My husband is not the CEO

Eighty Five

All night long Caramel restlessly impatiently wanted the morning to come soon. The sky was still dark when Caramel opened his eyes after a short sleep, he fumbled on the nightstand and turned on his phone, at 4:30 a.m. Caramel glanced at Rafka who was still asleep, he could not bear to go to the bathroom.

Last night Caramel had set up some test packs in the bathroom that he was going to use this morning. Caramel came late in the month 6 days, he was about to wait until 1 week but he could not resist again wanted to immediately test whether he was positive to get pregnant. As he remembered Caramel was only a week late when using a test pack and saw there were 2 lines there, that was when she was pregnant with Arnesh.

Caramel's hands trembled as she dipped the test pack into her urine. He closed his eyes waiting a few seconds to see the results. It was only a few seconds but it felt so long because Caramel was waiting. Caramel hopes that the results are in line with her shadow, she wants to get pregnant soon even though Rafka does not agree.

"Wait a minute." Caramel was pacing back and forth in her spacious bathroom, twice as large as the bathroom in her parents' house. Caramel washes her hands to buy time and reflects on tidying up her slightly messy hair.

Caramel's eyes rounded after removing the test pack from a special small container of urine. There is only one line on the thin object. Caramel blinked her eyes several times and rubbed her hoping that the line on the test pack would double.

"This must be wrong." Caramel unwrapped a test pack from another brand. Caramel dripped her urine on a test pack that produced a mark - or +.

Caramel's eyes heat up as if pricked by a needle preparing to release water when he sees a negative sign on the second test pack. They both point out that Caramel is not pregnant.

"Armgh!" Caramel screamed slamming the urine container and test pack onto the floor full of emotion, she sat down hugging her knees pitifully. Caramel is not supposed to put expectations too high but she is looking forward to the presence of the fetus in her womb again.

Rafka woke up to the sound of objects falling from the bathroom, he felt the mattress beside him—kosong—ia went down from the bed to see the bathroom lights on, that means Caramel was there.

"What's wrong?" Rafka was surprised to see the test pack scattered, he approached Caramel who was bowed to his knees. "Why Caramel?" Rafka asked softly.

"Rafka." Caramel looked up to see her face wet with tears. Rafka could not see Caramel crying again, he pulled Caramel to stand up. "It is dear .... " He hugged Caramel to calm him down. Rafka knew what was happening, surely the test pack did not show the results that Caramel expected. From the beginning Rafka did want to delay Caramel's pregnancy but the wife still insisted want to get pregnant soon. But seeing Caramel like this Rafka was devastated. Rafka wants to take Caramel's suffering and grief just for her.

"I'm six days late, I think it's a sign that I'm pregnant but it turns out—"

"Sshhhh I'm sure we'll make it but maybe not now, we have plenty of time baby." Rafka rubbed Caramel's back.

"How about we go on vacation."

"Hm?" Caramel took off a look up hug staring at Rafka, "where's vacation?"

"Would you like to go to the mountains or the beach?" Rafka wiped Caramel's tears and kissed her.

"Mount." Answer Caramel origin, actually he really likes traveling so whatever tourist place he will like. But after getting married and having his own business Caramel so do not have the opportunity to go traveling. Kayla and Jane also have their own activities.

"Let's go to Bandung." Rafka had heard about Tebing Keraton in Bandung which he said had a very beautiful view, Danu had told about the place to Rafka.

"When?"

"Today."

"Today?" Caramel repeated, "can you really go all of a sudden?"

"I'll arrange it." Rafka commented on the shady smile, "go get ready."

Wherever Caramel wants to go Rafka will obey him as long as the woman is happy. Some time ago when they saw a doctor to consult whether it was safe for Caramel to get pregnant again, the doctor said there was no problem as long as Caramel kept his condition and did not work too hard.

Caramel cleaned the test pack scattered on the floor and cleaned her urine. Caramel is going through the toughest thing of her life right now, but Rafka always manages to comfort and calm her down. Caramel doesn't know what his fate would be if Rafka wasn't here.

This is the third time Caramel has got a line from the test pack he used. His feelings are always the same, sad, disappointed and angry. Usually a day or two after Caramel uses a test pack, he will come months that make his emotions more erratic.

At times like this Rafka always had a way to take Caramel's mind off his sadness. Rafka is unlike anyone else who can only say, 'don't stress, don't think too much of it to succeed' on Caramel. Instead of saying that, Rafka chose to treat Caramel as best she could and comfort him. For Rafka understood that the word meant nothing to Caramel.

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After traveling for approximately 3 hours finally Caramel and Rafka arrived in the Pine Hill area, Cibodas. The same place their wedding was. Rows of pine forests welcomed their arrival along with a stretch of green grass beneath. Sunlight cannot penetrate the surface of the grass because it is blocked by pine trees.

