REX AND REN

First Heartbreak

Three days had passed since the beating. I don't know what's in Rex's brain to do such a shameful act. Until now I still don't know why Rex hit Abi. Every time I ask him why, he just answers, ‘because he's a dick.‘

On what basis did he say that Abi was a jerk? Did she know that Abi was so good to me? Does he know that Abi always helps me? Does Rex know I like him? Rex always acts like he knows everything, but he doesn't know anything. It sucks!

I was sitting in the pantry forming cookie dough into balls and rolling them into a bowl of cinnamon and sugar. This snickerdoodle cake I made as an apology to Abi for what Rex did. I can't just ignore that anyway. I mean, I'm really not feeling good, everybody knows that Rex is my twin brother.

I used to want to make cup cakes, but I think it's too ordinary. Alahasil, after looking through my mom's recipe book, my choice fell on a snickedoodle, a pastry made from flour, sugar and butter dough, which was then coated in sugar flour and cinnamon. Well, it looks like it's a good fit and I hope the sweetness of the sugar in this cake can make Abi feel better.

“Wah, what else, Ren?” asked the mother who came out of nowhere. Mama looks to be carrying a pepper bag, I think she's out shopping.

“Create cake, Ma.”

“Kue? What cake?” asked Mama who is now compiling groceries in the refrigerator.

“Snickerdoodle.” reply me spirit.

“Hmm..need help?” my mother who is now beside me. I'm shaking.

“Ngak, Mom. Ren can, kok.”

“Emang for whom?” I let out a long sigh, and suddenly a sense of annoyance approached, before finally answering.

“Create an apology ma to the Ren temen that Rex beat yesterday.” Mama sighed tired then nodded. I'm sure mom is still upset, just like me.

“Ya, already. Go on, good luck!” he said then leave.

Look, Rex is a culprit, making it hard for everyone. I remember when he advised me after the B-minus tragedy, he was the same. It's even worse to hit people. So, I guess I'm pulling back on my words that once said that having a twin like Rex wasn't bad. The fact is, super bad!

When I was about to finish, suddenly Rex showed up. He stood in front of me, looking at me with his hands folded across his chest.

“See what?” my ketus. Rex snorted while smiling wryly.

“I just want to grab a drink.” I just ignore him, whatever he wants to do. Unable to bear it, I finally glanced at him who was opening the refrigerator.

“You should apologize to Mr. Alif who you snapped yesterday. Not the same jerk guy!” he said with a tone of emotion plus emphasis when calling ‘cowok assholes.’

“I don't want to make a fuss now. So, because you are not useful here, mendingan you go and do not disturb me.” reply I was no less sharp. Rex immediately let go. Well, go there, if you need to go to the north pole.

***

The sugar-studded snickerdoodle cake I made last night, I put it in a cube box decorated with red ribbons to form a pretty knot. Not to forget also I wrote the word ‘Apologize’ on a small card shaped panda doll head that I put in it.

So, when Abi opens it will be immediately greeted with an apology. Well, it would be perfect. It's been three days since Rex's suspension, and that means Abi must have gone to school again.

I took the cake box out of the bag and of course caught Maya's attention.

“You are loving now, Ren?” tanyakanya.

“Iya, May. But I'm nervous, huh?”

I told Maya this morning about my plan. And she's also supportive, Maya says she's also very disappointed by Rex's actions.

“Do you want me to?” tawar Maya's. Look, how lucky I am to have a friend like Maya who is always reliable. I immediately nodded happily.

“OK!”

***

We walked to the computer club, because I met Ferdi in the cafeteria before and he said it was possible that Abi would come to the club today.

“About she wants to accept this no yes, May?”

“Sure, Ren. Uday, relax, do not be nervous.” said Maya tried to calm me and I am very grateful for it because this is what I need now.

We were almost there, but I could hear someone talking in a pretty loud voice and it came from inside the computer room. Who was speaking in a booming voice like that toak? Rudy's? What's the matter?

We were already in front of the room and my hand was about to push the door, but it came to a halt.

“...try shadowin, where is the fault? That's Rex's doormat what?”

I heard Abi's voice. It turns out he was the one talking.

“Ren..” Maya scolds me softly and I code with my hand to keep her quiet first. Looks like there's still another conversation in there that I need to hear.

