Red Yarn (Oshi No Ko > Aqua X Kana)

Starting From the Beginning

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The living room was empty, only a clockwork sound was heard. Aqua was just silent, she could not answer Kana's question on target. Kana took a breath.

"Can you look me in the eye? Do you know how scared I am to look at you now?" kana asked trying to remain calm, even though her hands were trembling.

After hearing Kana's sentence, Aqua finally looked back at Kana who was very trying to look at her. Kana's face was even pale, but she was still staring at Aqua beside her. Kana also changed her sitting position to face Aqua.

"You don't have to force yourself-"

"No need to force yourself how does that mean? I purposely helped you out so that I wouldn't be afraid of you anymore!" cut Kana while taking an almost congested breath. "Same as you…. Let's get out of the zone called trauma." Kana extended her hand to Aqua. 

"I don't have–"

"What you don't have!" Cut Kana again, this time her voice sounded louder. "You feel guilty to me, don't you? You're trying to blame yourself for seeing me as the victim of your father's murder, right? And you know I'm dead and the fact that I'm still alive with severe trauma." Kana looked at Aqua with a reddened face, her eyes already wet. He approached Aqua, shortening the distance between them.

"Ah-kun, I'm happy now. Even though I'm here, even though I can't stand in front of the camera, even though my dreams have to be buried. I'm happy."

Kana grabbed Aqua's hand, cupped her. "So, let's forget your guilt for me. You deserve to be happy too. Your revenge is over, and now you have to live well. Make great memories and express whatever you feel from your heart. You can laugh, cuss others and do everything you want."

Aqua looked at Kana who was already crying, Cana's hands were shaking violently, she was desperately trying to get Aqua to dispel her guilt, stop blaming herself and go back to her former self.

"Goro Amemiya or Aqua Hoshino deserve to be happy." Kana smiled with a red and wet face.

For a long time Aqua had not heard anyone mention her name before she was reincarnated. Without Aqua's cue pulling Kana into his arms, he only felt that Kana was struggling to help him, even though her face was pale with trembling hands, even her body was still trembling in Aqua's arms.

"I'm sorry, Arima. I always make you sad. I'm not a good friend to you, you always help me when I always use you. Now that you're struggling to look at me, you're not very good at lying, Arima." Aqua held back her stuffing, her face already red and wet by tears.

Aqua's voice sounded slow and vibrated. Kana was crying in Aqua's arms, trying to hold back her stuff. This was the first time the blue-eyed man had hugged her. It was as if something was stirring in Kana's heart. Aqua's chest area makes it comfortable. His hands tried to hug Aqua's back.

"Thank you for not avoiding me.." Aqua hugged Cana, she did not know if her treatment of Cana was appropriate, but he only wanted to do this to the girl he had long expected his presence, apologizing sincerely.

"Forget it all over, let's start over. You don't have to bring your guilt to me." Kana replied to Aqua.

Guilt. Or a taste that Aqua could not convey to Cana. The taste that bothered him during Kana disappeared and was rumored to have died. The director of Gotanda, Mem, Miyako has said it many times, but he tries to forget that feeling, even eliminating it. But, again Kana managed to make the taste that should be lost and disappear from Aqua's heart again survive. Although, Aqua did not know when she would dare to reveal it. 

Aqua took off her embrace, looking at Kana who immediately changed her position. Removing her tears.

"I'll try it." Aqua smilingly looked at Kana who was smiling returning Aqua's gaze to her.

Akino stepped into her room, sat in her chair, smiling at the photo of Kana when she was 3 years old.

"Your red thread will be connected to him" Akino said.

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"I heard from Karma that you taught him earlier huh? Have you studied medicine?" akino asked in front of the gate of his house.

"Yes," Aqua replied confusedly. It's been a long time, maybe if he's alive he's as old as Arima Akino.

"Great as that actor. You must have gained a lot of new knowledge." Akino patted Aqua on the shoulder. "Hoshino-san can I ask you a favor?"

"Yes?"

"Tomorrow I'll drive Karma to Tokyo to find an apartment. But Kana didn't come. Do you want to accompany her here? Staying and sleeping in a Karma room is fine. I'm just afraid the house is out of lights and Kana will yell no shit." Akino noticed Aqua's shocked expression mixed in confusion. "But if you mind it's okay to refuse."

"I'll be accompanied." Aqua answered him. Akino patted Aqua on the back while smiling broadly.

"Arigatou. Now you can go home and rest." Akino smiled, he thrust the chocolate at Aqua. "Eat, you'll feel calmer."

Aqua bowed politely and went out the gates of the Arima family, returning home. Aqua did not expect Kana to have a father who was so considerate of her, when she was little she might not be close to her father because she was busy doing many activities with her mother. But, Akino, Kana and Karma have one thing in common, they are not good at lying.

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Second day at Ishigami Farm. Kana has been eagerly feeding the cows aided by Aqua. Bathing and milking cows. Today finished sooner than yesterday. Kana seemed to enjoy her day at the farm.

"Your father has left?" aqua asked as they came out of the cowshed.

"Here you go early in the morning."

"Did your father say something to you?" ask Aqua to confirm if Kana knows that Aqua will accompany her tonight.

"You're gonna stay at my house, right?"

"No problem for you, right?" ask Aqua to make sure. 

"It doesn't matter at all, I'm just happy that someone is accompanying me."

"You're usually going to yell or respond excessively because we're women and men." Aqua recalled the incident in Kana's apartment a few years ago.

Kana's steps came to a halt, looking at Aqua and chuckling softly. "We're just friends, and I'm not taking a married man anyway…." Kana averted her eyes, "even with her sister." 

The girl with red hair stepped back. Aqua simply stared at the back of Kana who had already walked away from her. Last night was a pretty intimate conversation. Opening up the trauma and wiping it together, without Aqua realizing her face was more radiant than before. While Kana looked more confident looking at Aqua's face and eyes.

Kana's sentence just bothered Aqua, she never thought about marrying her own sister, never at all. Yes, Aqua realized she was bound by the promise of marrying Ruby before she reincarnated first.

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