Secrets of a Lesbian Heart

Not Being Capable Again

Fida immediately put on her clothes back, then passed away leaving the Star still staring at her. The star, who did not want anything to happen to Fida, immediately ran after him.

"Where are you going, Fii..? Let's go home, it's raining.." Take the Star while pulling Fida's hand, but Fida throws down the Star's hand and just keeps going fast.

It was raining very hard that night, no one was seen outside. So the Stars can be a little relieved, because no one is watching them while on a chase.

"Fii, come home..! Don't be like this, you'll be sick." persuade Bintang to pull Fida's hand, and bring him home to the boarding house.

Upon arrival at the boarding house, Bintang and Fida who were drenched immediately changed their clothes. Then the Star told Fida to go to sleep, because it was late at night.

"Hug, don't let go until I fall asleep." ask Fida for the Star, and the Star does so.

Because it has become his habit when he wants to sleep, he would want to be embraced. The star who once tried to reject him, made Fida angry, being rude and ended up in a fight. From that point on, the Star no longer refused if Fida asked to be hugged when he wanted to sleep.

"Now you sleep, mmhh." said the star as he breathed.

After making sure Fida had fallen asleep, Star slowly let go of her embrace. Because he felt very sore in his hands, then the Star also went to sleep with his back to Fida.

~************~

"I go to work first, Fii.. Don't forget to eat breakfast." Bintang said to Fida.

"Don't go, I want you to win me.." Pinta Fida hugged the Star, he felt heavy every time he saw the Star go to work.

"You can't stay like this, I have to work, Fii.." exclaimed the Star who tried to release Fida's embrace from her.

"But I don't want to be left alone here." said Fida who was getting upset.

"You're not a child anymore Fii, I can't take you to work." said the Star who did not want to fight anymore with Fida.

"That's because you want to be alone with your coworker, right..!" said Fida with a loud tone.

"What the hell are you talking about, he's just a coworker and he's not like us either." explains Bintang while still holding back his emotions.

"Alahh, you must be lying, right, you must like him. Come ngaku..!" snapped Fida who again invites a fight.

"As much as you want to say what, I want to go to work." said the Star as she opened the door, but her hand restrained as Fida pulled and pushed her body against the wall.

"I said don't go, you don't understand, too, haahhh...!" said Fida harshly.

"I'm tired of Fii, so tired..! Facing your increasingly rude attitude with me, I can't be rude but I also have a heart and feelings. I can also get sick and sad.."

The star began to release the uneg-uneg in his heart that he had been holding, because he felt he could no longer hold everything.

"I thought if we stayed here, you would change. I think you really love and love me, but the truth is you're just love yourself. You never cared a bit about how I felt, Fii.." said the Star, holding back her tears.

"Now it's up to you, I don't expect anything else." exclaimed the Star as it passed away with his feelings that could only be explained in one word, tired.

Fida just fell silent while staring at the Star that was far away, he did not know what to think and do. He felt as if he had made a mistake, but could no longer fix it.

~*********~

On the way to work, Bintang contacted Nadya and told her what had happened just now. Then Nadya offered a solution for Bintang, but Bintang was still hesitant and had to think about it.

"Finally Mbak Bintang came too, kirain did not enter." said Alya who greeted Bintang with a smile.

"Yeah Al, I'm sorry I'm late. There was a sudden affair,hee.." explained the star as he put his bag and jacket into a small closet.

"It's okay, Ma'am, I also just cleaned up.." said Alya.

"Yaa already Al, then we start cleaning up.." invited Bintang with a smile, He tried hard to cover his sorrow from Alya.

"Bak Bintang is crying..?" ask Alya suddenly.

"Hahh, not really Al.." said Bintang trying to behave as usual.

"But Mbak's eyes look swollen, like crying that way." explained Alya.

"Not Al, yes it's been focused in order. Let's get it done quickly." said the star who switched the conversation.

"When it was crying just for a while, why can it be as versatile as well." murmured the Star in the heart.

Seriate...

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