“Just because of her sodaranya the Ren wrote an absurd love letter to me and I did not like her at all, kept her raging?” continued Abi.

“Ngata-ngatain how? That's the truth, right? You're the only one who doesn't know the contents of the letter, old, absurd, lebay, everything is there. Anyway, Ren is a big boy. I was just trying to be nice to him, but he was wrong. I do not like the same type of girl model that, make you sick, baperan.”

“Keep, the letter you still keep?” ask someone who looks like it's Doni's voice.

“Najis, make what? As soon as he loved, read five minutes, I immediately threw it into got.” replied Abi then heard the sound of laughter.

“They are both equally strange. The one butcher, the one absud baper maximum, the suitable combination to be twins.” he continued.

I can't describe how I feel right now. Clearly, my whole body was shaking, the cake box I was holding was slightly dented due to the grip of my hand. My original purpose for making this cake wasn't to hear all this! Wasn't he? Butwhy?

“Ren..” Maya touched my shoulder.

“It seems better we go, yes.” whispered Maya. I'm sure Maya heard it all, too.

Oh my...Wh why?

Unknowingly my cheeks were already wet and my tears were dripping, falling on top of the cake box I was holding. I'm numb. I can't think and I don't know what to do. My feet are heavy to walk on. I can't move. Why do I feel pain in my chest? It feels so stifling.

I felt my body spinning, it turned out that Maya was embracing me to turn around.

“Udah yes, Ren. Don't cry, let us go from here. You calm yourself first.”

Calm down? How can I calm down after hearing all that? Even I've been hard-earned to make a snickerdoodle with this much sugar. I looked at the cake box in my hand. Snickerdoodle with an apology in it. Pardon you?

Nah!

“No, May.” my exchange while releasing the embrace of Maya.

“Ren?” I can see Maya's worried look. He must have been afraid I would do something rash. And, well, I'm gonna do it!

I twisted my body, wiped away the tears, then with all my might pushed the door.

“Ren! Don't!” maya and I don't care.

When I came in, everyone in the room was silent. They looked surprised and looked at each other. It was not my arrival that they expected. Of course they didn't expect, caught red-handed telling me from behind.

I circled my eyes, they were all there except for Son and Ferdi.

“Oh, Rr-en..” great-grandson of Doni's.

I immediately gave Doni a murderous look when I saw he was going to say something, but then he looked down.

My eyes locked on the main actor, Abi, who was standing in the middle of the room. Rudy himself turned out to have retreated regularly, joining Doni.

You wimps!

At first glance I saw Niko sitting in her place, only the difference this time she was not busy with the computer.

I galloped towards Abi's place with long and firm steps. Abi himself was seen straightening his back, as if preparing to face me. I could see there was still a scar on his face.

“Basic coward! As long as you know, you are not cool!” I said.

Then somehow got the magical power from nowhere, I kicked Abi's leg as hard as he could until he sat on the floor and complained in pain.

“Aarrgghhh..” his groan while holding his leg.

“You retract your words about Rex. He is a thousand times better than you, he is not a coward like you!” I said emotion with great emphasis.

As my breath gasped and my emotions grew uncontrollable, I turned to leave, I couldn't bear it, but I remembered something.

“Ah!” I threw the cake box I held onto Abi until all the contents were scattered on the floor. Instantly his clothes were dirty filled with powdered sugar and cinnamon.

“Happy meal!” I said then turned around.

I could see everything in the room gawking at me, except for Niko, I swear I saw her looking at me with a smile on her lips.

As soon as it came out, my tears spilled back, the pain in my chest attacking again. I walked over and suddenly Rex was already standing in front of me. I saw Maya behind him too, it looks like she went to call Rex.

Rex came up to me, but no, I don't want to say anything right now. Especially when you cry like this. I really look fucked. Without caring for Rex, I kept walking but he pulled my arm. I tried to take it off violently, then walked a few steps, but I couldn't. I stopped, covered my face with my hands but could not stop the tears.

I turned to face Rex and immediately buried my face in his chest. I was crying all over, blowing all my emotions. Rex didn't say anything, he just patted my back gently. I don't know what to do now. I could only cry wondering, why does it feel this sick?