and this is his desire to divorce even more he has admitted if he is not happy with this marriage." lirih Vania.

Vania doesn't have the courage to express that if she likes Zeyn, Vania can't, can't even say a word. Vania is aware that the likes she has are only on her side and do not apply to Zeyn.

"I have to face it myself, this is not the case. Even though she was nice to me sometimes, being sweet to the point of making my heart pound, Zeyn still felt nothing against me and wanted to throw me out of her life. What can I do, this may be my destiny, "

Just thinking about it already made his heart ache and his eyes started to water. Vania took a deep breath and threw it away slowly as she remembered her promise to Yudha not to cry anymore.

Vania grabs the pen and starts signing the contract.