My husband is not the CEO

The Seventy Nine

Caramel smeared shaving cream on Rafka's chin and upper lip before she shaved off her husband's bushy mustache and beard. Caramel just shaved it a few days ago. But the hair on Rafka's face grew back quickly.

After marriage, shaving Rafka's mustache was a pleasure Caramel could not get while still alone. Caramel is happy to do it even though Rafka always puts on a fearful expression when he does. Rafka fears Caramel is too excited to hurt her skin. But as long as Caramel did, it had never happened. Haven't.

"Ouch!" Rafka complained of feeling pain on her chin.

"Eh sorry-sorry!" Caramel swerved, he wrongly moved the razor to the side so that it scratched Rafka's skin. "I'm sorry, Pa."

"It's okay." Rafka lowered her head to clean the rest of the shaving cream on her chin as well as look at the wound. "A little bit." Said.

"I'll get the plaster first." Caramel comes out of the bathroom to pick up the plaster, looking at Arnesh on the bed to make sure the baby is still sleeping. Caramel regrets having scratched her handsome husband's face.

"Yes right?" Caramel blew a scratch on Rafka's chin while plastering the wound.

"No."

Rafka's answer made Caramel feel more guilty. Surely the answer was only to calm Caramel, he knew razor strokes even though they would be a little painful.

"I'm not gonna shave your moustache anymore." Caramel finished dressing Rafka's wounds with plaster, if he did it again maybe he would not only scratch Rafka's face once and he did not want it to happen.

Rafka nodded, he could calm down if Caramel didn't shave his mustache again. Because Rafka's fear finally happened, he did not believe in Caramel. Rafka can let Caramel do anything to him but he is horrified whenever his wife shaves off his mustache and beard. It turns out that something like this is going to happen, maybe that's why Rafka is scared.

"I'll take a shower first." Tukas Rafka to get Caramel out of the bathroom.

"Yes already." Caramel nodded stiffly.

"Would you take a shower together?" Rafka took a step forward about to hold Caramel's hand but the woman reflexively retreated.

"No, no." Caramel hurriedly turned around, exited the bathroom and closed the door again. If Caramel agrees, he will not be able to get out of Rafka's entanglement.

As soon as Caramel's attention was immediately fixed on the bed, Arnesh opened his eyes with active kicking legs as well as a pair of tiny hands.

"Mommy's son is awake, baby." Caramel nodded her head putting on a wide smile that rubbed off on Arnesh. Arnesh was about to cry but after seeing Caramel, he laughed.

"You're carrying, yuk." Caramel lifts Arnesh's body, taking him to the balcony of the room to feel the fresh air and morning sunlight.

Arnesh blinked when the sunlight hit his face, his eyes were not ready to adjust from the dim light of the room.

"I think Mama should buy you sunglasses yes, so we can wear sunbathing time." Caramel reached into his pajama pocket to pick up a cell phone. He opened an e-commerce store to look for sunglasses for children.

Since returning to Jakarta, Caramel so often shopping needs Arnesh through e-commerce, Arnesh, starting from an unimportant thing such as a baby bather or baby seat while bathing but it turns out Caramel can bathe itself without the tool, until now the baby bather was never used. In addition, Caramel bought many teether with various forms for Arnesh later when they want to grow teeth.

Caramel doesn't know if all the first women to become mothers will be like her, she even bought a baby food maker. Several times Caramel learned to make MPASI even though Arnesh was 3 months old. Caramel thinks he'll get used to it if he learns from now on.

"Papa, I've got his shirt on my chair." Caramel slightly tilted her head hearing Rafka open the bathroom door.

"Thank you Ma." Said Rafka stepping into the walk in closet to change clothes.

Rafka was ready to wear black material pants combined with mega batik cloudy Caramel choice. Caramel always had time to prepare clothes for Rafka. Caramel has memorized the days where Rafka had to wear a uniform or batik with free motifs.

The more time goes by Caramel the better to carry out his role as a wife and mother. Caramel is no longer selfish and thinks more about Rafka's feelings so they give up on each other. Especially since their great fight a while ago.

"Want breakfast?" Rafka follows Caramel to the balcony.

"No, you eat first." Caramel looks at Rafka for a moment before returning to a flat object in her hand. After finishing ordering sunglasses for Arnesh, Caramel placed the phone on a small table behind him.

