My Love is Blocked by the Holy Promise

Chapters. 88. Apologizing

(POV) Santi

This bright morning, as bright as my heart to look forward to a more beautiful and happy future. Conquer all obstacles and obstacles that come before you. Control all the emotions and ambitions that will bring me less destruction.

I drove my vehicle towards Padang Sawit village, passing through dusty and rocky roads. While the green expanse of oil palm plantations and rubber plantations that I passed through became a silent witness, he said, for the growth of a new spirit in my soul to leave my bad past behind and embrace a bright life as bright as my heart is today.

At exactly ten in the morning I arrived at the residence of Mr. Dewanta and Zahra's mother. It turns out that Mr. Dewanta's house is very crowded. I also asked one of the residents who just wanted to leave the house of Mr. Dewanta, what event was there.

"We just attended a tasmiyah and aqiqah event the son of Mr. Dewanta who was born half a month ago" said a mother who I asked just now.

I also waited for a while until the people who attended the event at Mr. Dewanta's house came home. After the house he looks lonely. With a pounding heart, I ventured to go to his house with the intention of apologizing.

After the door was knocked, a middle-aged mother looked at me questioningly.

"You who? have we invited you, "ask the woman.

"I'm sorry to introduce my name Santi. I'm here to meet Mr. Dewanta and Ms. Zahra to apologize for the mistakes I've done to both of them," I said, bowing to gather courage.

"Please sit down son, wait a minute I call my son and daughter-in-law," he replied as he passed away leaving me. I sat in the couch waiting for their arrival. Shortly afterwards, Mr. Dewanta wore a white shirt and peci and Zahra bu with a long white kebaya shirt sitting in front of me. They look very harmonious. With all my courage, I began to open the conversation.

"Thank you Zahra and Mr. Dewanta for the time. I'm here to apologize to Mr. Dewanta and Ms. Zahra. Because when I worked for Mr. Dewanta ever intended to damage the household of father and mother. It is a shame to do that. Fortunately, Mr. Dewanta is a man who is loyal to his wife and family so that he is not lured by my foul seduction. I am so sorry for doing this insulting thing. From now on I want to start a new life to get better. That's why I apologise to everyone I've hurt" I said, bowing. I look forward to Mr. Dewanta and Ms. Zahra's answer, I really expect forgiveness from both of them. But if the two of him will not forgive me, I must legowo, wait until whenever Mr. Dewanta and Ms. Zahra forgive me.

"Alhamdulillah you finally realize that your actions are despicable. Good thing I'm not a cheap guy who's so easily seduced by a lonely woman like you. Although it's hard to forget what you did so disgusting, but because you've realized your mistake. So it's appropriate that I try to forgive you, " said Mr. Dewanta while looking at his wife with a view that I do not understand what he meant.

"Thank God you have been guided until you realize that your actions are wrong and demean your dignity and worth as a woman and what you do also makes the women around us feel ashamed. I forgive you Santi, keep the spirit yes, to be a good person so that you will always get the pleasure of Allah" said Ms. Zahra as she embraced me and clasped my hand.

"Thank you, Mr. Dewanta and Ms. Zahra, for forgiving my shameful mistake. I promise to try to be a good person, so that no one will be hurt by my presence.

Apology at the villages of Meltereng, Padang Sawit, Padang Gatah and surrounding areas has been completed. They are indeed good people so that no matter what hurt I have inflicted on them, they still forgive.

Today I'm going to the city to meet Fira and Galih and Juita to apologize and I'm going to apply for a job in the city. I will also occasionally visit Kiran if I get a job

"Eat first Santi's mother has cooked your favorite fried rice.you so today leave for the city," asked the mother, asking, if you have a job in the city do not forget to occasionally go home and visit this old mother, son, please do not forget mother and father hu. hu... " suddenly mother hugged me and her crying broke without being able to hold it anymore.

"Mother need not worry, where maybe Santi forgets mother and father, Santi you know very dear to both of you," I said as I returned the embrace of mother.

"This mother is too much, how can Santi forget us, no matter how far she wanders to leave us, she must come home, she must miss mother's embrace, "said father as he patted my shoulder.

Next we also eat Threesome while chatting lightly in joking and laughter. During the meal I immediately prepared my metic motorcycle. Usually if I go to the city I never use a motorcycle. If you have to travel in the city, I always use the services of taxi Online. But at this time, I do not need to use a motorcycle, because with a motorcycle I can save more and more freely if I want to travel. After all, I went to the city looking for a job and there was no strange intention.

By half a day I had already signed where I used to live, while still in school. Soon I met the hostess' mother who might no longer recognize me.

"Sorry ma'am, what is the need, may come kasini, "said kost who seems to no longer recognize me.

"I'm Santi who used to be in school when I contracted here ma'am, my uniform used to be the farthest among the uniforms of other school children," I said trying to remind the boarding mother. Mom thought for a moment.

"You're Santi who used to be flirtatious, right?" said the hostess. I timidly agree with the words of the mother.

"Is there still an empty room, ma'am, I want to host it here if there is still an empty room," deliberately I just rent a room like a schoolgirl to be more efficient, anyway I'm just alone.

This time I was lucky, the room I wanted turned out to be in an empty position. The boarding mother immediately drove me to the room I rented, after which I paid for it for a period of three months. While in the room, I immediately arrange some clothes that I brought from the village. I only carry a few clothes because I will live a simple life.

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