REX AND REN

Epilogues

I woke up at dawn, I looked at my waker clock which showed at 5:00 a.m. The first thing I do is look up at the ceiling, think about everything that has happened in my life. I thought back to when I first entered High School, the look of fear and embarrassment on my face was clearly drawn.

Ren the introvert.

That's the label I built myself to define myself. I thought, when I become an introvert, then I won't experience many life obstacles. But it turned out to be wrong! Whether you are an introvert or not, as long as you live in this world, problems will always exist. God will test you with problems to make you a strong and strong person. At least that's the conclusion I can draw.

I failed at Oxford, and there's nothing I can do about it. My chair is still there only they have given it to someone else. Actually I had an e-mail to ask if I could take a follow-up exam. But with a heavy heart, they said that it could not be done. Of course, an Oxford-class college wouldn't be willing to waste time on someone like me. While out there there are still many other genius kids who are megantre to get one seat there.

I closed my eyes, recalling all about us, me and Niko. He will move to Germany and that is his prerogative. I can't be selfish to force and keep him here with me.

So, last night I made an appointment with him to sort out our problem well. Because last time I just ran away without giving Niko a chance to talk. I decided to meet at the park near my home complex. So, if I can't stand it and want to cry, I can run straight to the house without needing to bother taking a taxi.

“Sorry yes, Ren. I told you suddenly.” he said.

I just shrugged my shoulders.

“I..not going to Oxford.” I said.

“Hah? Why?” asked Niko in a surprised tone.

I looked at him with a smile.

“Because I cut out to be unemployed for one year.”

Niko seemed to think but then smiled. He was bearded as if he understood the true meaning of my words just now.

Then silence.

I know this is the time when Niko will make a decision about our relationship. I know Niko must have made a choice as well.

“Ren, I just want you to know. Even though I'm moving to Germany, I don't want our relationship to end.” I looked at him seriously. Even more serious than before.

What did he say just now?

“Yeah, I want us to keep dating.”.

“You mean, we're LDR, so?” I said with great difficulty.

Niko nodded.

I don't know what percentage of LDR couples succeed and end up happy. I mean, being in a relationship with a boyfriend who's miles away from us, that must be really hard. But seeing the confidence in Niko's gray eyes, I also want to be sure.

Love is scary. Love changed. Love cannot disappear. Love is love and sorrow. That's part of the risk. I don't want to be scared. I want to be brave and try it with Niko.

A loud noise rippled my daydream, I listened intently, it seemed like someone opened the front door. I removed the blanket, got up and walked to the window. I pulled the curtain down and it looked like Rex was on the front page. Wearing training jerseys and pants, he slowly set foot on the grass.

My lips are attracted, my smile expands.

The memories of Rex swirled around in my brain.

The little Rex who nudged the birthday cake.

Rex who mocked me while dancing.

Rex was holding me when I got B minus.

Rex hugged me when I was heartbroken. And Rex who was annoyed was forced to wear Rilakkuma couple clothes.

Rex is always there for me. My twin Rex is always there for me, love and sorrow.

Even if I fail at Oxford and Niko will be away from me, but at least I still have Rex. From this moment on, replace me who will always be there for him. Help him get through the joys and sorrows. Even when the world is destroyed, at least me and Rex still have each other.

The sky slowly paled into a light blue. The sun had not yet risen, but my eyes were too fresh to go back to sleep. I changed my nightgown with sweatpants and sweatshirts. Then go down and open the front door to join Rex.

“Need help?” I said so standing in front of him.

Rex was stretching out his arms to balance his body while stepping. He laughed at my appearance.

“Ngak. You must be jorokin me.”

“Haha...” We are both devastated.

“I want to recover, Ren. I can play basketball again. Can return kayak usually.” he said later.

I'm nodding. Perhaps because of the strong inner bond, I understood it. Hugely.

I breathe the morning air that feels fresh in my lungs. I know that after all this, it doesn't mean that my problems are over. Other problems will surely come in turn. But today, the sun will surely shine brightly and I am at peace with myself.