My son My spirit

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Return to city G....

In a park located in the city of G, which is filled with flickering decorative lights neatly arranged, and packed with paired visitors and some sellers make the park look crowded...

Niqy poured out all the disappointments she had harbored so far to Jon.

"Jon..We have to introspect ourselves first, many things have happened that you hide from me, and I want us to separate first, I want to be alone, I do not want to see you here again, I do not want to see you here, go home to your village who knows where you are there can change your way of thinking and make you realize what a better husband is like, like, and it's also possible that this distance will allow both of us to appreciate the meaning of togetherness" Niqy said

"You're crazy, I don't want to part with my son", challenged Jon with anger he won't lose.

"If you love your son why you've been betraying me all this time, you've been lying to me, you've been with other women there", Niqy yelled with emotion.

"Whatever you say I don't want to leave you" Jon interrupted

"I'm not happy with you Jon" Niqy said again

With unbearable emotion Jon started the car and drove at high speed,

"If you want to die, die alone why must you kill me and your son",

Niqy shouted in the car in fear because the car was traveling very fast.

"Pull all your words, otherwise I will increase the speed of this car" said Jon

"I don't want to.. I'm not happy with you, you betray me, I know all your deeds out there, put me down here.....!?",

Because Niqy did not want to lose, Jon stopped the car suddenly and took a razor (sharp item) sliced his hand until it bled...

"You're threatening me again Jon haaach...!?, you have the heart of Jon...you asked me to stay with you but you forced me back by threatening me like this, the way you made me sick of Jon....!! Niqy said with regret

Blood continued to pour from Jon's hand, and Nandi continued to cry on Niqy's lap to see the blood flowing, and Jon drowned on the steering wheel.

Niqy couldn't bear to see it, and Jon apologized for not doing it again. And admitting his mistake. Finally Niqy collapsed again with umpteenth time. Then he invited Jon back home.

That night Niqy kept thinking....

I have to make a decision again, because during this household betrayal continues to be repeatedly done by Jon to me, I can not stand it anymore I need an impingement in order to motivate my life, I don't want to fall again, I have to get up and fight for my happiness and my son's future.

Seven years into the household, many disappointments I received and Jon never changed his attitude, always hiding behind the word "forgive me", after being forgiven again the same thing, the same thing, I can't take it anymore, I have to do something to vent my emotions,...

Niqy continues to think about finding ways to change his future for the better and also for the survival of his only child, the puppet, because with the age of marriage that has gone 7 years the problems are still the same, infidelity, drunkenness, not even giving a living to his wife and children.

Many comparisons make Niqy must continue to think to make better changes.

Suddenly his mind came up with the idea to continue education level Strata One which was delayed first because it prefers to be a housewife. Niqy considers happy to be obtained when married, being a good wife and mother for the family, but quite the opposite.

Feeling unhappy Niqy had to change her decision to continue her education, because Niqy's household was no longer getting happiness.

But the cost is from where?!, Niqy has no savings, boro-boro has savings, while the living given by Jon alone is sometimes asked again to buy cigarettes and their needs. The desire eventually only becomes wishful thinking, given the impossible conditions.