Caramel also stopped by the convection place that sewed all Caramel Sleepwear products to see the condition there after a long time not visiting it. But they say Jane or Rafka come occasionally. Caramel does not even realize that Rafka went to Bandung because she was too busy with herself and her grief.

"The mountain air is so good." Caramel spread her arms shut her eyes enjoying the wind blowing on her face. He took off his footwear feeling his padded grass which was a little wet from the dew this morning. Luckily the place is quiet so they can freely set up a tent there later.

"You likey?" Rafka smiled at herself looking at Caramel.

"I love it, don't want to go home." Caramel turned her gaze at Rafka with a big smile.

"You want to stay here?" Rafka embraces Caramel from the side.

"Died?" Caramel turned her head until it was very close to Rafka's face. "This is not our house." He shook his head nervously because he was this close to Rafka. They had been married for over a year but Caramel was still nervous about being stared at like that by Rafka.

"Hm?" Caramel blinked and raised his eyebrows, he was engrossed in observing the curve of the husband's face until he was not immediately aware of the speech. "Yes." Yeah."

They brought one tent that was not too big enough for the two of them. Because Rafka used to be a member of OSIS and had several camping times, he could set up a tent easily without confusion.

"Oh yes, I hope it doesn't rain." Caramel's gaze looked up at the overcast sky.

"We'll take another look in case it rains." Rafka held another pedestal in case it rains. Even if it rains, it will be more romantic.

"Udah laper yet?" Caramel took out the grill from the car, he brought the meat and sausages to roast later. Actually the main purpose here is to eat, when else he can eat on the grass with a view of the pine forest.

"Lumayan."

Rafka also held a pedestal in front of the tent and put a stove and grill on it.

"I want chicken." Caramel unfolded the chicken and beef wrappers eagerly impatiently wanting to eat them.

Rafka punctures the sausage before putting it on the grill to make it easier to eat it. He applied the seasoning on sausages and meat to give off the aroma of smoke that made their mouths full of saliva.

"We don't have to eat rice because I bring a lot of meat."

"You brought all the meat in the fridge?"

"Yes, I deliberately empty my stomach so I can eat a lot." Caramel patted her flat stomach as a result of a clinic treatment a few months ago. Surprisingly Caramel wants her stomach to immediately return bloated even though it interferes with her appearance.

The sky started to darken after they finished roasting the meat and eating it. They had finished a few packs of chicken, beef and sausage leaving a few sheets of lettuce.

The cold further pierced the skin as the sun slowly sank in the western horizon. The sound of tonggeret and crickets is unpretentious, reluctant to let the atmosphere quiet. A rare natural music sound in the middle of the city blends with the whirling wind and the drizzle of rain.

"Wear the blanket." Rafka comes carrying a small blanket and drapes it on Caramel's back who is sitting on the grass watching the sun slowly sink disappearing without a buoy.

"It turns out every second we pass is precious, we can't waste it." Caramel close the blanket to wrap her body wrapped in a jacket.

"I've been through every precious second with you, I've never let a second pass you by." Rafka prepares the child's hair Caramel behind the ear to cover the woman's beautiful face.

"Look at the sun slowly sinking until it really makes the sky dark I know that time is fast passing."

"It used to be our wedding venue, time has indeed passed by so quickly."

Caramel smiled bitterly, "marital, pregnant, having children now all of a sudden we're just the two again."

"This is your coffee." Rafka gave Caramel a glass of coffee that he had been holding until the coffee was not too hot.

"Thank you, yeah." Caramel inhales the delicious aroma of freshly brewed coffee. For Caramel coffee is magical because just by inhaling the aroma alone makes his mind become calm. Caramel took a sip of it slightly to feel the warmth from the coffee spreading throughout her body.

"We'll be here again, whether it's a year or two after the three of us or four."

Caramel nodded many times, he pressed against her neck which hurt from holding back the cries. He doesn't want to cry anymore and makes Rafka worried. Rafka had been driving for hours to bring Caramel to this beautiful place and Caramel was unwilling to mess up their event by crying.

"We'd better get in the tent, it's getting raining." Rafka pulls Caramel's hand to get into the tent. Rain stubs did not immediately hit the ground because they had to pass through lush pine leaves. But as the rain of rice rained down on the earth, they were no longer outside without wetness.

"If the water seeps from below, we can't sleep here." Caramel immediately entered the tent sitting cross-legged on the mat.

"May not be penetrating." Rafka pulls the tent zipper to close completely. "Do you like camping?" He sat facing Caramel.

Caramel shook her head, "dark." Said. "Especially in the past usually class brothers like to use horror stories, I don't have a beautiful impression of camp time, except for one thing."

"What's that?"

"When we got tenth grade there was a guy who took me and gave me a candle, he really contributed to my survival."

Rafka smiled, it was her.

"And miraculously he will be the most meritorious for the rest of my life after this." Caramel pulls Rafka's hand and grabs her.

With the dim light from the portable lamp in the corner of the Caramel tent can still see the handsome face of Rafka who always looks sincere and affectionate.