Selfish Husband

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Vania was well aware of every word she said from Zeyn's mouth that made her sicker. An almost unbearable pain, like something was tearing his heart apart. His body felt weak and tears began to pour from his fertilizer.

"In addition, we have signed the divorce papers" Zeyn said with a grin. Vania.

"What?"

"Don't pretend to be stupid. The letter you signed, our marriage contract. It's clear there that we're getting a divorce."

"A-I .. I don't .. never did."

"What's? Don't act stupid" Zeyn opened the drawer and pulled out a piece of paper. "I have the proof and here is your signature." Zeyn pointed at the paper and Vania clearly saw her name and signature. "Don't fool yourself, it'll all be over soon."

Vania did not think long, her body moved without being commanded by her brain. Take over the paper that Zeyn was holding and start tearing it into pieces.

"What are you doing?" peekit Zeyn's. Subconsciously his hand slapped Vania's left cheek. The sudden treatment made Vania stagger unable to keep up before finally falling to the floor. His hands had no energy to simply brush his hair, tears began to flood his cheeks. Zeyn tries to reach out his hand and is not responded by Vania because she is more likely to leave.

***

Vania found herself ringing her parents' doorbell. "Why did I come here?" if asked why, Vania would not know because her footsteps work by themselves.

Finally the door opened and Vania saw her father. He doesn't look happy but Vania keeps barging in. It could be ascertained if his face was a little angry at the arrival of his daughter.

"What are you doing here?" ask her in a tone that does not imply happiness. "Do you have any problems and run away from your husband?" his lips.

"I don't want to stay with him anymore" Vania said, sounding very sad.

"What's? are you out of your mind?"

"I just want to go home! can't it?" please Vania.

"You're kidding! quickly go ... Your house is not here. Out." she forced Vania's hand to turn around and pushed Vania out. "Go, you useless! all female traits are the same, go at will."

Vania tried to pull the father's leg but his strength was not strong enough, instead being kicked violently to get out. "You are no different than your mother! Get out of my house!" she pushed Vania once more and Vania fell into a standstill as she fell down, her face slammed hard enough on the side of the door and her hands were flushed red from repeatedly falling to the ground.

Vania slumped, her knees trembling and her tears streaming down from her eyes shortly after the door closed.

"Zeynan you broke my heart."

***

Zeyn didn't even think it would happen, his hand spontaneously reacted and slapped his wife. At least that's the first thing Zeyn remembers because of Vania's demanding behavior. A powerful punch made Zeyn finally wake up within a few seconds. Everything that happened after that became dark.

"Argh," growled Zeyn rubbing his hair rough.

"I shouldn't have done it," Zeyn was still disappointed with Yudha's problem, that's right. Jealousy overpowered her and also meeting Divya added to the wound in her heart.

There was no intention of Zeyn to say those words. Although Vania's accusation is not true, Zeyn also wants to make Vania jealous but not to that extent. Zeyn never intended to physically harm Vania.

The feeling of regret for his actions so much that it made Zeyn unable to breathe calmly and made his heart cramp a little every time he remembered it, the radiance of fear in Vania's eyes was clearly visible as Zeyn tried to stretch out his hand to help his wife wake up. In those eyes, Zeyn saw himself as a monster.

Zeyn did something he never did before. After realizing everything, Zeyn runs after Vania but cannot find her. Zeyn was frustrated not knowing where to look.

Zeyn groaned and held his head with both hands channeling all his emotions.

The sky was crying. The rain bears witness to a Zeynan's cruelty to his wife.

***

There was nowhere Vania could go, all her hopes were gone, no one cared about her. Everything was gone, his legs were just walking aimlessly, there was no more spirit and hope in his life.

Vania stopped at the park, her eyes scanned around the playground then slowly stared at the night sky. Something that still faithfully accompanied his solitude at such a time was only the moon reflecting its dim light into his lifeless soul.

For a moment closing his eyes enjoying the roar of the wind that hit the surface of his skin, his tears unintentionally dripped very slowly as if his tears were a diamond.

It was the last night, the last time Vania ever felt and the last time she showed her emotions. Without tears, without emotion, without feeling, without sympathy like a lifeless puppet. Vania's promise to herself.

***

Returning from the office, Zeyn found his wife already in the room. Zeyn is eager to talk to Vania, explain everything, apologize but for now Zeyn doesn't want to wake her up.

"He was crying to sleep."

Out of nowhere, Zeyn's hand is stretched out to touch Vania. Comforting him a bit even though his wife was asleep even if Vania knew, Zeyn would still do it to make her heart feel a little more relieved. Zeyn's hand turned to gently touch Vania's cheek skin and caressed her dearly.

***

"I just********* jerk who can't express good treatment. I know, even if I wanted to say or do something, I couldn't. I don't know how to start. That's why all this can happen. All the misunderstandings began to pile up. Since working for Dery's company, you've rarely been home like you used to. So I took the initiative to bring work home. There were plenty of opportunities to talk but every time I tried to talk but Vania dodged."

