Red Yarn (Oshi No Ko > Aqua X Kana)

Cana Memory (2)

Aqua and the crow girl arrive at the hospital where Kana is being treated. The screams sounded deafening. Kana's face had paled, even her hair was already messy. Many times Kana screamed, kicked into just about any place, her hair being pulled many times by herself.

Akino approached Kana, hugging Kana with all her might. Kana tried to rebel and still kept shouting. While Karma at the door of the hospital room looked at Kana with tears that had wet her cheeks.

"Where.." Akino softened his voice. "You're safe, baby. It's safe here. I'll protect you." Akino hugged Kana who was still shouting, stroking Kana's back. "It's safe here."

Akino tries to overcome Kana who in a day can shout as much as 5 times with a duration of 30 minutes. Akino calls a psychiatrist to help her, handling Kana's case. 

"How did they meet?" aqua asked the crow girl next to her.

"When Kana's agency building was pronounced dead, she met Akino and brought him here" replied the crow girl.

"It can't be a coincidence, can it?" Aqua asked again, this time she stood up to Kana who was lying on the bed unconscious.

"Please take it, I set it up." The crow girl smiled thinly.

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After three months in the hospital, Kana finally came home and just daydreamed for a day without any more screams. The knit hat now covered Kana's already bald head. 

In the autumn evening, Kana sat hugging her feet on the second floor terrace of her house with the crow girl sitting in front of Cana.

"You're improving." commented the crow girl to Kana. Kana just silently did not reply, the crow girl looked back at Kana. "I've killed Kamiki Hikaru."

Kana turned her eyes to the crow girl. As if he wanted to say something, but nothing came out of his mouth.

"We will interact often. It turns out you have the blood of a psychic, and it makes you have good eyes." The crow girl pulled Kana's left hand. "Do you see the red thread on your pinky? It's connected to someone who's already your destiny. And you can see other people's common thread too."

Aqua could also see the red thread of Kana's that was still connected to hers. It is dark red and very clear.

"You promised to live happily, right? Then live happily, don't step on the same mine." The crow girl suddenly disappeared.

Kana was still staring at her little finger. He did not understand why he could see the red thread there so clearly. Kana's eyes now glanced at Aqua who was standing not far from her. Their gazes met again, Aqua immediately turned her gaze away.

"Can Kana see me?" aqua asked the crow girl.

"She could only feel that someone was watching her. He can't see you" replied the crow girl. "I'll leave you here. Kana's memory will spin as the owner wants to tell you anything. So, you're gonna move on your own." The crow girl disappeared.

With a slow step Aqua approached Cana, sitting in front of Cana who was still pale. Tonight, he wasn't wearing a jacket or a cardigan. He only wears a nightgown without arms. His eyes were still empty, as if there was no desire to come back alive. His face was still pale.

"Kana.." call Akino while sitting next to Cana. "Let's take off your bandage." Akino smiled, her hands helping Kana stand up. 

Aqua followed Kana and Akino's steps to Kana's room on the second floor. Very gently, Akino pulled the red skull cap from Kana's head. The girl no longer had hair. The back of his head was wrapped in a patch bandage. 

"Hold yes. It's gonna hurt a little. You can scream or cry if it hurts." Akino pulled the bandage plaster quickly, making a slashing sound audible.

Akino gives her a blanket and asks Kana to put it up to cover the front of her body. He pulled Kana's nightgown gently. Kana glanced towards Aqua with a blushing face while looking down.

Plaster bandages that are longer than the visible head. Aqua stepped up and stood beside Akino. He could not believe that Kana had a scar all that long on her back. Akino removed the bandage plaster quickly. If it is too long, worry will feel more painful and sore.

Akino re-wears Kana's shirt and knit hat. He helps Kana to lay her body on the bed. Putting up a blanket, stroking his head slowly and peeling his forehead Kana.

"Oyasumi.." Akino came out of Kana's room without turning off the lights. 

For almost three months, Kana had never slept with the lights off. Because he was still very afraid of the dark. Even if the lights in the room were not bright, he would run and sit next to Akino.

