
“Alicia Anderson, you're really stupid, huh?”
I stared at the figure I had always believed in. Where did all these mistakes start? I really don't know.
Everything I've done has been in vain. All the struggles I've been doing all this time mean nothing at all.
In my heart I was really confused and wondered: “why does everything I've been fighting for so long feel meaningless in your eyes?”
“Sorry, yes, Brother.”
Lucy, my beloved sister, whom I had always believed in all this time, actually stabbed me in the most painful way.
Dor!! Dor!!
The hot lead penetrated my left chest cavity. It feels so hot and painful. My tears even came out because I couldn't bear the pain.
Buk!!
I stared at the three people I trusted the most, loved and relied on all this time. The three of them laughed out loud while looking at me who had been lying helplessly on the floor with a body covered in blood.
“Ke...na...pa?? Uhukkc....Uhuk...” ask me to them with a disappointed and confused look.
“Alicia dear, you still do not understand the current situation? Are you too naive or too stupid? From the beginning we never liked you.”
Both of my eyes were wide open listening to the words of Timothee Jordan, my fiancee whom I have always loved all this time. The one who made me willing to give up everything that was mine to him.
“I've only used you all this time.” He smiled in disdain at me.
My vision began to blur, but I could still see clearly how the message he was peeping at Lucy, my sister.
Wh why? Not only did my chest ache from the gunshot wounds made by my own fiancee, but it also hurt from the betrayal I received from those I have always trusted and loved with all my heart.
“In this way, the entire wealth of the Anderson family will fall into our hands. We are really grateful for your stupidity all this time.”
The three laughed giggling as if their goal had actually been achieved.
My consciousness is declining. My eyesight began to darken, but I could still hear the sound of his third laugh.
Deep down in my heart, I made a wish to the Divine so that I could survive all of this. I want to take away the pain that I am experiencing right now.
“If only time could be repeated, I would never forgive you,” my murmur before my entire gaze became completely dark.
***
I woke up staring at the ceiling that felt familiar. This was the ceiling of my room before my father's attempt at bankruptcy and left only a pile of abundant debt. Yes, overflow with misery.
Actually we wouldn't have been so miserable had Lucy and her mother not been so extravagant. Why do I keep them by my side when they've only been like gibberish all this time? They say, I'm really stupid.
“What is this hereafter?” muttered.
This unfamiliar ceiling made me think that the afterlife was the same as the world I lived in. It's just that this place at least made me recall the beautiful memories stored in my memories before I remembered the pain of the betrayal I received near my death.
“Alicia, are you awake?”
I gasped as soon as I heard a familiar voice enter my sense of hearing. A voice that made me feel the pain that was so intense in my chest cavity that death picked me up. A voice I hated so much that I made a plea to the Divine so that I could avenge my pain.
Without even knocking on the door or excusing it, the middle-aged woman walked in after opening the door of my room. I stared intently at her even though in my mind I questioned her whereabouts within my current home.
“Why are you still lying down? Quickly prepare. You know today there was an important conversation with the Jordan family?” he said while crossing his arms in front of his chest.
Why did I never wake up from the beginning? From the way he looked at me, it was clear he never liked me. Is that how I want to be with the figure of a mother to the blind that in front of me is clearly not the figure of a mother that I have always dreamed of all this time?
“Quick shower and beautiful dressing. You were even too lucky to be matched with the second son of the Jordan family. Although not an heir, but he was still given abundant wealth by his family. If only Lucy could be as lucky as you. Really unfair.”
I just stared dislikefully at her until the woman came out of my room. I really hate him.
I don't know where my dad got a j4l4ng woman like that to marry. Moreover, that woman had a daughter whose age was only one year different from mine.
If my mother hadn't died after giving birth to me, none of this would have happened. My mother must be much better than the two parasites that have been eating away at my family's wealth.
No, not two. More precisely three. I still clearly remember the reason they played and killed me. All because of my family's wealth.
“Truly disgust. What makes me blind until I think they love me as much as I love them? I'm really stupid.”
***
I walked down the stairs lazily. I really don't want my matchmaking and Timothee to be repeated. I don't want to go back to the same fate. But I don't know what to do so I can be free from this fucking matchmaking.
“You've come, baby?”
My father welcomed me who had just come down the stairs with a face of a grimace. That's the face I missed so much in my old life. I almost cried because I could see that face again.
He looked younger and healthy. These were the times when my father was still not sickly and eventually died.
“Ke here.” My father led me gently until I sat in the opposite seat to Timothee, the man who had betrayed me and had an affair with my sister Lucy.
I could see the dislike expression that the man was emitting. I don't really care, and I don't like it either.
***
“Dad,” call me with a little whining.
“I don't want to get married.”
Prangs!!
The spoon and fork that my father was holding suddenly fell onto the floor. He looked at me with an expression of disbelief and a gaping mouth.
I don't really understand why I was put back in this situation. The beginning of all the misfortunes I've experienced. But I don't want everything to happen the same as before.
If I'm right, then time has repeated itself back to five years ago. But I still want to make sure. The trick is to do what I never did all this time, which is to be a dissident.
In my life this time, I don't want to be a submissive fool. I don't want to just be taken advantage of, then die miserably. At least in this life, I want to fight against the destiny that has been outlined in my previous life.
I don't want to die miserably this time.
"Wait for the three of you!" muttered.