RAINBOW FOR HURRICANE HANS

MAAF

Hans' birthday was going well, all the neighbors were in attendance. Happy rails are clearly depicted on my son's face, Hans accompanied his son during a candle blow and cake cutting event.

I am grateful that everything can go smoothly, only I feel uncomfortable with the presence of Hans.

''Papa, tonight papa befriends Hans with bobo's mother said my son.

''Yes dear papa will accompany Hans and mama'' said mas Hans smiling at me.

I just stroked my son's head without returning Hans' smile. I don't know why I'm not at all interested in seeing her smile like I used to be I would feel so happy when I saw her smile.

''Son, you have to go home to work, next time you come again. If you don't go back to work, you will be fired by your boss'' I told my son.

Hans looked at me with a dislike. Let me care if he likes me or not.

''But ma'am, I want papa here with Hans, tonight is okay?'' hans looked at his papa.

''Yes dear, papa will accompany Hans, papa ask permission first yes the same boss papa'' said mas Hans.

He walked towards the terrace of the house, it turns out Indra is still there.

''Abdra, I want to stay here. You just go back to the hotel and take a break tomorrow afternoon you pick me up here, Hans told Indra.

''Okay sir'' replied Indra.

Indra immediately got into the car, he drove the car slowly until it disappeared from view. I looked at Hans from behind, I don't know what he was thinking so he wanted to spend the night at my house. I turned around to the house, to see my son who seemed to be sleepy. Just as I was about to carry her, Hans came over.

''Let me take him to the room'' said Hans grabbing his son's body and being carried to the room.

I followed behind because Hans wouldn't normally sleep if I didn't wipe his head.

''Mom, come and sleep next to me too, I want to sleep in the middle of my mom and dad'' Hans said.

''Mom closed the door, baby, '' I said.

I passed out of the room rushing me to lock the front and back doors. After that, I cleaned up and went into the room.

I saw that the two people in the room were already asleep, Hans sleeping soundly in his father's arms. I lay a mat beside the mattress, I don't want to sleep in the mattress because the empty place is not beside my son but beside Hans.

Blanket from the closet and pillow, I lay down my body staring at the ceiling of the room. I didn't turn off the lights this time, I didn't want the neighbors to think strangely, although it's only natural that they think so because I'm still Hans' wife. But I don't want anything unwanted to happen.

''You haven't slept?'' asked Hans who was lying next to me.

I don't know when he got off the bed and lay down next to me.

''Be.yet mas'' I said but did not dare to look at him.

''You better sleep in the bed with our son, let me sleep here'' said Hans as he closed his eyes.

''It's okay mas, mas sleep with him for a long time he wants to sleep with mas'' I said while sitting looking at my son.

Hans opened his eyes and sat down, looked at me for a long time and smiled. He shifted his body until there was no distance between us. Hans took my hand, I saw his eyes glazed over at me, there was a look of regret I found there.

''Mas want to apologize dear, I know I have made a big mistake with you, I have made you and our children suffer. If you may mas want to make up for all the mistakes of the two of you, said Hans occasionally heard his sobbing sound.

I looked into Hans' eyes, I saw honesty in them. But my heart still felt like it couldn't be with her anymore, I guess that's because I still felt hurt over her past treatment even though I tried to forget all that.

Immediately I pulled my hand from his grasp, Hans looked at me, he then hugged me and cried, I tried to take off his embrace but could not, I finally just kept it quiet.

''Mas knows you are disappointed, mas apologise for everything, allow mas to take care of you and our children. I know you must hate me, but I also know that you're still in love. Otherwise it is impossible for you to name our child like my name'' said Hans.

I just kept quiet hearing his words. It's true that I still love her but I feel nothing more with her except for the discomfort.

Mas Hans took off his own embrace, he almost kissed me if I didn't lie back down right away.

''Mas, sleep with your son, he has been waiting for you for a long time, I said as I lay back on the carpet.

''Well good night, dear'' said Hans.

I close my eyes trying to sleep, I think Hans is no longer there beside me. I opened my eyes how surprised I was when Hans was kissing my forehead.

''Mas'' said.

''Good sleep dear'' he said then went up to the bed accompanying his son to sleep.

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When I woke up in the morning I felt heavy, I tried to open my eyes.

''It should feel heavy as my son sleeps on me, '' I murmured.

I tried to lower him from above my body.

''Let us help'' said Hans while helping to lower and lay Hans on the bed.

When Hans finished putting his son down on the bed, he then lay down next to him continuing to sleep. This is not really a new morning at 5.

I got up from the carpet about to wash my face, when I stood by accident I stepped on the end of the mat.

Bugs

I fell but I didn't feel any pain, I slowly opened my eyes, I was shocked because I fell on Hans' body and even my lips touched his lips. I immediately wanted to get up but Hans put his hand on my body and I could not move.

Only one time Hans movement has reversed our position, now my position is under the body of Hans. My heart was beating rhythmically because Hans just kept looking at me.

''Mm.mas can you please wake up, I want kedapur to make breakfast'' I said to mas Hans.

''Mas will release you dear, but you must be willing to forgive mas, do you want to?''

''Mas, I. i''

''If you forgive the new mas release, otherwise we will continue like this''

''But mas, I have to get up''

''We'll wake up, but you promised me you'd forgive me and we'd take care of our son together'' said Mr. Hans with a look I couldn't describe. Even her tears dripped down my cheeks.

I just nodded. That's how much I hate people, I can't see them crying.

Mas Hans instantly dropped his body on top of me, he kissed the whole part of my face.

''Thank you dear'' said Hans.

''Mm.mas, can I wake up I feel tight'' I said.

Hans woke up from my body and then lay back next to his son. I went out of the room to the bathroom I washed my face then headed to the kitchen to cook breakfast.

I still use a wood stove for cooking, I actually have a gas stove but I only use it when I have a cake order.

I chopped up a small dry twig to make a fire. After the fire started I cooked water to make coffee, I still remember Hans drinking coffee when he woke up.

I brewed a cup of coffee and then put it on a small table in front of the room. That table is the only one in my house. I then went back to the kitchen cooking rice and frying dried fish for breakfast.

Hans and I really like breakfast with warm rice and fried dried fish.

Uhuk..

I coughed because I accidentally inhaled smoke while stirring the rice that was on the stove.

''You're okay baby''

I heard Hans's voice from behind.

''It's okay, I replied.

Mas Hans looked around my kitchen, I think he might find it strange to see my kitchen which was still grounded, black cookware hanging on the bamboo walls and many wooden branches, and, because there's nothing like my kitchen. I continued to make breakfast, and Hans kept watching me during the cooking.

''Forgive me, I can't make you happy like I promised you when we got married. I'm sorry that I had to make you suffer like this said Mas Hans hugging me from behind.

''Mas, I have to go back picking vegetables'' I said taking off his arms and passing towards my garden behind the kitchen.

I still don't want to linger if you're with Hans, my heart can't take it back.

I have a small garden in the back of the house, where I grow mustard vegetables, spinach, kale, tomatoes and also chilies.

Usually after making breakfast, I will pick vegetables and I rent in front of the house.