My Love is Blocked by the Holy Promise
Chapters. 20. Fatimah's Jealousy.
(POV) Fatima
When hearing the story of Fira, a beautiful and wealthy woman from the city, her ex-lover named Dewanta. I remember the story of Mr. Dewanta when we were both candid about our past. At that time, Dewanta said that he had broken his relationship with his girlfriend named Fira in order to marry me, the woman his parents had betrothed.
Today the wedding ceremony when sister Dewanta met Miss Fira, it turns out that they used to be lovers. Frankly, I feel inferior when I am near Fira, she is a woman who is almost perfect compared to me and she is like the earth with the sky.
It's true that Dewanta has forgotten Fira's mother. A woman who is so charming just because I am a village woman. Now I doubt the love of Dewanta to me, what are the words of Miss Fira the other day that Dewanta only pretended to love me for the sake of the good of us all. If it is true how tormented life Mr. Dewanta so far, living with an unloved woman and harboring love for another woman.
This really caused me a dilemma. God what I should do. Do I have to be quiet pretending not to know and not to care about the feelings of the two of them, but I don't think I have the heart. If I let go of Dewanta's sister to be happy with Fira's mom, I don't think I can, imagining them together is very painful, not to mention how Zahwa and my parents feel.
Letting the polygamous sister Dewanta is more painful, it feels like I am not that strong.I remember that Miss Fira is willing to be second because of her great love for her sister Dewanta.
"Darling why the hell do you moody ever since we came home from the bride," said Brother Dewanta as he lay beside me and hugged me.
"It looks like there's something you're hiding, a story, who knows I can give you the solution" Dewanta stroked my hair.
"sister, are you still in love with Fira's mother," I asked Sis Dewanta because I couldn't wait to hear Dewanta's confession, but Sis Dewanta smiled.
"Why do you ask me like that, are you jealous, do I look like I still love him or does he love me," replied Dewanta as if he were teasing me, or in her heart I'm just a fool who lies easily.
"I know you still love each other, I also know that my sister has always pretended to love me" my tears broke, I felt like I couldn't save my feelings.
"Darling why you don't trust me so much, remember that a sturdy household hick has to be based on mutual trust in each other. I sincerely love you, even I fell in love with you before we got married" said sister Dewanta, clutching my body in her arms.
"It doesn't make sense, brother, where maybe it's that easy brother to fall in love and forget he's so perfect, beautiful, classy, classy, rich while I was just a village woman who was so easily fooled by her brother by pretending love for the sake of pleasing her parents.
"Zahra, why are you talking like that, why are you doubting my feelings that I've been guarding only for you. She is beautiful and rich, I used to love her, but that was before I knew you" cried Dewanta.
Had he come to want to go back to big brother, would you have accepted it," I asked Sis Dewanta.
Of course not, because I only want to get married once in a lifetime. I have chosen you and I have made the sacred promise of marriage so abstinence for me to betray the promise I once made before God and also man" said Dewanta still in a high tone.
"But he still loves you sister, even he once said he was willing to be the second for the sake of his love for his sister," said I want to know how my husband responded.
"That's her right, her right to love whoever she wants. The important thing is that he doesn't force me to go back to him and if he enforces my right to refuse for the sake of my full housewife, Zahra, you don't have to worry about me turning away from you. For to me the real love is the love that exists after marriage, the love that exists before marriage is lust. I cannot leave a lawful woman to me for a woman who is unclean to me. You know he doesn't love me, he just wants to have me" said Dewanta. Love you, not most of the mind. Don't waste your life thinking about things that haven't happened.
As the students lined up to enter the classroom, I saw that Miss Fira was delivering Dianti with her eyes moist.
"Was she cried all night for Dewanta, she still intended to be my husband's second wife after knowing me as Dewanta's sister's wife. My heart keeps raging. But I remember Dewanta's message that I had to believe that he would always be faithful to the promise he made.
When I came home from school, suddenly Fira came to see me.
"Bu Zahra, I want to talk to you with four eyes" said Ms. Fira.
"Oh can ma'am, let's talk in class, Later invited bu kasian if you have to wait outside," I replied.
"It just so happened that Dianti was picked up by his mother. Look, Zahra ma'am, Zahra's mom knows that I and Dewanta used to be lovers, we love each other," Fira's mom was silent for a moment, she seemed hesitant to say the next sentence.
"Mas Dewanta married his mother because she was betrothed not because of love. I'm sure Mas still loves me and so do I" said Ms. Fira whose words I cut immediately.
"What does mother mean? Directly to the problem yes ma'am," I said a little emotion.
I want to ask for the willingness and sincerity of the mother, please let the mother bless me and Dewanta married. My compensation will grant some of the property I have to belong to Fatimah's mother.
Degs....
"Is this how the town lady talks, as if everything will settle down with money. Though according to her story, she divorced her husband because he did not want to be combined. But he just wants to get into someone else's household. Had she forgotten how sick it was to know her husband was remarried.
"mother Fira, have you thought carefully about making this decision, have you thought about the good and bad?" I asked Ms. Fira.
"Of course Zahra, I sincerely give some of my property for the sake of the man I love, for the happiness that I have always dreamed of," said Bu Fira steadily.
"Honestly, Miss Fira, I am not interested in my mother's property, I do not want to exchange my husband for property. I want to ask my mother, I want to ask her, in the past, mothers divorced their husbands because the mother's husband was caught marrying again, how did the mother feel when she knew the mother's husband was married again?
"Of course it hurts ma'am, because the woman took my husband for being interested in my husband's property. That is why I asked my mother for permission to let me and Dewanta get married, because I respect and respect mother as the legal wife of Dewanta even I am willing to give up some of my property for mother," said Fira steady.
"Look, mom, you should just come to my house tomorrow around nine to talk directly to sister Dewanta happens to be tomorrow Sunday, I will sharelok where I live. Then I say yes, Miss Fira" I said as I left Fira's mother.
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