RUINED MY HOPE

36. Feel Guilty

Zidan, Zidan," cried Sintia from outside the Panji house.

"It was like a mamah voice, yeah" said Zidan from inside the Panji house.

"Ah no way, your mama must be busy working," said Panji who tried to lie to Zidan.

"But I want to look out for the reward first to make sure," said Zidan who was strong with his premonition. He was sure that the one who called him was his mother.

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"Pennants.. The banner! I'm sure Zidan must be inside. Quickly open," cried Sintia who had been knocking on the door of the Panji house.

One minute, two minutes passed. There was no answer from the house. But Sintia was still reluctant to leave the house because she was very sure that Zidan was inside.

A few moments later Panji finally opened the door.

"Where's Zidan?" sintia asked with her voice raised. Sintia looks so angry.

"Please, Zidan is with me safely" Panji replied.

"Zidan this is mamah son," cried Sintia who immediately rushed into the house. Sintia searches for her son's whereabouts to every corner. Sintia ran from one place to another.

Sintia was almost desperate. Sintia also sat down limp on the floor. He was confused to find where else. But not how long Zidan finally came out of the room while running.

"Mom," called Zidan as he ran into his mother's arms.

"Darling where are you going? From earlier mamah was looking for you," said Sintia who immediately hugged her son so tightly. During her new life this time Sintia felt the loss of Zidan.

"Sorry, I went with papah" replied Zidan.

The Flashback

Today Panji intends to meet his son without Sintia's knowledge. For that Panji immediately went to Zidan's school because soon he will go home from school. Panji immediately launched his vehicle so quickly.

After a while, Panji finally arrived at the school. At the same time Zidan had just dropped out of his class.

"Zidan!" call the Panji from the front of the Zidan class. Panji sees Zidan when he just dropped out of his class.

"Isn't he? What are you doing here?" ask plain Zidan. Zidan was confused because he did not usually come to see him. It's been a long time that his father has never seen Zidan.

"I'm sorry papah Zidan if all this time my father paid less attention to Zidan, papah khilaf. But this time papah wants to make amends papah, papah wants to take you for a walk," said Panji who spoke with Zidan.

Panji tries to convince Zidan that he wants to come with him. After some felt alone finally Panji wanted to see Sintia and her son.

Hearing his papa's words made Zidan feel that what his father said was sincere. After a long time Zidan missed his father a lot. Zidan was silent for a moment thinking about his departure with the papah.

"Why silence, son?" asked Panji who saw his son suddenly fell silent.

"I've forgiven papah" replied Zidan.

"really son? Are you sure you have forgiven papah, how about we go to make amends papah," added Panji who tried to convince Zidan that he wanted to be invited to go with him.

"But pah, how will mamah? I must have been scolded for leaving without his knowledge" said Zidan, who was afraid that his mother would be angry.

"It's okay, baby, let Papah call.

"Dear, you don't worry" said Zidan, who immediately took Zidan into his car.

Panji deliberately picked up Zidan because today he will take him for a walk. Panji felt guilty because all this time he had ignored him. Panji immediately took Zidan to the center of the game.

Panji invites Zidan so he can play together. Panji invites Zidan to one of the malls that are quite luxurious. Panji deliberately invites Zidan to the game master, the biggest game center in the mall.

They play several games, ranging from car racing, motor racing, playing basketball and many more. Zidan looks so happy.

During his new life Zidan felt he had a father.

Likewise with Panji who felt sorry for ignoring Zidan all along. Zidan knew nothing all along. Zidan is just a victim of Panji's selfishness.

"Excuse me papah son because all this time papah does not care about you," muttered Inner Panji who saw his son so happy. Zidan looked so happy when he was playing.

They were almost at the mall all day. Almost all Zidan games try it until he feels exhausted and starts to starve.

"Why are you, son?" ask Panji who saw Zidan holding his stomach since then.

"Do you have stomach pain, son?" ask Panji again.

"Not the thigh, I'm not a stomachache. But I'm hungry" replied Zidan, who shrunk the volume.

"Oh kirain you have a stomachache," chuckled Panji who felt insensitive to what his son felt.

That is the difference between men and women, women will pay more attention to their children. While men do not know if at an hour like this is a lunch hour.

After hearing the answer from his son Panji immediately rushed to invite Zidan to the place to eat. Panji invites Zidan to eat at one of the restaurants not so far from the game. Panji invites Zidan to eat in a restaurant that must be liked by children.

Panji immediately ordered 2 rice and 2 fried chicken along with drinks. The grown Zidan ate his own food. He had eaten so badly because he had been starving ever since.

"Eat a lot of children" said Panji who displace Zidan's head.

Zidan nodded without answering his father's words because his mouth was filled with food. Panji was happy to see his son so happy.

"I'm sorry papah son because all this time papah pay less attention to you," muttered inner Panji who again felt guilty.

"Do you want more, son?" ask Panji again.

"No reward, I'm full" Zidan replied, holding his full stomach. Panji smiled at his son who was so funny.

"What do you want to eat, baby?" ask Panji who wants to spoil his son.

"No reward, my stomach is full. Now that I want to go home, you must be worried" said Zidan.

"Yes dear but we go home papah well, later let mamah who will pick you up," said Panji.

After listening to his papa, Zidan finally agreed. Now they go home to Panji. Throughout the journey Zidan never stop telling stories. The pennant who heard Zidan's rambling smiled.

Not long after they finally arrived at Panji's house. Panji brought Zidan into the room so Zidan could rest. Before long when Zidan would lay his body, Zidan was like hearing someone call him.

"Mommy, isn't that your voice?" zidan.