RUINED MY HOPE

16. Like the Fruit of Simalakama

A few days later Arin still can't forget the events of that night with Reza. Even until this moment Arin still cursed himself. Arin was disappointed in himself. Arin never thought that in his life he would do that before marriage.

"What should I do? Should I get married soon? But I'm not ready to be a wife. I still want to be free and reach for my ideals" said Arin, who was lying on the bed.

Today Arin deliberately took a leave of absence because he felt unwell after yesterday's incident. After doing so Arin came home drenched in rain. Arriving at home, Arin again punished himself by dousing his body with a shower in the bathroom.

That's what caused Arin to finally catch a cold. He felt if his whole body felt pain and his head was a little dizzy. Not long after Arin's phone rang. Then Arin was forced to wake up from his sleep and take the flat object on the nightstand.

At first Arin did not pick up his phone, but eventually he picked it up for fear that the phone was an important phone. Without seeing from whom the call was Arin immediately picked it up because his phone was ringing since earlier.

"Hallo, who do you want to talk to? Is this Reza's sister?" replied Arin who immediately picked up the phone without seeing who called him.

"That's why you're okay." asked Reza across the street.

"Yes, I'm just a little unwell."

"What's? Then I'll come and bring you some food."

A few minutes later, the call ended. Arin did not think that the one who called him was Reza. But Arin was so angry with Reza because of yesterday's incident. How Arin had to dodge while Reza was on his way to his house.

Elsewhere, Reza is worried after finding out that Arin is not feeling well. Reza felt guilty because of yesterday's incident.

"Is Arin sick because of yesterday?" inner murmur Reza.

Before leaving for work, Reza plans to visit Arin first. On the way to Arin's house, Reza buys breakfast porridge for Arin. At high speed Reza launched his vehicle. Reza was really worried about Arin's current state. Half an hour later, Reza arrived at Arin's house.

"Excuse me, rin! This is brother," cried Reza while knocking on the door.

Not long after Arin came to open the door.

"Sir Reza? Why are you here?" ask Arin.

"Where are you now? We should go to the doctor" said Reza who was very worried about Arin's condition.

"I'm okay, brother. I'm just a regular headache" replied Arin.

"This brother bring you porridge," said Reza, who offered a black packet containing porridge.

"Thank you, why bother everything" said Arin.

"Eh, you forget, sit down first, brother," said Arin.

"It's okay, brother just stopped by for a while because he had to leave for work immediately" replied Reza.

"Oiya, I'm sorry about yesterday's incident. Brother will take responsibility" Reza said before leaving Arin's house.

"Come on, brother, I'll think about it later" replied Arin.

"Yes, brother," replied Arin while nodding his head.

Arin was very confused as to what to do. Does Arin have to get married soon? If married maybe Arin will not be able to realize all his hopes. But if not Arin also feels confused because Arin is afraid if married to someone else will how.

Like a simalakama fruit, Arin felt confused and stuck with a big decision. Not married how, married how. It's hard to think about all this. If you can choose Arin just want to be a school child who does not think about many things.

How difficult it is to be an adult. So many things to think about and so many things to decide. It's just that it's just a wish. It is impossible if we have to reject the destiny that happens in our lives.

Plus Arin who does not have a mother, feels confused to tell whom. Every time there's a problem, Arin just keeps it to himself. There was no one else he trusted. That's what makes Arin never complain if he is in trouble.

Although Arin had been living together with his father, but it did not make Arin open to his father. Arin never told his father anything. This happened because his father was not so sympathetic to Arin, so there was a distance between them.

Let alone crying, showing if he was sad it felt Arin could not. Arin can always cover up any problems. For Arin the problem does not need to be revealed or must be told to others. Enough of him who knows and feels every problem that occurs in his life.

The next day, Arin's father had just arrived from out of town.

"Assalamualaikum," said Mr. Cokro while knocking on the door.

"Waalaikumsalam warrohmatullohi wabarokatuh, the father has gone home," replied Arin who looks happy when his father came home.

"Why father does not give news if he goes home today, Arin can prepare food for father," Arin said while greeting his father.

"Ah that'll definitely trouble you, son. After all, I bought some food on the street," his father said, offering a black crackle containing some kind of food.

"Wah fun a lot of food," said Arin who immediately opened the contents of the bag.

"Wah there soto, fried, martabak chocolate Arin's favorite. Thank you, well," said Arin who directly devoured his favorite food.

"Then, dad rest first Well," said Mr. Cokro as he passed to his room. The trip is quite far to make Mr. Cokro very tired.

"Dad not eat first?" ask Arin.

"Father had eaten earlier in the street," replied Mr. Cokro.

Arin just nodded his head and continued to devour his food one by one. After her father enters the room, Arin thinks back about her marriage. I don't know what Arin had to say to his father.

"How do I talk to Dad? What am I supposed to say?" inner murmur Arin monologue.

Arin thought for a moment, thinking about how, what he should do. For a while his mind floated until finally Arin was thinking of meeting his aunt in the village.  In addition, there were also his grandparents. Maybe talking to them will make Arin get answers to what he thinks.

"Yes, I think I should go see my aunt in the village first. I will tell about the wedding to auntie," muttered Arin who was feeling excited.

One week later, Arin finally went to see his aunt in the village. In addition to her aunt, there are also still grandparents, and some relatives of her late mother.