My Love is Blocked by the Holy Promise

Chapters. 26. Think on

(POV) Fira

Zahwa had been taken by a man who was about fifty years old who turned out to be the father of Dewanta. Right now it's just me, Dewanta and some of the cops that are left here.

From the way it looks like Dewanta is very angry with me. His face that had always smiled sweetly and so longed for me was no longer, just a stiff and sissy face that he had presented to me.

The lost son I have returned is well. I didn't mean to hurt Zahwa, I told people to kidnap just to get his attention, I didn't mean to hurt him. The proof is that I had Sumilah's grandmother and warjo grandfather look after and love Zahwa. I mean to bring Zahwa here so that Dewanta realizes how much I care about his family, because I have struggled to find Zahwa. I forgot that Dewanta is a smart man who is not easily lied to

"Let's Fira's mother, come with us to the police station to explain why you can be with Zahwa" said the police officer, he wanted to put handcuffs on both my wrists, but I refused, I promise to always be cooperative to provide the information that the police need.

Arriving at the police station I did not expect it turned out that Warjo's grandfather and Sumilah's grandmother were already there with the condition of their hands mounted handcuffs. I could not bear to see their situation, there was no ill intention in my heart to involve them. I asked them for help because when I saw Zahwa being chased by two of my men, it was likely that he would pass by Sumilah's grandmother and Warjo's grandfather who was currently pounding palm oil. I deliberately made up the story about Zahwa to Sumilah's grandmother and Warjo's grandfather so that they really take good care of Zahwa.

Taking into account the condition of Warjo's cluck and Sumilah's grandmother I finally stopped my plan, I admitted my mistake in front of the police and Dewanta. Because right now I know Dewanta doesn't love me anymore. His gaze that used to be so soft now looks flat. Look at his eyes that were once full of love now I don't see him anymore. He was like a stranger to me.

With various negotiations finally Dewanta willing to peace with me on condition that I should not disturb the household again. I also agree to those terms. Maybe I should think of another way to get the love of Dewanta that has now vanished.

Tonight I went home to the villa empty-hearted, I had some way to get the love of Dewanta, but I always failed and failed again. Even I have met both parents of Dewanta to ask Dewanta to marry me again. Dewanta's mother was angry then berated me and said very grateful because Dewanta wanted to marry Zahra his favorite daughter-in-law not with a foul-hearted woman like me.

Around twelve o'clock I reached the Divilla, my two men were waiting for me. Apparently he's waiting for my payment. I immediately gave them some money as I promised and told them to leave because I was ashamed that Yanti Dan Diono would know what I had done to Zahra's family.

After the two men left, I immediately entered the room and took a shower to refresh my body. After taking a shower and eating I lay my body in my beloved bed.

Now my heart is worried again, between continuing my plan to reclaim the love of Dewanta or accepting destiny and resigning just like I did when Dewanta broke with me first. If I had to continue my plan, I felt tired of the failures that always accompanied my life journey. I sometimes feel ashamed of myself for chasing after men who obviously don't love me anymore. I'm like a cheap woman who blames myself.

It turns out that loving someone who already belongs to someone else is very painful, but we cannot control the heart to whom we must love. Though I never asked for his presence to God but why my encounter with him has thrown arrows - arrows of romance that once existed even deeper.

Maybe to forget Dewanta back I have to go on holiday for a moment. Until late at night I kept thinking about how I could get back to forgetting Dewanta so that I could stop thinking about evil plans to reclaim the love of Dewanta from his wife.

I do not know until what time last night I fell asleep, which I was obviously awakened by the light of the morning sun. I took my phone that I put on the nightstand, it was the first thing I always did every waking up. There were three missed calls from papa. I immediately called back to find out if there was any news of papa calling me.

After waiting for a while, my father answered my call.

"Assalamualaikum son, how are you there, are you okay," said papa across there.

"Wa allaikum sallam papa, what's up? mama is fine, right?" said Fira

"You don't worry, everything here is healthy. But the Ivory mas is sick and ask permission to seek treatment in a long time. Papa wants you to replace him for a while. Because your brother Angkasa can't possibly manage everything alone. Hows it? are you ready?" said papa. I immediately agreed to papa's wish. In the past, Ivory mas and Angkasa mas did manage papa's business outside the island. But after my divorce from Dion, all the papa companies outside the island were taken from the city. So that all the small families of the Ivory mas and the Angkasa mas moved to the city.

Today I packed up to go to town. Before leaving I went to see Zahra's mother first to apologize for all the mistakes I had made.

"There's a need for Fira to come to my house, said Zahra when I visited her.

"Look mom, I want to apologize to mom and also Dewanta, because all this time my presence has disturbed the tranquility of your household. Sorry because I have been offending and degrading your family's self-esteem. Now I want to go to the city to distract me, so that I can forget about Dewanta. Ask for her prayers, Zahra ma'am," I said to Zahra as I cupped my palms together in my chest.

"I forgive Ms. Fira, because no human being is perfect. Man the place is wrong and khilaf. I'm happy that Miss Fira realized the mistake of Miss Fira. Actually loving someone is the right of anyone, and the right of everyone to reject it. The heart of man can change mother, so can the heart of sister Dewanta, she used to love mother, but now no longer. Maybe he's used to living with me until now he loves me. Is not Allah the One who turns over the hearts of men. So is the heart of the mother, during marriage to the ex-husband of the mother, the mother loves him right, but after separation the mother no longer loves him and after meeting with the Dewanta mas the mother loves him back. If you try to stay away and forget about Dewanta then open your heart to fall in love with another man. Then the possibility of the mother will succeed in forgetting the Dewanta mas.not the cure of heartbreak is to fall in love again," said Bu Zahra at length.

After I thought - think, what was said by Ms. Zahra was right. I had to leave this village to find a new life in order to forget Dewanta back. if I could then now I can. I finally left the house of Zahra and Dewanta. I also asked Ms. Zahra to offer my apology to Dewanta who was not home at the time.