RAINBOW FOR HURRICANE HANS

BE PATIENT

Approaching the well more and more blood spots.

''Awwww..'' there was a soft sound of someone's voice holding back pain.

I saw Hans was cleaning his feet full of dirt and blood. I immediately panicked, I immediately approached Hans with tears that had flowed down my cheek.

Immediately I tore off the end of the shirt I was wearing, I used to bandage Hans' wounds so that his blood would not come out more. I helped Hans stand up and I got him inside the house.

I put Hans on the mat, and I went to the kitchen to get some warm water and a medicine box in the room. I cleaned up Hans's leg from the ground. My tears don't stop flowing, I don't care if Hans sees me crying because I'm really worried about him.

After cleaning I wrapped the wound with a dressing wound that had previously been smeared with red medicine.

My tears are still flowing even though Hans's wounds don't bleed anymore. I didn't realize I was hugging her crying.

''Forgive me mas'' I said as I cried hugged her.

''As it's okay you don't cry'' replied mas Hans calmly as he wiped my tears. I still keep sobbing.

''Why ''Papa? Why is papa's leg bleeding?'' hans asked who had appeared from behind the door.

''Papa did nothing, papa fell down. Hans don't run around and fall like papa'' said Hans.

Hans hugged his father before returning to the room to play.

''I take the mas to the room, yes, just rest let me take care of the garden, '' I said.

''No need to love it's okay, you just accompany me here and want to talk to you'' said Hans holding my hand that was about to pass.

''Yes mas but I have to throw away the dirty water first'' I said pointing to the basin that I used to clean Hans's legs earlier.

''Alright, dear'' he said.

I walked towards the back of the house. Throwing water in the basin earlier, I still saw Hans's dried blood on the ground. Guilt enveloped my heart, I rushed back into the house to see the state of Hans.

''Sit down, baby, I want to talk' said Hans patting the mat next to him.

''Lying down, my legs still hurt, '' I said as Hans was about to get up.

''Mas ''It's okay baby, you don't worry so'' said mas Hans, I helped him sit down.

At first we were silent, but then Hans opened the conversation.

''Mas knows you are very disappointed mas, it is natural that you hate mas, but does mas have no place in your heart anymore? Is there no chance to improve our relationship?'' ask Hans.

I just kept quiet, because I don't know how I feel right now. I feel like I've started to be like before, but my heart is not fully open yet there is still a black dot inside.

''Mas, I. I.'' that's all I can say my tongue I don't know what to say.

Hans looked at me, and I looked into Hans's eyes, and I saw no lies there.

''Mas's been looking for you all this time, but no one ever told me you were here. I went to the orphanage but Asni's mom didn't tell me you were home. Until the mother's brother, Pak Lurah, uploaded a video of the Thanksgiving event at a home, the mother saw the upload because om shared it in his fb status. I saw you with a little boy who was eating young coconut ice. Mother immediately contacted her brother and asked the woman in the video and it turned out that she did not see the wrong thing. Said om Andre Pak Lurah here, you are one of the residents in this village who lives alone with his son. I decided to come here and with the help of om Andre I could easily find your house, said Hans again.

''Forgive me mas'' I said.

''It's not you who should apologize, baby, it should be the mas who apologized, '' he said, stroking the back of my hand and then kissing it.

''Hans happy deh, now have a papa too, so if mama is sick again mama will not cry alone there is a papa who can help mama'' said my son who sat in front of the room door, then back into the room.

Hans looked at me, I had always felt my stomach ache. Actually, when I was pregnant with Hans, I had a problem because I had a fall while pregnant with Hans, doctor Lia had told me to abort my womb because it could endanger my life and if I keep it maybe I will often feel cramps in the stomach, unless I do regular treatment after giving birth. Yeah, when I helped Rosa's son. Rosa's son was not Hans's son but Frans' twin brother Hans' son. Apparently Rosa had slept with Frans when she was engaged to Hans mas. Frans was also framed by Rosa as was Hans.

''What are you sick with?'' ask Hans.

I looked into his eyes, hesitating I began to tell him everything that had happened. Hans cried when I finished the story.

''Forgive me dear, I was really stupid back then. I can't see what's right and what's wrong?'' said Hans on the sidelines of his cry.

''There is nothing to forgive, everything has passed, I said.

Mas Hans hugged me and kept crying, I just rubbed his back.

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Hans has been living with us for 2 months. I've also started to open my heart back to Hans. I can't be selfish, lest my son be a victim if I'm selfish to still hate Hans.

''Mama, said papa we're moving house?'' ask my son who is learning to write. She sometimes calls me mom, but to me it doesn't matter what it means.

''My dear, we're moving to papa's house. What does Hans like?'' my many.

''If you are happy, I am happy too. If mama likes it, I'll like it too '' he said innocently.

I just nodded my head with a smile.

After a long time he did doodle books, which he said he was learning to write. Hans closed his book and went to bed before he fell asleep.

Hans came to me smiling.

''I've missed you, can we?''

I understand what Hans said, it's just that my heart and body are not ready to accept Hans's mas back.

Looking at me who was just silent, Mas Hans then turned to sit in front of me and looked at me.

''I will not force you dear until you want and sincerely give to mas'' he said then smiled. He lay on the bed with his son, just as at the arrival of Hans I was still sleeping on the carpet.