My son My spirit

Memories

A cold star-studded night, with the light of the moon adorning the sky. The wind blowing on Niqy's face adds to the cool feel of being beautiful that night. But that longing is again greeting considering all the journeys of life, the struggle through the twists and turns of life.

Suddenly a very deep sense of kangen that whack little heart Niqy, considering the figure of beloved Father who has gone home.

If your presence were still in this world, it wouldn't be as heavy as the burden of life I bear. Your love that is so sincere and always encouraging for me to do many positive things makes me miss. Such a strong and rigid figure passed through this trail of life. Which always gives me the meaning of a life journey of sincerity to do and remain humble to everyone. A successful entrepreneur who keeps looking simple. Always teach many things, wise in every decision making in the family. Always look after your children and grandchildren.

Now that love I can no longer feel. Due to the pain of Basal cell carcinoma or skin cancer that took your life. Now I live with the mother of a patient person who has always been your care to take care of her.

FLASHBACKS....

"Niqy papa's sick." said mama.

"Let's take him to the hospital" Niqy said

"Father don't want to, try to persuade papa" said mama.

Niqy then headed towards the room while poking her papa's hand saying

"Paa.ayo we go to the hospital, yes, there are all complete equipment to treat papa, God willing Papa will be healed".

"Papa's fine, son, don't bother taking care of papa".

"Papaaa..later if Papa why-what donk, ayoo we go to the hospital yaa, later Niqy who take care of papa there yaah", persuaded Niqy

"Your job will be how", asked papa

"Whoa kok Paa, Niqy can ask permission from the office if it should be so".

"Nandi and Mama how" asked papa again.

"Nandi will also go to the hospital to see us later there, after returning to school alternately with Mama".

Finally Papa wants to be hospitalized. With the state of illness that still needs treatment finally we all agreed to take Papa to the hospital that coincided when it was the first Sahur in the month of Ramadan in 1437 H.

Sahur....

Papa was lying on the bed facing Niqy and his brother Apris, who was guarding papa at the hospital.

"If papa is healthy, papa wants sahur with you my children" said papa

"Papa Niqy is bribing ya" Niqy said looking at the lying papa

Papa just shook his head. But Niqy forced papa to keep eating. But papa just stared at Niqy while shedding tears.

"Papaa...kok cry?!" said Niqy

"I'm sorry Papa has disturbed your sahur meal" Papa said

"It's okay Papa, all this is also for the sake of healing Papa, Niqy and Abang Apris sincerely keep Papa here the important Papa eat ya so quickly healed, so ayoo papa eat ya", talk to Niqy again

Niqy undoes her intention to persuade Papa again.

It didn't feel like we were in the hospital for a month.

"Let's go home, have a holiday" said papa

"Papa's still sick, we're okay here Paa" Niqy said

The more the day it gets worse, the skin cancer suffered by Papa Niqy affects the body that was once burly to be thin. Sweat sweat was pouring in there. Sometimes tears run down her cheeks.

"Papa's taking Niqy, where's Apris?", asked Papa

"Abang Apris again went home with mama to prepare Eidan, incidentally Niqy again can not pray so papa Niqy just accompany me well" said Niqy

Niqy used the opportunity to be a devoted child to her parents.

Niqy woke her father from the bed and carried him to a wheelchair and pushed him to the bathroom.

With just a pair of shorts, Niqy also sprayed water and cleaned his papa body with soap, paying attention to the operation section on the back so as not to splash water.

Feeling the attention of the only daughter was Papa Niqy sobbing.

Seeing that all Niqy was only able to endure her cries. Your love will not be replaced by anything Papa, although a million times I do this devotion to you. Allow me to be a filial child. Your sacrifices that have always motivated me have meant so much in my life, forgive your son if he ever disappoints you Papa.

After bathing and replacing his papa clothes. Niqy brought Papa back to bed.

"My boy...",

"Yaa Papa, said Niqy as she clasped her papa's hand tightly

"If Papa goes later, take good care of your mother, keep loving each other under any circumstances" the word stopped for a moment

"Papa... Niqy will always love Mama until anytime but why papa talk like that, Papa must be cured really" said Niqy who held back her tears from falling.

A few minutes later, Mama, Nandi and the brothers arrived. Niqy bailed out to Selasar spilling all her tears that were held back.

"Allah will heal Papa, if later death is best for him the servant wants to remain on his side Ya Allah accompany to the end".

It was just that sentence that Niqy had always mentioned repeatedly with teardrops constantly running down her cheeks.

Until the seventh feast Papa then breathed his last. Niqy stared at the deathly sacrosanct journey of her beloved father. Surrounded by his children and grandchildren, Papa leaves forever. Goodbye papa may Jannah await you.

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Considering all that did not feel like Niqy's eyes were swollen with tears in her cheeks reminiscing about all those events. Al-Fatihah for you papa I miss you Niqy said as she recited the surah Al-fatihah.