My Husband My Pilot: Plane Crash Tragedy

Chapter 23. Alan's Anxiety

Immediately after hearing Kansha attempt suicide, Alfin immediately ran towards the room where Alan was being treated. After arriving, Alfin immediately barged inside and gasped toward Alan who was staring at him in surprise mixed with confusion.

“What's up, Fin? Why are you running?” Ask Mother confused.

“Mas, Mas Alan, Kansha.” says Alfin gasping for breath. Alan frowned then for a second then turned anxious. The feeling is not good.

“Kansha why? Alfin, Kansha why? Quickly say!” alan was worried.

“Kansha, said one of the nurses, unconscious after the suicide attempt. He poked his pulse with an infusion needle.” Answer Alfin.

Alan pecked, he dropped the remote he was holding. Mother and Aisha squealed a little. Alan regained his senses from his shock and hurriedly pulled out the infusion needle on the back of his hand. He got up and ran outside the room.

“Alan!” call Mommy. Alfin sighed softly then ran after Alan who ran like a fidelity. Mother and Aisyah also followed.

Alan ran fast, ignoring the bloody back of his hand. The pain in his leg was not felt either. In Alan's mind, how is Kansha's condition. Alan feels half-conscious when Alfin says that Kansha tried to kill herself.

What's wrong with that girl? think Alan.

“Where is a patient room named Kansha Andara?” alan asked frantically to one of the nurses at the reception.

“VIP room no 3.” Answer the nurse.

“Thank you.” After saying that, Alan immediately ran back.

He circled right left looking for Kansha's room. Alan grew anxious until he saw a sign that read Kansha Andara. Alan just walked in. Her knees were limp when she found Kansha lying weakly with a pale face. In his hand, in addition to the infusion, there was also a blood transfusion needle.

“Alan.” Mother, Aisyah and Alfin approached Alan who was still silent in his place. The three of them also turned their gazes to a pale woman lying on the bed.

Alan didn't heed the call of his mother. He slowly approached Kansha. Her lips felt dry, and her throat was choked. Until a drop of tears dripped in his eye when he was already a few feet from Kansha.

“Who are you?” reprimand Andrian but Alan did not heed it. Alan instead took Kansha's right hand whose wrist was on a bandage. Andrian wants to stop, but Grace shakes her head and lets Alan touch Kansha.

“Stupid basis. What are you trying to do Kansha?” ask Alan lirih. “Why did you kill yourself Kansha? Why would you want to hurt your wrist?” alan rubbed the Kansha bandage gently.

Alan sighed, “I wonder how you are doing. When I finally found out about your condition, this wasn't what I expected. Quick wake Kansha.” Alan said with a small sob.

Get up, Kansha. Words Alan always repeated.

***

It had been three hours that Kansha was unconscious. And it's been 3 hours, Alan just sat looking at Kansha. He did not budge even when Mother and Alfin told him to go back to his nursery. He was also silent when the nurse reassembled the infusion. In essence, Alan did not want to go anywhere before Kansha was conscious and fine.

Mother, who was not comfortable with her son's behavior, apologized to Grace and Andrian. Grace and Andrian nodded. Even Andrian left Kansha to Alan because she and Grace were going to see a psychologist. In that room, there were only Alan, mother and Aisyah. Alfin has an operation schedule.

Aisyah looked at Alan's back with nanar. Alan's concern for a woman named Kansha really made his heart cut. I don't know what really happened. I don't know what Alan felt about Kansha. Aisyah felt uncomfortable looking at Alan who looked worried and anxious at the other woman.

Mother patted the back of Aisyah's pensive hands. Aisyah gasped, she turned to the mother who was smiling soothingly. Aisyah smiled and looked forward again.

“Kansha, have you realized?” alan asked with reddened eyes. He's very happy.

“Alan?” kansha said slowly in disbelief. He heard Alan's voice. Is this just hallucination? Is he dead?

“Yes, I'm Alan. Is anyone sick? How are you doing? Doctor is coming soon.” Said Alan berlak.

Kansha sighed tiredly,“Think, I'm dead. I thought this was my hallucination when I heard your voice. Why don't I die?”

Alan frowning dislikes, “What did you say? Don't try to do anything stupid and silly like that. Remember, your life is only one, you are not a cat that has 9 lives.” Firm Alan.

“That's why because I only have one life, if I die now, then I won't live again.” Kansha smiled.

“Kansha!” alan was angry. “Where did you get such ridiculous thoughts? You don't think about the impact? You know what you're doing is so crazy?”

“I know. I just feel I can't anymore. When my mother mentioned Kania's name, I felt that regret deepening, tearing my heart apart slowly. Making a sense of regret wallow until it becomes a sense of despair. I just want to be free from this feeling and I think if I die, I will not be stuck again on this scary taste.” Kansha replied heartbreakingly. As soon as Kansha gave a small sob, Alan shed tears. He really can't see a fragile Kansha like this.

“Stupid basis. Do you think ending your own life is the best solution? If so, how much is your religion worth, so that you do not consider the sins that you will bear later?”

“I told you, I rarely worship in the morning again.” Timpal Kansha is slow.

“Nah, right. Because you rarely worship so it's like this. anyway I reiterate to you, do not do silly and stupid things like this again. If it happens again, I shred your dead body and I give it to the wild animals on the island.” Threatening Alan in an angry tone in contrast to his tears still continued to drip.

***

“Kansha condition is fine. Fortunately the bleeding can be stopped, otherwise the consequences can be fatal. And regarding Kansha's mental state, I think it's good to consult a psychologist. Kansha's mentality was shaken violently, causing her to have suicidal urges.”

The doctor's words made Grace and Andrian feel down. Until this is where Andrian and Grace, met the psychologist and acquaintance of Andrian and his colleagues.

“What Doctor Irfan said is true. It wasn't the physique that pushed Kansha to end her life but her mentality. A violent shock causes him to despair and assumes that suicide is the best solution. I think there's some kind of past trauma that triggered it.” Marisa, the psychologist.

“According to the two of you, has Kansha ever had a bad incident in her past? Like in his childhood?” ask Marisa.

Andrian nodded, “13 years ago, Kansha and Kania, his brother drowned in the sea, but at that time only Kansha managed to survive, while Kania was dragged by the waves until his body was not found.” Answer Andrian sad.

“When I say Kania's name, Kansha is like a fidelity person. He screamed loudly and rampaged at us and drove us all out.” Added Grace.

"That's when Kansha attempted suicide" Andrian said. The shadow of Kansha unconscious with a hand full of blood danced back in her eyes. If Andrian had come in just over a minute, Kansha's life would have been lost.

Marisa nodded, “That means it was her trauma. Kansha may feel guilty about Kania, because of the events of 13 years ago. His physical condition is weak and he is instead reminded of Kania, automatically it makes Kansha remember the bad incident. The trigger for her suicide is a sense of regret and guilt on Kania.” Marisa explained.

Andrian sighed, he pursed the base of his nose. So did Grace who was sobbing. It's all her fault, thought Grace. If she does not dictate that Kansha is Kania's killer, Kansha may not be traumatized until she commits suicide.

“I know, it's heavy for both of you. But I ask for his cooperation, we must fight together for the recovery of Kansha. And one more thing, do not first talk about Kania, Kansha is still not calm.” Marisa's Message.

Now, Andrian and Grace have one task to do, making Kansha back to her normal self. Andrian and Grace also decide to forget everything and want to open a new page with Kansha, the princess.