RAINBOW FOR HURRICANE HANS

LOST IS A BEAUTIFUL HOPE

The closer to the chest, the more tightness and pain is felt in the chest. Sister Nisa continued to hold my shoulder until we arrived beside the chest. I tried to see who was lying in the coffin, until my heart was not willing to lose it.

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My heart stopped beating as I looked at the shady face lying there. The world seemed empty, the sky seemed to fall on me and I could not get back up. My eyes were filled with a fog so thick that it blocked my view to be able to see clearly and make sure if I just saw wrong.

I rubbed my tears hard, I tried to look back at that shady face, and my heart was slashed again. I rubbed his face, and I tried to make him open his eyes, I called his name but there was no word from him. My heart is still against reality today, there is no trust in my heart, if it has left me.

I turned to look at the man standing next to the chest, ran towards him then hugged him tightly, inwardly wishing he was the man I loved instead of the one in the chest.

''Brother Robin, who's in that box? Why are you guys so similar and why am I so sick of losing her? Please say something, brother, talk to me, don't be quiet like this. Huhuhuhuhu......'' I said while crying.

There was no answer from the man, he just kept crying while rubbing the head of the man inside the chest.

''You have to be patient, God loves Robin more. He was happy with his father in heaven, said Om Jordi.

''Don't tell me that, brother Robin can't leave me, he promised to always take care of me and Claudy. Brother Robin can't break a promise to me, I know he's coming back. We're getting married soon, she's with me, right, brother Robin?''

The man I thought was Robin took off my arms, then looked at me with tears.

''You have to make Robin, she's gone and left us all. He won't be able to come back to all of us, I hope you can accept all of this. Robin would be very sad if he saw you like this. I'm not Robin, I'm Roni Robin''s twin brother''

What else is God? If he's not Robin's brother, it means the man in the crate is Robin's brother. I wouldn't be able to if it really happened to God, what would I do without it? Why does everything have to be like this God, I'm not ready to lose it.

I approached the chest again, I tried to strengthen my heart to accept this fact. But whatever the power, I couldn't be as strong as my shadow, I looked closely at the man in the crate, looking every inch of his face wishing he wasn't Robin's brother. But fate said another, in the head of the man in the chest clearly written the name of the person in the chest *ROBIN JOSEFIN*. Sitting limp next to Robin's coffin, unable to withstand the tightness in the chest. There was not a single word I could say, my mouth was locked tightly closed, only able to cry in silence, only tears that kept racing out soaked my cheeks.

I held my hands tightly, kissed many times hoping the owner would open his eyes and smile at me. Unsatisfied because there was no response I grabbed his body and I carried it in my arms, hoping the warmth of my body could make his body warm up again. Again the owner just froze silently not returning my embrace, I took off the hug and turned back to him.

I turned my body to the coffin again, like a man who had no sense anymore, I hugged him again, I leaned my head on the chest of his field. No more heartbeats heard, no more gentle strokes in my head if I was crying, no more tranquilizing words when I was sad.

I put my head up, I gently rubbed his cheeks with his head still stuck to his chest.

''What is this, brother? Did you hate me so much that you left me too? Did you forget your sister's promise to me? Doesn't my sister love me? Why did you do all this to me? Didn't you promise to make my life happy? Then what is brother doing now? I'm not happy brother, I'll suffer if brother does this to me. Wake up please wake up, if you don't like me I will leave the life of an important sister you have to wake up first. Did you forget your sister's promise to Claudy? Look brother he's so sad, don't you want to be Claudy's dad again? It's okay if you don't want to too, but please get up huhuhu..... Brother has to wake up, sister has promised me, Claudy, also mom Dita that sister will take care of us all. Soon we will get married, if you want today we will marry sister huhuhuhu...........''

''Son, put him up, don't make yourself like this, son. He loves you so much, son, do not say it like that'' Om Jordi tried to let go of my embrace, but somehow the power from which his calm was not able to release my embrace on Robin's brother.

''Don't lie to me, if he loves me there's no way he'll leave me. He promised me, but he also denied it huhuhu......''

''Here son, you must be patient this is all God's will, we can not do anything'' Ms Dita rubbed my head.

''No ma'am, Robin's brother will wake up. He promised me he would come back, didn't he? But why did he come back in this state, ma'am? Huhu waaaa...huuuuu''

My tears broke instantly, I could no longer hold back. I could no longer feel the warm grip of her hand, although I tried to rub her palm several times but it remained colorless, also remained cold. I tried to take off my arms slowly but I still held her hand tightly, I looked at the engagement ring that was still attached to her finger. Lost is the beautiful hope that we have arranged in such a way, the hope to live a new life full of happiness. Now that hope is just wishful thinking, carried by the wind far away somewhere.

''Son, Robin must be bathed first can you release his hand?'' Said a police officer.

''For what sir, brother Robin can take his own bath, right sis? Let's answer my brother, see the fathers want to bathe you? Is sister not shy about being big to bathe again?'' I still hold tight Robin's hands don't want me to let go.

''All right, son, we're not going to bathe Robin. You can go to Robin's room first, get the towel there. Later he will be cold if he does not use a towel after bathing, said the police officer again.

I also said, entering Robin's room between Nisa's sisters. Upon entering the room, I saw so many pictures of me and our photo together that hung beautifully on the walls of the room and also on the table. Sister Nisa led me to sit on Robin's bed and gave me a diary and a letter. The first thing I opened was a letter from Robin, it made me very happy and sad.