Selfish Husband

Last Card (AND)

“I want to end it all, I'm tired and I want a divorce,” Vania finally said.

The position they were sitting in the living room, there was only the sound of the TV echoing throughout the room.

Vania took a deep breath just to calm herself down, her heart was racing due to nervousness and her stomach was starting to feel tight.

Zeyn had already predicted a moment like this would definitely come. Every day, their relationship deteriorates, and Zeyn knows he is the cause. Feeling that he had destroyed it, returning his wife's personality to what it was. But the question of why remains out of his mouth.

“I .. I can't live with you. That's too hard for me.”

Zeyn hid his face in both of his palms.

Zeyn is not insensitive. Just by looking at her expressionless face, was unhappy when Zeyn touched her. Zeyn already thinks of himself as a jerk who is still allowed to live after all his treatment of Vania.

Zeyn tries to get rid of his guilt, promising not to repeat it again but he still does. Because Zeyn couldn't help it, resisting her cravings because she already considered Vania as the cure.

After getting rid of alcohol as a way to relax to get rid of fatigue after a long day of work and Zeyn needs something new. Something that could calm his broken emotions.

Working in the business field is already frustrating enough, because it is still not too experienced but he needs to maintain the company and bear the entire lives of employees on his shoulders. It feels very heavy if he makes the slightest mistake because it will have a big impact on the company.

Now all the attention is on Zeyn, there are many business rivals waiting for Zeyn's failure. It only takes a small mistake to make a Zeyn fall.

For some reason touching her, seeing her happy while at the bottom had already become a necessity for Zeyn. There's nothing more important than that.

“I see,” Zeyn felt his hands tremble, his heart as if torn apart. “I also think like that, we should be divorced,” a large lump stuck in Zeyn's throat, <TAG1>, every second it gets bigger making it hard to just breathe normally.

“But ... maybe .. we ... I mean... Not now ... I can't now.. “ Zeyn continued stammering.

Zeyn tried his last help card, saying something that would delay things like that from happening. He doesn't even know why, how deeply he hurt and hurt Vania. Zeyn's last wish for things not to end in disappointment and he just needs to make amends.

Then, if it was his wife's will to let him go immediately, Zeyn would let him go in the hope that a miracle would be on his side and Vania would happily choose him back.

But it was only a mere wishful thinking that was manifested in Zeyn's mind. But if that's not the case, Zeyn just hopes that Vania can find her happiness with a man who is more worthy and can make Vania happy born and inner.

“Have you forgotten?”

“about what?”

“Contract, contract we have agreed. You said yourself that if I was the one who had to do it, sued you in court. As you want and plan. I'll make it happen for you.”

Zeyn did not move from his chair, only able to massage his throbbing temples.

“But you've ripped it off,” elak Zeyn.

“I only tore one, you must have a copy.”

“But??? Don't you want to be with me always? I thought...” Zeyn's tone of voice vibrated. Not knowing what to do, what Zeyn said and why he said it.

Didn't Zeyn just need to let him go, instead of holding Vania back from leaving, rather leaving Zeyn behind. Vania has suffered a lot and she deserves to do what she likes and Zeyn should not complicate her path.

“No Zeyn ... You are wrong,” said Vania with eyes that also began to glaze that had become the sky and ocean for Zeyn but now turned to ice cold.

Zeynan. Vania already hates Zeyn and Zeyn can easily feel it. It was clearly emanated from the beautiful eyes of Vania.

There was no chance that Vania would still treat Zeyn well after all the nonsense that happened.

Zeyn resigned and only nodded his head in agreement.

Vania placed several sheets of paper and a pen on the table before standing.

“Everything is done, you just need to sign it,” he walked towards the exit but stopped right before opening the door. “Goodbye, Zeynan Shadiq Daulyn,” he said so slowly that Zeyn could barely hear him. Then shut the door, while Zeyn just sat glued to the seat like an idiot being held hostage with his hands and feet tied.

After a long period of time, Zeyn only realized that what happened a few minutes ago would be the best decision for both of them. Even if Zeyn didn't want to hurt him again, Zeyn still seemed to do it without him noticing.

Zeyn grabs the pen and paper that Vania left behind. Zeyn is the one who got Vania to file for divorce in court, because Zeyn couldn't do it because of her parents. It was Zeyn who started and made this stupid marriage deal. But now, Zeyn cursed himself for doing so.

All Zeyn needed to do was sign the papers and divorce papers that would soon disappear, be erased, like they never were and no one knew.

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Zeyn POVs

From that day on my head was heavy, my body was weak, my heart was empty and everything felt useless.

I sometimes find myself staring blankly somewhere, I can't think normally anymore and just sit idly by doing nothing.

It's been almost a month and I feel like a zombie. Not smiling or pretending to laugh. I felt my smile disappear as soon as she decided to leave my life.

Same everything. I got up, went to the office, did what I had to do. Go back home and sleep. Everything is the same every day nothing interesting and everything feels meaningless anymore.

The house is empty and cold. After a week, I returned home and opened the door hoping to see her standing there.

But it never happened.

I walked through the room after room in my house remembering what he had done, how he looked, how he looked at me sparkling when he saw me coming.

I touched the sink, the memories of the first time I touched it, how soft his skin was, how fragrant his scent was and how warm and soothing his embrace was.

Why am I so stupid and never say anything beautiful? Why have I never praised him?

After a week of trying to reach her, I just seemed stupid for doing it just to give an excuse if I was very busy and had not had time to sign the papers and do it later. Just to buy time.

For the second time, the voice of the operator in the phone tells me if the phone is turned off.

I was powerless, only his cell phone number was left and now it was useless.

I lay down and slept a little sideways. My hand touched the place where he used to sleep, while closing my eyes I imagined his presence there. I could almost clearly feel his presence, caressing his cheek as he fell asleep and watching him sleep soundly in the morning.

When I opened my eyes I could clearly see the figure of my wife with a bright-looking face as if she was really there.

“Zeyn,” said gently. “What happened? You look sad.”

“Where are you?”

“Meanway? Are you sick?” his hand touched my forehead. “I'm here, with you.”

“No! You left me. Where have you been?”

“Do you have nightmares? I'm not going anywhere,” she put her hand on my cheek and I touched the corner of her eye, and I tried to close my eyes feeling her touch with all the senses I had.

“I miss you so much,” I said and a tear came out of my eyes.

I pulled her closer, felt her warmth, smelled a sweet scent on her skin, her soft hair as I stroked her.

“I'm here baby, don't be sad. It makes my heart ache, “ he said as he curled up in my arms and I felt my stomach cramp.

“I'm sorry .. and please don't leave me.”

“Not going, I'm not going anywhere,” he tried to convince me.

“Don't ever leave me again,” I looked into her eyes deeply and cupped her cheeks.

“”Hmmm... I promise.”

I kissed her forehead and felt something salty.

My eyes are open and everything is just a DREAM .

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