My husband is not the CEO

Eighty Four

"I want to get pregnant." Caramel had spoken the sentence many times but Rafka did not respond. "Papa, are you hearing me?" Caramel woke up from a sleeping position, she still wrapped her body in a blanket.

"No." Rafka answered briefly, picking up her clothes and Caramel on the floor and putting her in a special basket of dirty clothes. Rafka has changed clothes with T-shirts and shorts after bathing. Meanwhile Caramel was still lazily on the bed.

"You forgot the doctor said you could get pregnant after at least six months of the first cesarean section, it took a long time to heal." Rafka looked down to find something under the table and bed.

"I'm okay." Caramel remained in his stance.

"That's it, let's delay first." Rafka again moved to find the television remote under the bed, he did not know how it could be there.

"Rafka please." Caramel held Rafka's hand to turn on the television.

"That would be dangerous and very risky because your surgical wound that has not fully healed can be torn again." Rafka doesn't want anything bad to happen to Caramel after everything that's happened to him the last few months.

Caramel let go of Rafka's hand and pursed her mouth, "we just lost Arnesh, why don't you want us to have another child?"

Silent. No response from Rafka. Instead of not wanting to, Rafka just wants everything to be well prepared. Arnesh was pregnant and everything was in good shape but Caramel had to give birth early due to an accident. Especially now that Caramel's surgical wounds have not been able to be said to heal completely but she already wants to get pregnant again, Rafka considered many things before deciding on it.

"What if something bad happens to you?" Rafka stared intently at Caramel.

"There you are." Caramel replied after a few seconds of silence.

Rafka snorts, is he a doctor who can help Caramel give birth? he can only predict the weather.

"There you are, you can't tell me why." Caramel hasn't worried about anything since having Rafka in her life. Caramel seems to live without burden as long as Rafka is beside him.

"It's up to you." Rafka surrendered, from every debate Rafka will always succumb to comply with Caramel's request even though dangerous like this.

Rafka sat at the end of the bed turning on the television watching her favorite show.

Caramel smilingly crawled around holding Rafka from behind saying thanks for allowing her to get pregnant again.

"Aren't you in the shower?"

"Entar aja, you take a shower first I'm so lazy to go to the bathroom." Caramel is still sticking her head against Rafka's back. His body felt sticky after the battle with Rafka earlier until finally he fell asleep and just woke up during the day. When Caramel wakes up Rafka is done bathing.

"Thank you Pa, it's been a lot like me."

"Everything else I can do besides patiently waiting for you to accept all this, last night I just couldn't stand your attitude of thinking as if Arnesh was alive.'

"Let's go to Arnesh's grave."

Rafka twisted his body in surprise at Caramel's words, he looked at the wife holding his arm in disbelief.

"You ready?" Ask Rafka.

Although Caramel hid her sadness with a smile but Rafka could see Caramel's teary eyes.

"Don't force yourself, baby." Rafka rubbed Caramel's cheeks that were sticky from sweat.

"I have to get there, it's Arnesh's resting place for good."

"When you want we can go there."

"Even though Arnesh is not in this world, he will always be in our hearts."

Rafka nodded pulling Caramel into his arms, "thanks for being such a strong woman." He kissed the top of Caramel's head before breaking his arms.

"Mandi gih." Rafka tidied Caramel's messy hair.

"Please take my bathrobe dong."

"It's in the bathroom."

"Tempo?" Rafka frowned, why be ashamed, there is no one else here.

Caramel nodded.

"All right, wait a minute." Rafka goes to the bathroom to take a white bathrobe for Caramel. Of course at home it was only Caramel who wore a bathrobe while Rafka preferred to wear a regular towel.

While Caramel bathes, Rafka watches television which broadcasts the latest news from various regions in Indonesia. Rafka has also ordered Tom Yam from a Thai restaurant near here for lunch. They've drained enough energy that it takes a heavy meal to get them back.

Rafka went to hear the bell of the apartment clinking, without looking at the monitor screen Rafka already knew that it was a delivery courier.

"Please sir, the order is accepted." The courier in the green jacket handed Rafka a lunchbox.

"Thank you." Rafka again closes the door, lucky he has Caramel's wife who can teach him to order food online. Otherwise, maybe Rafka lives far behind civilization.

Rafka moved Tom Yam into the bowl, the aroma of spices, seafood and mushrooms immediately smelled from the steaming smoke. Not only that Rafka also ordered mango salad as an appetizer.

"Hmm it smells so good."

Rafka turned around to hear Caramel's voice, "nonsense?" He was surprised to see Caramel had finished bathing and changed clothes with a big t-shirt up to the thigh.

"Yes the custom of time is still Arnesh so hurry to shower." Caramel grinned, when the shower was automatically do it quickly because he was used to it when Arnesh. Even Caramel has always missed a soaking session and is used to it until now. "What did you buy?"

"Tom Yam, you said you wanted to eat Thai food."

"Thailand tastes a lot." Caramel sat on one of the dining table chairs.

"It's only Tom Yam I know, if I don't want to I'll order something else." Rafka sat down next to Caramel.

Caramel shook his head laughing, "you're so serious I'm just kidding."

Rafka takes the rice for Caramel and himself. He doesn't like Caramel's jokes like that.

"Thank you, yeah." Caramel kissed Rafka's cheek because she saw her husband's face pouting at her joke. "Come to Arnesh's grave after eating."

Rafka was silent for a while before replying to Caramel, "are you ready?"

Caramel nodded, "I should be ready maybe Arnesh wait for me to come, I'm his mom I should have come over a little bit more."

"Arnesh must have understood his mother's feelings." Rafka grabbed Caramel's hand and held it.

Caramel biting her lips held back a cry, she shouldn't have cried at a time like this. He chewed the rice with warm sauce Tom Yam while looking down deeply so that Rafka did not know that he was holding his cry with all his might.

*******

That afternoon a dark cloudy sky darkened over the burial area, a cold wind pierced the skin as if to add to the atmosphere of grief.

Caramel looked at a navel full of roses that had withered and dried up. He's been trying hard since he was on his way from the apartment here. But after seeing Arnesh's name written on the tombstone, Caramel's kink collapsed as well. He never imagined the name given to their firstborn would eventually be written on a tombstone.

"Hello baby, Mama came, sorry Mama's late looking at you." Caramel sat curled up and rubbed the tombstone as if it were Arnesh's head. "Mama hope you sleep quietly there."

Rafka took a seat rubbing Caramel's back to strengthen her. He himself has been here several times after returning from work, but the feeling is always the same. Coming often does not mean making Rafka stronger.

"Mama is very sad you go baby, Mama has not brought you to play on the beach wearing sunglasses that Mama bought at that time." Caramel's voice trembled, her cries unstoppable, "that morning you sleep on and on and you don't wake up again, you sleep well."

Caramel rubbed her wet cheeks with the back of her hand, but instead of dry her cheeks got wetter from heavier tears.

"Ma," Rafka pulled Caramel against her shoulder, "already yes." He took the wife lovingly.

They recite prayers for Arnesh and sow roses over Arnesh's tomb to the invisible ground. Caramel again rubbed Arnesh's tombstone before they left.

Caramel believes in the rain this storm stored a beautiful rainbow for him and Rafka. He believes the weather will not be forever cloudy, one day their lives will be illuminated again with happiness.