Zeyn was at a loss for words, seeing her emotionless flat face undo his intention to do so. Every day Zeyn tried to be calm like nothing had happened. Just like he did before. Whatever Zeyn asks, Vania will do. Making breakfast, cooking dinner, going to the pharmacy when Zeyn wasn't feeling well and he bought medicine. Vania's been acting like a robot that's only making things worse for Zeyn. Because he knew the cause of his wife like that was him.

Zeyn grabbed her hand, as Vania tried to turn around after giving Zeyn the medicine.

"Thank you," Zeyn said in a hoarse voice, his hand still unable to escape from Vania's hand.

With a single blow, Vania managed to take her hand off Zeyn's grip and started to leave. Not knowing why and what Zeyn wanted to do because his instincts pushed his body to stand up and again held onto Vania's hand trying to prevent her from leaving.

"Please, don't touch me" she said coldly, without looking at her husband.

Zeyn is so shocked by Vania's words, that her hand instinctively lets go and Vania leaves Zeyn's study. Zeyn sitting in his study chair was still dumbfounded with thousands of bad thoughts running through his head.

Zeyn's thoughts made him feel uneasy at the thought of Vania working at Dery's place.

***

Vania could not act as if Zeyn was not there, nor could she leave the house for too long, as they were married and there were many people who were aware of it. Vania hopes that no one will be able to know what is happening in her household because there is no benefit for them.

For some reason, Vania is very fond of her father-in-law who is very good to her, Vania does not want to make them sad. Vania returns to her former self, at least remaining silent for the next few months before finally divorcing, moving on and never seeing Zeyn again.

"I played my role as the perfect wife, although it was difficult when Zeyn touched me. I had to pay a heavy price to reply with a cold tone, even though his warm hands made me weak."

Initially Vania can still get away, do the job on time, at least like it can take her mind off Zeyn despite draining her time and energy. But it is unfortunate that Vania's fate when she forgot the documents she had read before.

Finished with washing the dishes, Vania tried to find him, Vania patted her softly because she did not know where to store it. As Vania recalled after giving the medicine to Zeyn she just gawked away without caring about the existence of the document.

Vania could not continue her work without the documents. In addition, there was only one computer he could use to search for the files Vania needed. Waiting for 5 minutes, 20 minutes and 1 hour had passed waiting for Zeyn to come out to just go to the bathroom but that was not done Zeyn.

Sighing heavily to build courage, devising tactics on how to hold and turn the doorknob without making a sound. Upon entering, Vania circulated her gaze to the printer and did not want to pay attention to Zeyn, but as strongly as Vania tried. Still, because Zeyn was sitting in his chair and next to the printer was.

Vania tries not to care, even if her brain doesn't want it her heart can't lie. Observe the face sleeping on the table. Vania was relieved and walked over. With all the perfect performances she had done the past few days, Vania still couldn't help but admire that handsome face.

Vania had already put her feelings on him and Vania would not deny that. His eyes scoured Zeyn's reddened cheeks with breaths that were blowing abnormally. A small whisper from his head that asks him to go and not care, do nothing and will make things easier. But Vania's hand remained outstretched touching Zeyn's hot forehead.

"He's not lying. He's sick."

"Zeyn! Zeynan!"

Zeyn's eyes were still closed as someone called out and shook his arm slowly. "Wake up and go to sleep." Zeyn opened his eyes. "You have a fever and I have to move you to bed." Zeyn was a little dizzy, so Zeyn just did what Vania said. Zeyn's hand held the side of the wall to help her walk and Zeyn didn't have much energy so just dropped her body on the bed.

***

The next day, Zeyn felt something cold and wet on his forehead, slowly opening his eyes while still a little blurry but Zeyn tried to raise his hand to rub his eyes but a hand thwarted his intention.

"Sleep" a soft voice gave Zeyn the command to stay asleep.

Zeyn's eyes blinked a few times and looked towards the source of the voice and felt his heart cramp.

'I always hurt him but he stays by my side, takes care of me, comforts me when dad is sick, does everything I want, he shows his attention to me, never holds a grudge,' zeyn murmured inwardly thinking of all the mistakes he had made.

'A smile that makes her face look beautiful, bright and able to melt my cold attitude. But now, I lost it all, only dim eyes full of sadness were emanated.''

'I lose my wife every day, I realize how stupid I feel about her because I don't realize how I feel about her. Now that I realize that sooner or later he's going to leave me, the way to break up with a divorce I really don't want that to happen. Spending time together and now I can't imagine my life without Vania.'

Zeyn desperately wanted to reveal the things that were in his head but his voice was choked. Conversely, when Vania's hand stretched out to change the compress, Zeyn quickly held and cupped it to her cheek.

"Please, forgive me," Zeyn muttered with a stifled sobbing while closing his eyes.