RUINED MY HOPE

27. Poor Zidan

In the taxi Sintia was confused about where to go. Actually he has no purpose to go anywhere, just that Sintia feels it is not good if you have to trouble Reza and Arin again. Sintia really did not intend to take Reza from Arin.

It's just that there's always a chance for Reza and Sintia to always be together. That's what makes Arin always misunderstand to record both.

"Where shall I go" murmured Sintia.

The car continues to go. It's been almost an hour on their way.

"Sorry ma'am where are we going?" ask the driver politely.

No answer at all. Sintia was still busy in her daydream.

"Mom" called the driver a second time. This time Sintia was shocked. He was surprised because he had been daydreaming.

"Oh yes sir what's wrong?" asked Sintia who linked the two halis. He really did not hear that the driver had called him since.

"Where are you going down? Since I've been going around in circles, where are you really going?" ask the taxi driver. He felt astonished because only this time there were confused passengers.

"Yes I've got down here sir," said Sintia who immediately got out of the car and immediately gave the fare.

"Okay ma'am" replied the driver, who immediately found the car. After the passengers were confirmed down, the driver again plugged the gas. The driver was looking for the next passenger.

"Where's this? Do I have to find a hotel or rental house around here, just" muttered Sintia.

"Where are we, mah?  I'm tired of wanting to rest" whined Zidan.

"We will find a home for both of us, son," said Sintia while aligning her body with Zidan.

"We take a short walk ahead of there. Maybe there is a house to rent. If to rent a hotel kaya mamah money will not be enough," explained Sintia who gave an explanation to Zidan.

They also walked a few meters, not too far Sintia read a jia writing this house will be rented. Sintia immediately rushed to the house and knocked on the door of the owner. After asking the truth if the house will indeed be rented.

It was quite simple because there was only one room, but it was enough for Sintia and Zidan. Actually, Sintia does not have enough money to rent a hotel or buy a house. It's just that now as a mother, Sintia must be clever to manage. Of Finance. Plus now he's just a single parent.

After paying for the next month, Sintia immediately entered the house.

"I live, ma'am. Here's the key, the house was cleaned a few days ago. I hope you stay here" said the owner of the house..

"Yes ma'am thank you very much" replied Sintia who immediately opened the door of her house. The house is quite simple because there is only one room.

"Zidan it's okay if we're going to stay here for a while" said Sintia, who tried to comfort Zidan.

"It's okay mah, Zidan is happy. Here is enough for both of us to stay" replied Zidan who was always able to accept all this. At a young age, Zidan was always able to understand his mother.

"Yes ma'am, it's cool that we finally have a home too" Zidan cheered after almost a full day on the way.

The house was equipped with various household furniture, so Sintia did not feel difficulties even though she had first moved to the place. It's just food that's not in this house yet.

"I have to cook, pity Zidan must be hungry. I was confused where to look for food. I don't see any stalls here" muttered the inner Sintia.

Tok..

"Excuse me" shouted someone from outside the house.

"Yes for a moment" cried Sintia who soon realized from her daydream.

"What's up, ma'am? Please come in," bargained Sintia who was surprised by the arrival of a homeowner earlier.

"No need, I just want to give a little food for your child" said the owner of the house who immediately gave food in the form of rice and pauknya.

"I was so bad, there is no need to bother everything," said Sintia who was embarrassed because she was given food.

"It's okay mom. I feel sorry for the new mother coming and there is definitely no food. Then I'm sorry" said the homeowner.

"Alhamdulillah then ma'am. Once again thank you very much ma'am," said Sintia again who felt happy because there was finally food for the two of them.

"Sama-sama ma'am," said the mother and immediately rushed away.

"Alhamdulillah, just now Sintia thought of food for her son now that food was in front of her.

After the mother left, Sintia immediately rushed in and brought her food. Sintia immediately opened the food given by the house owner's mother. Sintia was happy because she and her son were finally able to eat. After finishing their meal, they immediately rushed to sleep.

"Pity you son, at your age you have felt all this. Actually I can't bear to see you like this. Far from your father, but mother has no other choice," muttered Sintia as she stroked her son's head with teary eyes.

Sintia always wondered if I was her father alive maybe her life wouldn't be like this. Maybe Zidan will feel the affection of a grandfather. Maybe Zidan won't feel lonely. Again Sintia shed her tears if she remembers about her late father.

"If I hadn't wasted Reza in the past, I might be living happily with Reza now" muttered Sintia, who regretted what she had done to Reza.

At that time Sintia really did not like Reza, even she always looked one eye. Even Sintia never appreciated Reza in the least. Now that Reza has another woman, Sintia begins to realize all her mistakes.

"I'm sorry Za, if I never wasted you. Maybe our lives will be happy now. Tspi what I've been thinking, it's not good if I always look back. It is better now that I am correcting my every mistake and focusing more on looking after Zidan," Sintia's inner murmur that almost overnight could not close her eyes.

Sintia looked at her son's face beside Zidan. Sintia felt guilty because she still could not be a good mother. For some reason every look on her son's face made Sintia's heart feel calm. His face was so innocent that Sintia wanted to look at him for a long time.

"May be healthy always son, may long live, mother always pray happiness for you dear. I hope you will grow up to be a strong man" Sintia said as she rubbed Zidan's head.