My Husband My Pilot: Plane Crash Tragedy

Chapter 25. Traumatizing

Alan was walking around with his feet on crutches. After yesterday he ran like a frenzy and forgot that his leg injury made his injury worse. Yesterday, Kansha managed to make him lose control.

Alan walked to the park to breathe fresh. He was cramped if he had to stay in his room, not to mention he was not allowed to meet with Kansha because of the condition of the woman who was still unstable.

But the intention of the heart just wants to just walk, if he sees an unusual sight. In one of the park chairs, his little sister was talking to Kansha. Alfin was sitting in the park chair while Kansha was sitting in a wheelchair. I don't know what they're obviously happy about. Alan quickly approached them.

“ALFIN!” shouted Alan.

Alfin and Kansha gasped and turned in shock at the pouting Alan. “What the hell is Mas? Just be surprised.” Alfin said.

Alan cleared his throat and normalized his voice, “Fin, you are sought after nurse he said there is an operation schedule.” Said Alan.

“Operation schedule? I don't have any operating schedule today.” timpal Alfin confused.

“Oh really?” Alan pretended to be indifferent. Alfin nodded.

“Then you have to check your patients, do not get worse later must surgery.” Tukas Alan's.

Alfin frowned, "I've examined my patients earlier. "Speak Alfin.

"Ah really?" Now Alan is thinking about making up any more reasons for Alfin.

Alfin who realizes Alan's panicked look understands that Alan does not want to be alone with Kansha. It's just that he can't tell me the reason.

Alfin chuckled inwardly as the idea of pranking Alan flashed through his mind, "What is Alan doing here? Didn't Doctor Ravi say it's not going anywhere? Why even hang around?" ask Alfin.

"It's better if you have to be in the room all day" replied Alan. "Oh, do you know each other?" asked Alan to switch the topic.

“We've been acquaintances earlier.” Reply Alfin nodded.

Alan nodded, “Good.” Alan said a little upset actually.

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Alfin's phone vibrated, there was an incoming message that he had to do a second session of patient checking. Alfin put his phone back in and looked at Kansha.

“Sorry, Kansha. I have to go, there's a patient check in a minute.” Alfin said a little regretfully.

Kansha nodded, “No problem, your patient is much more important.” Kansha.

Alfin turned his gaze to the older brother who put on a happy look, “I go, Mas.” Alfin's word was full of emphasis.

“Please. Happy working yes.” Alan said happy. Alfin shook his head and left Alan and Kansha.

After Alfin's departure, there were only Alan and Kansha. Alan stared awkwardly at Kansha who was sitting quietly on her wheelchair. Alan walked limped to sit on the chair Alfin had occupied.

“How are you doing?” chirps Alan.

Kansha sighed softly then leaned her body on the wheelchair backrest, “Slightly better.” Answer Kansha slowly.

"Thank God, don't do anything stupid like yesterday. You don't know how we hang when we hear it" Alan said.

"He said, yesterday you ran in a doldrums looking for my whereabouts. You also waited for me for 3 hours" Kansha said staring at Alan.

"Oh that," Alan scratched his head, "That's because I'm so worried. You're not like you so that worries me." Alan replied.

"What kind of person am I until you say I'm not like me?"

"You-" Alan was silent, he looked at Kansha who was still staring at him and waiting for his reply, "The bravest girl I have ever known. The toughest girl I've ever known and the most genius girl I've ever met."

Kansha was speechless at Alan's reply, she did not suspect Alan's answer.

"That's the highest compliment I've got this year." - Kimpal Kansha laughed. Alan is smiling.

"Today I have a counseling schedule with one of the psychologists" Kansha said. He was now staring at the garden fountain. The sound of water made him calm.

"Psychologist?" reset Alan.

Kansha nodded, "I'm not crazy, but I have to admit that I'm a little mentally disturbed."

"I knew. I don't think I have any trauma. The proof when I tell you, I'm fine. But just yesterday," Kansha paused her speech, her forehead shrinking. "I didn't even knowingly stick that needle into my veins."

"You should tell the psychologist everything later and try to think rationally next time."

"I'm a reporter, of course I have to think rationally. Yesterday I just lost a little bit of control."

Alan exhaled softly, "Losing control makes you almost lose your life."

"I don't want to anymore either." Kansha shook her head unwillingly, "It feels so painful when your life is on the verge of life and death. I can't do anything to stop him."

"That's why suicide isn't the best way. You are not yet dead and by suicide, you are forcing your own life away. It sure feels a lot more painful."

"You talk as if you've done it" said Kansha amusedly.

"You're!" yell, Alan's upset. Kansha's laughter broke.

***

"Make me Marisa" said a woman in her thirties. He smiled kindly at Kansha.

"I'm Kansha." replied Kansha.

"I've heard quite a bit from your parents. But I haven't heard the whole thing, you want to tell me?" ask Marisa softly. He must not force Kansha, let everything slow down and on Kansha's own will.

Kansha let out her breath slowly, "I-"Kansha was speechless. I don't know why he couldn't tell her.

"Just calm. Don't force it, make yourself comfortable. I'll wait."

Hearing her, Kansha tried to retell, "I have killed my own sister." a sentence finally slid from her mouth.

"Please!"

"Please, Kansha!"

Kania's broken cry was heard slowly by Kansha. Kansha tries to save her brother but is also on the verge of death.

"Kansha please!"

Kania's voice that slashed his heart, haunting him back.

"Kansha, are you okay?" marisa asked when she saw her patient sweating coldly.

"I killed him. I let him bet his life for me " replied Kansha trembling.

"What do you feel?" ask Marisa.

"That voice, I'm afraid. I feel guilty" Kansha said with tears in her eyes. Kania's voice kept ringing in his ears.

Marisa stroked Kansha's shoulder gently, "It's fine. Don't be afraid, let those memories dive you in. Feel the sensation, re-feel the feeling of what you used to feel, and you will heal faster" said Marisa gave encouragement.

***

Ruben continued to walk around restlessly in front of Kansha's room. Nana who was sitting looking at him just sighed softly. Trying to drive away his heart.

"Will Kansha be okay?" muttered Ruben worried.

"He'll be fine. Precisely with therapy like this, he can be cured." replied Nana.

"So don't know if he's had that much trauma. I thought he had forgotten those painful memories. He's never talked about it all this time."

Nana sighed, "Who can forget such painful memories? And even if you don't talk about it, it doesn't mean it's gone. That incident when Kansha was 5 years old, she was still innocent and her head was recording everything well."

Reuben sighed, "If we had known earlier, it couldn't have been this way."

"Also, there is something good about all these events" said Nana. Reuben.

"His parents also felt guilty and tried to mend their relationship. Although I'm not sure if Kansha will take it."