My Love is Blocked by the Holy Promise

Chapters. 21. Dewanta Reaction

(POV) Dewanta

Today when I was working to watch my employees who were mendodos palm, suddenly my phone rang. I immediately searched and took it out of my pants pocket. Apparently Zahra called me, "what's he calling in the afternoon, hopefully not the bad news I heard.

"Assalamu allaikum sis," Zahra my wife said her greetings in a raucous voice as if she was crying.

"Wa allaikum sallam, what's the matter dear" I said nervously.

"Big brother where!, when to go home," Zahra's voice still sounded hoarse as if holding back a cry.

"What's up Zahra, you're crying," I said.

"It's okay, sister, I just want to hear the voice of my brother, yes I've closed the phone yes, assalamu allaikum," Zahra turned off her phone connection and further confused me.

It feels like my heart is not calm thinking about Zahra, since the arrival of Fira to this village, Zahra is often sad, and jealous of my past with Fira. Indeed, since meeting with Fira I also often remember memories when we were together first. But I'm a man who tends to put logic ahead of feelings. Maybe if I were a man who would easily give my love to women. I will be fascinated with the beauty of Fira that is so alluring as before. But the present Dewanta is not the former Dewanta who is easily tempted by female beauty.

Five years of marriage as Zahra's husband and son-in-law Sasmito made me mature and mature in acting. I always remember that love for a wife in a marriage is worth worshiping and love for another woman who is not our mahram is a sin. So I always brushed aside and threw away the love that once existed and now came back. I don't want my heart to sin. I do not want to hurt the woman who has been with me, taking care of me and serving me lovingly.

Only a foolish man would willingly destroy his own household that he built with his beloved wife in order to live with his ex-girlfriend. Hurt the feelings of a wife, a child and my whole family. They are more valuable than an ex.

If I stay in the garden, I can't calm down, I'm afraid something will happen to Zahra or Zahwa, I'd better go home, so I know Zahra's condition.

I immediately told the workers to go home first. Arriving home, Zahra was lying face down while sobbing.

"Zahra, what's the matter baby," I woke Zahra to wipe her tears. Zahra told me about Fira meeting her at the Zahra school where she teaches and tomorrow she's planning to come to see me.

I don't think now Fira has changed a lot, Fira who is not the Fira who used to be. Somehow the association he is now to make his conscience as if dead.

"Maybe it's a test of our marriage, we face it together, you have to keep believing in me for the sake of the integrity of our household.

"I feel bad to meet Fira brother, he has looked down on me, as if I am a treasure enthusiast who wants to exchange the property he has with my husband," said Zahra.

"If I face it myself, it can be slander and Fira will be more freely seducing me, you want" I said and Zahra replied with a shake of head.

"That means tomorrow we'll face it together. Show him that we're husband and wife who love each other. He cannot enter our home life. No need to frown, you have to trust me.

Let's eat, we have to eat a lot in order to be strong to face the test of life, Zahwa mana," I said as I scavenged the rice using entong and put it on my wife's plate and my own plate.

This morning at about eight in the morning as I sat down at my dinner table enjoying a cup of coffee made by my wife, the front door was knocked.

"Honey there is a guest tuh, bukain dong," Zahra who was accompanying me at the dinner table stood up while justifying her hijab and stepped towards the living room.

"Let you sit down, I call my husband first" I heard Zahra's voice inviting her guests to sit down and step at me.

"Sir, Miss Fira has come" said Zahra, her face looking nervous. I immediately saw my watch which turned out to be only eight in the morning.

"Yesterday he promised at nine but only eight o'clock Fira has come" said Zahra explained.

"Yes you make a drink first, chat new pleasantries later I followed, I want to spend my coffee first yes dear," I grinned to Zahra so that she was not too tense. I purposely told Zahra to make coffee first so that Fira would not have time alone with me, to keep my wife feeling.

After I thought Zahra had served drinks and some snacks, I went out and greeted Fira.

"Good morning Fira, how are you," I greeted Fira as I sat next to my wife. Fira stood up to greet me but I only cupped my palms together.

"You changed once a mas, used to every meet you always hug me and chips, now boro-boro hugs invited shaman aja do not want," said Fira

"Of course we're getting older and we have to keep changing for the better. I used to not understand religion so I often do things that are not allowed by religion. But since I married Zahra I have continued to deepen my religious knowledge so that my life will be better and more useful, both in the world and in the hereafter" I tried to explain that she was not offended by my changes.

"Just go, I'm here with good intentions and purpose. Yesterday I told your wife but she told me to talk to you directly.

"Bu Zahra can leave us, I want to chat alone with Dewanta," said Fira. I held onto Zahra's shoulder so she wouldn't leave me and sat in her place.

"No Fira, talk!!, let her here, she's my wife, she should know what I'm talking about. I can't talk to you either because we're not mahram. With an annoyed face, Fira immediately expressed her desire to marry me and become Zahra's honey in exchange for half of her property being given to Zahra. He also said that he still loves me.

Honestly, I was surprised by the sentence Fira said, how could a woman express her feelings to a man in front of his wife.

"Sorry Fira, I'm not willing, because I don't want to hurt my wife. You are also a woman, you are willing to divorce rather than be combined. You should think about Zahra's feelings, you seem to have no self-respect just expressed love to the man in front of his wife.didakan want to give Zahra a treasure reward so that he will follow your wishes. You think I am an item that can be exchanged for treasure. What you've done has demeaned us Fira. Now I just realized my parents really don't approve of our relationship. It turns out your true nature is like this," I'm barely able to stem my emotions. Zahra patted my shoulder to calm me down. I saw Fira's tears seeping out of the corner of her eyes, but they didn't make me feel sorry.

"As all that I do because I love you so much, I am willing to lower my pride in order to get my love back, even I was willing to lose half my fortune so that we could live happily like our dreams used to.

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