My Love is Blocked by the Holy Promise
Chapter 83. Want to Change
(POV) Santi
Lately my heart has felt empty, after many times my plans have failed. All this time I didn't care about other people's feelings. But now I feel guilty every time I remember the people I hurt. But on the other hand I also envy people whose fate is so lucky like Fira, repeatedly I destroy his happiness but he always rises and his fate is even more lucky after being destroyed. When his relationship broke up with Dion, he got Dewanta, broke up with Dewanta uh. Though I was laboriously and sacrificially chasing after Dion's love, suddenly he was present married to Dion. After I took Dion from him. la. kok.malah Dionnya who threw me and that too because of Fira. Until now Fira is married to Galih and I heard from Bude Marni that Fira is pregnant, the more perfect Fira's life.
It's sad to see Fira's life getting happier as I suffer more. What is true is the karma of the deeds I have done, what is true is the bad luck that happened to me is the prayer of the people I have hurt granted God.
Maybe if I stopped being the third person in someone else's household and stopped seducing the striped man my life would change for the better. Looks like I should try it. I heard that Juita who had just converted was now her life was calmer and more comfortable. Even soon he will get married, even if only with Edi an ordinary man who does not have much money.
Juita seemed to love her poor future husband very much. Maybe love has blinded him.
"When again cook do not daydream tuh fish almost charred, " cried mother while flipping the fish I was frying. fortunately mother came, mother came, otherwise the fish I was cooking could not be eaten. While I was cooking with my mother's help, my father came to me.
"There's your friend Meri in front, meet her, let your mother cook" he told me. I immediately made two cups of tea and brought them to the guest room.
"Hi Meri how are you" said Santi to his childhood friend while serving two cups of tea with some snacks.
"My news is this, still a widow has not been sold he. he.
"You're rich, I've done it. I repeatedly approached this guy but always failed and failed again" replied Santi, patting Meri's thigh wearing only a miniskirt.
"You who approach failure is natural, he who approached a man could fail, but it's not my dream man like my ex-husband. he's a poor guy with two kids, he works dodos palm, I accept him for who he is. And I also managed to get him divorced from his wife. Turns out I asked him to marry me, he refused on the grounds of not marrying a woman who destroys people's households and he said he still loves his ex-wife very much. I feel so much. Where after divorced his wife's life is more prosperous, even though he does not work, but can buy a new motorbike, home renovation, his clothes he and his son are nice and expensive, already his face added glowing," with great annoyance Meri told me about her life experience.
"That means your life story is almost similar to mine. Everyone I've ever broken into is now his life is happier. Sometimes I think I want to end my adventure of getting a rich man. I was tired of having to fail constantly. My family also wants me to be alone no longer to hurt other people. Because the prayers of the people we hurt are usually granted by God, my mother said. I'm trying to be a good woman, to make my life better and to be blessed, to have sustenance in the right way and not to have as many problems as I am today," I said to Meri while sipping my homemade tea that was almost cold. I also reminded Meri to drink her tea.
Like Meri is interested in the road I'm going through. He was bored because his life was always blasphemed by people, considered as trash in society. Wives who have beautiful husbands often look cynically at him. Which makes it more hurt, his only son often fights at school because bullied by his friend by being ridiculed as the son of an actor and a cheap woman.
"Yes if he is single brush. The important thing is that no one gets hurt, I think. Is there a rich man who wants to be with you? I can't believe that you're chasing him.
"At this time there is no, but who knows when there is, if we have become good women who know there are many who are interested" said Meri while chuckling. We continued to talk lightly, telling each other the bitter experience of life and our subsequent plans until noon. Because it's time to pick up Meri's schoolgirl by her side to pick up her son. I also immediately picked up Kiran at school.
"Tumben mama who picked up Kiran, usually the grandfather who picked up Kiran" Kiran said as she climbed on top of my vehicle.
"Today mama is not busy anymore, there is no work so can pick you up," I told my daughter.
"I'm glad you don't work, so you can pick up Kiran, but how do we meet our needs ma!!, Kiran is again looking to buy new clothes like having a classmate Kiran. Where now papa never love our money again, " said Kiran Sad.
"Have not to remember papa again, he is happy with aunt Yunian, we just live our lives well. After all you still have grandparents who often give you pocket money," I tried to comfort Kiran who always asked about her father who never met her after we divorced.
Mas Dion is outrageous, he no longer cares about his daughter who now has a wife again and also a boy who can continue his family business. I continued to drive my vehicle which sounded harsh as a sign of being irritated. But unfortunately I can't take it because I don't have the money for it yet.
I don't feel like I've entered my yard.
"When there are guests, the car is very good, who is... Maybe mama's friend, hopefully he brought gifts for Kiran," Kiran said as she pointed to the luxury car parked in the yard of my house.
I immediately stepped into the door leading to the living room. I was very surprised to see who the guests came to our house. Kiranpun immediately ran to hug one of the guests who was talking with my father and mother so familiarly.
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