My Love is Blocked by the Holy Promise
Chapters. 85. Trying to Be Patient
(POV) Tiny
Dion's car drove away from our humble home, leaving a sense of sadness in the hearts of the three of us. Kiran is our only grandchild. Actually I was very heavy if I had to part with him, because he was the only one who entertained and was always the friend who filled our old days.
I feel very selfish to let Kinan live with us with simplicity while in the city he has a rich papa, who is able to provide a high education, he said, a luxurious life and a brilliant future.
I approached my daughter Santi who had just separated from her only child. I gave her a warm hug to encourage her through the next day.
"No need to be mourned, son, he's not gone forever. You can still meet him, take him for a walk every once in a while," I said while inviting him into the house.
"Mom.every mother parted with me does she feel sad like me, too" asked Santi.
"Of course, son, there is no mother who is not sad if she has to part with her baby. If you part with your son for his own good, so that his future will be better than ours. Because, however, he has a distinguished family. It would be unfair if he stayed with us with such simplicity. While his family there wants to provide a comfortable life for Kiran," I told Santi. I sipped a nearly cold tea in the guest room to wet my esophagus.
"If you part with your son for his own good, at least it becomes your encouragement. If mom used to part with you to go to town to chase a rich guy who wasn't loyal to his partner. Neighbors often come just to complain about your unworthy deeds. It hurts so bad my mother's heart to hear my favorite daughter become the gossip of the neighbors, ' I said again while sobbing to remember the bitter memories of that time.
"Excuse Santi buu!!, Santi is completely useless, Santi is really sorry to have repeatedly hurt mom, Santi wants to change. Help and guide me so that my life is more blessed and more beneficial," Santi continued to talk while sobbing.
"Mom forgave you long before you apologized, of course I want to guide you son!!, now you eat first. After eating later go for a walk with mom," I let Santi eat first so he can think positively.
For a long time I expected Santi to change, he always said he would change but that was just a word. I don't know if Santi is serious about changing this time. It feels bad once every remember his behavior that always makes parents embarrassed.
"You're why mom, you're crying alone here, where Santi, is she still sad. You do not need to be too sad, you should be grateful because your grandson still has a good father and mother, who want to take care and educate him so that later he can be a proud child. If Kiran has been successful she will definitely remember us, remember her mother, remember her grandparents, said Pak Tono Santi's father.
"Mommy already!!.remember, no matter how disappointed we are with Santi, never open up about his origins. Remember first we promised to accept the child as it is, "pak Tono replied advising his beloved wife.
"I'm also an ordinary human well, repeatedly I was hurt by the child I've cared for and I grew up with great difficulty even though between me and him there was no blood tie," I said.
"What mom!!, so I'm not mom and dad's son!!" suddenly Santi appeared from behind the door and cried hysterically knowing that he was just our foster child that we had been caring for since infancy.
"Sorry son, you misheard, this mother is talking about the son of a mother friend, her adopted child.yes, her adopted child," I answered Santi's question with nervous stammering. I could not believe that Santi was behind the door, I tried to explain that what he heard was not true. But he doesn't seem to believe it. I just accepted how Santi reacted.
"Don't lie mom, Santi's heard everything you said, Santi can't hear wrong.
"Already ma'am, everything has already happened, we should just tell you about where he came from. If he hates us and doesn't care about us, it's okay. After all, we have done well by taking care and raising him seriously, if he does not like it, if he does not care about us who are old, just let it go, if he does not care about us who are old, maybe God has a more wonderful plan for our old age" my husband said. Suddenly Santi hugged my feet and screamed hysterically.
"I'm sorry Santi bu, forgive Santi who does not know himself, Santi is very sinful to mother and father. Santi promise, this time Santi will really change, this time Santi seriously ma'am," said Santi while crying so bitterly. I immediately embraced her lovingly as well as my husband. I love and love him as much as my own son. Sometimes I forget that he's just my adopted son.
"So stop apologizing to your parents. We have forgiven you long before you asked for it. We are very grateful if you want to improve yourself to become a better person. You need to know that we love you more than we love ourselves" I said, wiping away my tears.
"Listen to your father talk to Santi. My mom and dad used to be so happy when your mom gave you an unlucky couple because God didn't believe we had a baby. Your presence in our lives is like a light that gives illumination when we are both at the height of despair, our hearts are so dark lament this destiny. The doctor stated the condition of our reproductive organs is healthy but in fact the mother did not go pregnant. When I first held you and said the azan in both your ears, you looked at us with a gaze that made us very happy. The days you grow up healthy, beautiful, smart make our days so meaningful. Your presence makes our days full of love, you who have made us continue to survive in the mahligai of marriage, he said, you who make father and mother continue to try to fulfill the sacred promise that we have made before the ruler. If there were no you, somehow the fate of our marriage, father could not have hugged and fondled mother all night," my husband said, reflecting I immediately pinched her waist and made her scream. The three of us laughed together.
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