RAINBOW FOR HURRICANE HANS

HEARTFELT

On the way to Robin's house, I kept praying that this was just a dream. My heart still rejects the reality, still not willing to part with Robin's brother.

''Uncle Beni, this is not real, right? It's all just a dream, right?'' I said to Mr. Beni after a long silence.

Mr. Beni just glanced at me from the rearview mirror, I saw the look on his face so sad. No answer from Mr. Beni, he just smiled to answer my question.

''We've reached Bu''

Mr. Beni got out of the car and opened the door for me. I removed the tear marks on my cheeks, I stepped foot into Robin's courtyard, which was full of flowers and people.

Ms. Dita's waiting for me at Robin's doorstep. Ms. Dita came up to me, led me into Robin's house. When entering the living room, Robin's sister, my knee again felt weak, it felt unable to stand, I almost fell if Nisa's sister did not come to hold my body.

I walked slowly towards Robin's coffin, enjoying step by step. The heart was more slashed when it was in front of Robin's coffin. I looked at the shady face lying there.

''Brother, I'm back. Today we are getting married, right? Look at me wearing our wedding dress. Wake up, sister, how will you put a ring on my finger if you sleep?''

I gently rubbed Robin's hands that were no longer warm. I couldn't hold my tears when I held her hand.

''Son, please don't do this. I'm sad to see you like this''

Aunt Dewi gently rubbed my head, but I did not feel the calmness, instead I was getting sobbing.

''Please bring the ring, son, your sister should go quietly'' said om Jordi to Roni's brother.

'' Good pa''

Brother Roni came with a box containing my wedding ring and brother Robin. With everyone in the room watching, I grabbed a ring with my name on it from the box and put it on Robin's toe, I got another one that says Robin's surname and pin it on my own ring finger. I promised Robin I'd keep this ring well, because it's the last memory of Robin's brother. I also promised her that I would be a strong woman and live a happy life like Robin would.

Many capture the moment, both photos and videos. It's not what I want, I don't want us to do this, but it's what has to happen and I can't resist it. God's destiny is not on our side, to build a household ark together.

After putting the ring on Robin's toe and my finger, I hugged Robin's brother one last time, because Robin's coffin was about to close. Today Robin will be buried soon. When Robin's coffin was closed Nisa led me to her room to change my clothes, there was no way I could wear my wedding dress to Robin's grave.

''Grandpa, make Robin yes. You have to be strong don't be like this, if Robin sees you like this he will definitely be very sad''

Sister Nisa gave me her clothes, I changed my clothes immediately.

''Mama, why is papa Robin also ningglin Claudy? Does papa Robin not love Claudy like papa Hans?'' Plain asking.

''No dear papa Robin is very dear to Claudy, but God loves papa Robin more, so he called papa Robin to his house''

I answered Claudy's question with teary eyes, although very sad to hear his words, but I must be strong I have promised Robin.

We came out of Nisa's room when Robin's release service began. I sat with Robin's parents next to Robin's coffin.

Worship lasts approximately two hours and goes well there are no obstacles. It's time we really had to let go of Robin's brother. I'm taking Robin's brother to his final resting place. After Robin's brother had been buried, some people had started to leave Robin's grave. Robin's parents and I were there for some time before we were too anxious to go home because the sky had turned black.

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A few years after Robin's departure, I still cry when I remember her even when I read her diary. But again I try to control myself so as not to be too long sad. Claudy also sometimes still says if he misses Robin's brother.

The days passed until one day Frans came to visit our house. Dita and I were surprised by her arrival, but we were happy to know her purpose and purpose. It turns out that he came to apologize to Dita, he already knew that Dita ma'am was his birth mother and Dita ma'am was not the person that people said she was.

During this time it turns out Frans brother often comes, but he did not enter this house, he just saw from outside the house.

After Frans' arrival that day, two days later he was with a boy who was about 16 years old. At first I thought it might be Farhan, Frans's older brother, but I was wrong.

''Mom, I'm sorry Hans. Sorry Hans just got to see mom now mmm....''

How happy my heart is, my son came to visit me. Tears raced down my cheeks. Hans wiped the tears that ran down my cheek.

''Forgive me, son, I can't stay with you. I'm sorry I didn't take care of you all this time''

''No ma, don't cry. Mom's been crying too long. Mama can't cry anymore, I'll take care of my mom and sister. By the way my sister is where ma?''

''He....''

My speech was interrupted when Claudy emerged from the door with her trademark smile on her way home from school. My daughter is now a big girl, she is already a smart teenage girl.

''Good afternoon mom, Audy has gone bad...'' Caludy did not continue his words, instead he looked at Frans. Maybe he thought that Frans was his father because their faces were the same, only different when they were smiling.

''Good day, son, come here, sit with mom. Someone wants my mom to introduce you''

Claudy slid her feet towards my seat. I know if he doesn't want to meet his father, I don't know why my daughter harbors hatred for her father, or her father's family.

''Why are you crying? Who made my mom cry?''

Claudy looked at Frans and Hans alternately then looked at me. I shook my head as he was about to speak again, I felt that he was being visibly irritated as he breathed his coarse breath.

''Claudy, meet your uncle, his name is Frans and this is your brother Hans''s name''

Claudy's eyes were perfectly rounded when I mentioned Hans's name, at first I thought he would be angry but something shocking happened. She got up and hugged her brother, crying, shedding all her heart.

''Sister. mmmmm..... Why is the new brother coming now? Did you know your mother suffered so much? I love you so much, sister, please don't leave me and mama. I know big brother must also love me and mama mmmm......''

''Forgive deck brother, new brother is coming now. Brother will not leave you again, brother will continue to take care of you with mama. From now on sister will be staying with Audy and mama. Brother will not let you suffer anymore, brother will make this sister happy. Now don't cry anymore, let's smile. Audy's ugly crying''