Aqua sat on Kana's bed, looking at the girl with a hard-to-understand look. Everything Kana was going through right now was her fault, she shouldn't have brought Kana in the first place. Kana's attraction is too overwhelming. Aqua again felt guilty this time.

"A-kun.." called out to Kana with a stutter, his eyes looking at Aqua in front of him. "A-pa my a-mi-pi?" 

Kana tries to grab Aqua's cheek, but can't. His hand pierced through Aqua's body. Many times Kana tried and the result was the same. Nothing can be done with his hands. Aqua was just a wandering spirit.

"Mim-pi la-gi.." Kana looks disappointed, she changes her position.

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A second later Aqua moved to the field in the winter. Kana and Karma are running in the morning. Accompanied by Karma, Kana does light exercise. His previously pale face was now blushing with a stupefied breath. Karma repeatedly smiled seductively at Kana.

"Have you ever ridden a horse?" ask Karma when they get to the coffee shop.

"Not yet, is it scary?" ask Kana in a flat voice.

"You should try. We have a white horse like a handsome, handsome snowman!" Karma answered excitedly with a smile that continued to expand.

"Oh yeah?" ask Kana again.

"Yes, his name is Yunyun!" exciting Karma.

"What kind of name is that?" ask Kana.

"I gave it the name! You should try bringing Yunyun! Because you're gonna look cool!" exciting Karma.

Aqua sat beside Karma, observing the young man. His face is still young, there is a possibility that he is still just entering High School. But, right now Karma is trying to keep smiling, laughing, talking to Kana a lot. He tried very hard to make Kana smile and talk to him.

Kana looked back at Aqua and immediately averted her gaze by sipping her warm chocolate. Aqua stopped following Kana, this time she chose to follow Karma sitting on the terrace with Akino. Karma's face was already flushed red, it seemed like she was crying.

"Is Kana hurt? I can't make her smile yet, dad!" karma with his head lowered.

Akino stroked Karma's head, trying to calm her son. "You've tried. We've tried too. I'm sure Kana is also the one who's trying the most to get back to normal. Don't give up too soon…"

Aqua looked at Kana behind the door and into her room, she followed Kana's steps to the second floor. He closed the door of his room, grabbed a mirror on the table. He stared at his reflection in the mirror, opening his knit hat.

His hair was long, but it reached his ears. The process of growing head hair was not so long.

Continuously staring at herself in the mirror, Kana touched her cheek, pinched and twisted it quickly. He felt the muscles on his face were very stiff. Especially to smile. He always trained in the room to smile like he used to, but everything was very difficult for him to control after he was allowed to live again.

Since he started to return to normal, he was difficult to speak. His eyes were always empty, but Kana always tried and shouted in her heart to be able to speak, moving normally without feeling stiff. However, his body seemed to move out of Kana's mind.

Every dark, Kana's mind would quickly say that it was just dark, and she had to be brave. However, his body responded the opposite. His body would quickly scream and suffocate. Kana's body and mind seemed out of step.

Still pulling both cheeks with his hands. Aqua smiled looking at Kana's face. The red-haired girl's face had never changed since childhood, plus her non-tall body, always made Aqua anxious. It was very desirable for him to pull Kana's cheek slowly, and make her smile. But he knew it wouldn't happen.

Kana hit both cheeks slowly. Pulling his lips to two corners. Making an arch on his face. The forced smile that was seen made Aqua chuckle. Kana moistened her lips, again trying to smile even though it felt stiff.

"How many times do you have to practice smiling?" ask Kana to herself. "Although it's hard, if we keep working hard it will work, Kana!"

Kana put back her mirror, she put her body on the bed. Kana's gaze now turned to Aqua who was sitting at the end of her bed.

"Now my eyes always see strange things." said Kana while closing her eyes with her hands. Kana raised her hand. "Who is this red thread?" ask Kana to herself. "I see you don't have one, while Karma is still pink and barely visible."

Kana changed her position, turning her body with a pillow refutation. He still looks at his hand. Kana's right hand tried to touch the red thread coiled around her left finger.

"Touch?" ask Kana not to believe it. "Whoever you may be may we be happy forever until I die again. And you accept me for who I am. I'm full of these flaws." Kana closed her eyes.

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