My husband is not the CEO

Thirty Nine

His gaze was still the same as 4 years ago—ful of love as if that gaze was just that he gave me, nothing else. I used to adore the look in her eyes but now that I feel sick, hearing her name alone makes me want to vomit. If I had been honest until now I could not believe that we had spent 8 years together but he so easily betrayed me. Then is our togetherness that cannot be called for a moment meaningless? if it was because of lust, would he not be able to hold it back any minute until that wedding day?

It's not that I'm still in love, it's just that this heart can't accept that betrayal even now. Even though he had uttered various excuses with thousands of apologies from his mouth, I still could not accept them all.

If he is not loyal, why would he want to live this relationship for up to 8 years? if he doesn't love me, why now is his gaze still the same as it used to be.

"According to Bu Adena's description, he did that out of emotion for a moment without any intention of brandishing scissors to Bu Caramel before."

I grieved at the police's words, if without intention then it can be forgiven just like that? if so then all the suspects of the crime could use the excuse of no prior intention to defend themselves.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." Adena looked down deeply, from earlier she was reluctant to see me for a moment. He does look sorry but I still can not forget the incident where Adena brandished scissors to me, if there is no Rafka I must have been exhausted by it.

"If you choose the path of peace, we'll settle the case until here but if Ms. Caramel can't forgive Ms. Adena then we'll pass it all the way to the green table." Obviously the cop again.

"I can't forgive him." My words with a tone made as flat as possible tried to hide the turbulent emotions inside the chest.

It's been a week since it happened, but I can't forget it even I have trouble sleeping. If I were not pregnant, I would have consumed a lot of sleeping pills so as not to be tormented at night.

"Caramel, you if so I would have done the same thing, when your husband every day looking at photos of other women, the attention is just as you are lost, even he says he wants to fight you again, he said, try if you're me how you feel." Adena cussed at me, her eyes reddened with tears breaking.

I clenched my hands and got up from my seat, "try if you're who I am!" I half screamed in front of her face, "when your husband-to-be who almost married you, just waited a few days but he didn't know where, instead, try to imagine how I suffered at that time, you can think of it?" My emotions bursting unstoppable.

"I had to heal myself all those years ago after I forgot everything and got married, I just found out that she's pregnant with another girl!" I pointed at Rama who was sitting next to Adena, I looked at her hatefully. Regret gnawed at my heart for having wasted such a long time with her.

"How." Rafka grabbed my hand, grabbed it and asked me to sit back.

Adena was silent with a pushy look, my vision a little blurred because of the tears that pooled in my eyes. Adena lunglai couldn't answer my lines.

I saw that Rama was also silent, with no intention of answering my words. He just looked down with a pale face. Obviously he was the most guilty but as a man he showed absolutely no traits that a man should have. You wimps!

"I'm sorry, sir, it looks like we can't go on today, I'll call you about how we want this case to be." Rafka said calmly, embracing my shoulder, "excuse me."

"Please." The police who had asked questions and answered with us let me and Rafka out.

Arriving outside I cried bitterly, I could not bear it anymore, I was strong enough while I was in there. It's okay today melow important tomorrow—lusa and after I can be happy, melow it's not Caramel's nature.

"Sshhh calm yourself down." Rafka patted me on the back, resting my head on his chest that field— not only outside but he really had a spacious chest because he could accept me as sincerely as his heart, waiting for me for so many years. After the tremendous trauma of love, with my selfish nature,—Rafka still accepts me with joy.

"Cry today, but tomorrow no, you must be happy, I will make you happy Cara." Rafka said softly, I cried inexplicably. Since I was pregnant, I have been crying easily when I used to be the most anti-crying.

"Caramel, I'm sorry for making you suffer all this time."

Rama's voice surprised me, I spontaneously raised my face from Rafka's chest, I saw Rama kneeling near me—right in front of the door.

"How, I know a thousand times I'm sorry, it won't fix everything but I'm sorry for me." He was about to grab my hand but Rafka quickly brushed it off.

"Lu's crazy?" I narrowed my eyes looking at him who was already like he was losing his mind, kneeling in a public place.

I snorted, that sentence really wanted to make me vomit, I wanted to vomit in front of his innocent face.

"Wake up!" I took a step forward—pulling his collar to get Rama up.

"I'm sorry Car, I'm sorry." He said with red eyes.

"Purely!" I landed a hard slap on her cheek to leave a red mark there, even my palm was in so much pain. "Gue was so disgusted with Lu Ram, Lu said I wanted to marry you but Lu got pregnant with Adena, and after all these years you guys still say love is the same to me?" I laughed mockingly even with a face full of tears.

"Because you're married to Adena, you have to take full responsibility for her, love her, I used to be very sad when you lost but now—" I tidied the hair blocking my face before continuing the sentence, "I feel like I'm the luckiest girl because God is so good, he doesn't let me marry a guy like you!"

"Let's go." I twisted Rafka's hand so we could get out of this.

Now I feel relieved to have taken out all the words I wanted to say all this time. Finally I can have a chance to curse Rama after a long time of suffering. Although the curse cannot fix the situation but at least I can make Rama hurt with my words, it is nothing compared to the pain I have felt so far.

"We can move to the official house if you want to move." Rafka.

"I like that apartment." I looked down, watching my own footsteps. I'm confused, honestly there's nothing I don't like about the apartment, if my neighbor is not Rama I'm more calm to live there.

"I know." Rafka put her shoulder back together and rubbed it for a while, "i'll do whatever you want."

"Thank You Ka." I grabbed Rafka's hand and held her. I can't say anything more than thank you. Rafka always manages to treat my wounds, he's like hansap—I mean plaster. I will not mention the brand because I am not endorsed by hansapl*st. Canda uh.

Now that I'm confused about having to call Rafka a robot or a plaster, he used to be stiff but the more I know him I know the other side of Rafka. He was really warm, his actions were simple but it managed to make me fall in love again and again. Rafka doesn't talk much but he can solve the problem in an instant. My robot has evolved into plaster.

"The caramel!"

We stopped the steps of hearing the voice of the woman calling me, I spontaneously turned my head and found Adena running towards me. I thought I'd finished our debate inside, but why is Adena still after me. Is he really going to kill me this time? I was scared but had to be brave in front of Adena, I didn't want to look weak.

I took off my grip on Rafka's arm and took a step forward when Adena was close. But with an unexpected movement Rafka positioned himself right in front of me, he hid me behind his back.

"I think it's all over, there's nothing we need to talk about anymore." Rafka said in a cold tone.

"I'm sorry for me."

I glanced, why now that Adena is on her knees, she doesn't have to do this just to get my sympathy. I am not a person who has no empathy.

"Caramel, if I'm in jail later what about Ara, I don't care if you hate me or Rama but I'm sorry I, Ara is still a child and needs her affection, Mama, maybe you won't understand because you don't have children yet but Ara really needs the figure of her Mama, I don't want Ara to have a Mama of a prisoner."

I closed my eyes unable to see Adena who was crying. Imagining the adorable figure of Ara makes me not have the heart if until he is sad. Ara doesn't know anything, she's just an innocent child.

"I want to go home." My whine to Rafka, I can no longer hold out any longer seeing how melow Adena is right now.

"Stand up." Pinta Rafka on Adena before she pulled me out of the corridor.