Without saying anything Rafka left the balcony, exiting the room to the dining room.

"Look yes." Caramel protected Arnesh's face with her hands until the boy could open his eyes completely. "Mama's son is so funny." Caramel kissed Arnesh's face was anxious, let alone looking at Arnesh's chubby cheeks that were flushed when crying or exposed to the sun.

"Pity because you already look like Mama, but Mama sure after the big you will be handsome like Papa, hopefully you are also loyal, Papa was from the first love with Mama aja."

"Let's eat together." Rafka appears carrying a plate of rice, fried fish and a bowl of asem vegetables made by Caramel.

Caramel was flabbergasted, although this was not the first time Rafka had brought him food but he thought Rafka would eat alone this time because she had to go to work.

"It's gonna be too late for you." Caramel was sitting in a long chair as Rafka placed the vegetables on the table.

"It won't be too late." Rafka said to calm Caramel, he had calculated the time correctly. "Arnesh, would you like to eat too?" Rafka touches Arnesh's cheek and kisses him, inhaling the baby's refreshing scent.

"Arnesh eats asem vegetables later with Papa ya." Caramel opened her mouth welcoming Rafka's feed. The combination of rice, asem vegetables and fried fish so spoil the tongue. The combination of squash, long beans, melinjo leaves and corn is very delicious with sour sauce, savory and spicy. Caramel became infected with Rafka who never bored with asem vegetables. Right said Danu, at home and in the restaurant Rafka keep eating vegetables.

"Look at Arnesh sticking out his tongue." Rafka laughed, Arnesh sticking out his tongue as he watched him eat.

"Arnesh drinks milk." Caramel breastfed Arnesh before the child cried.

"Today's weather will be sunny." Rafka's view glared into the blue sky with a hint of clouds.

"It's been raining for a few days now, finally taking Arnesh out for sunbathing, I've been packing glasses for him." Caramel can't wait to wear Arnesh sunglasses, later he will also take Arnesh to the beach with the glasses.

"Oh yeah you don't have me ready yet, or do you want to eat out?" Caramel saw Rafka, he did not want to be considered stingy by always bringing Rafka stock. Although Rafka prefers home cooking but Caramel thinks maybe occasionally the husband needs to eat outside so as not to get bored.

"No, you've cooked, I'll prepare the provisions." Rafka left after their plate was empty slippery, as well as a small bowl that was full of vegetables. Now Caramel is getting better at cooking so Rafka more comfortable eating home food.

Caramel escorts Rafka to the front door with Arnesh still in his carrier. Now not only Caramel who gets a kiss from Rafka, Arnesh can even many times more. Who can bear not to kiss Arnesh's puffed and scented cheeks. Despite just waking up, the scent of powder still stuck in Arnesh's skin mixed with the baby's natural scent.

"Papa work first." Rafka kisses Arnesh once againa small—si which is always a reason for Rafka to come home fast.

"Be careful Papa." Caramel on tiptoes kissed Rafka's lips briefly.

"If there's any phone." Rafka said before waving his hands out of the apartment.

Caramel closed the door again after Rafka swerved into the elevator.

Caramel's gaze swept across the entire room which was quite a mess. Although they only lived three but the room was always a mess. Several times Rafka asked Caramel's opinion to find people who could help clean up the house. But Caramel is not comfortable if there are strangers in his house.

After filling the bath with warm water, Caramel immediately plunged Arnesh's stocky body into it. As soon as he touched the water, Arnesh laughed happily, his gaze twinkling at Caramel. Arnesh never cried in the shower.

"That's really good for this." Caramel inhales in the scent of soap that she wipes throughout Arnesh's body.

Caramel wears a white Arnesh jumper and grey rabbit-pictured socks. Arnesh's face was sad because Caramel did not hold him immediately, he kicked folding his lower lip.

"Patience, Mama comb Arnesh's hair first yeah baby." Caramel took a comb tidying up Arnesh's hair that had grown bushy since infancy. She also wears a special baby hair oil for Arnesh.

"Yuk's a sling." Caramel lifted Arnesh's body and gave a kiss many times even biting him slowly because of anxiety. He breastfeeds Arnesh so that the little one can go to sleep immediately after bathing.

It did not take long for Arnesh to sleep, Caramel put the baby slowly in the bag of bed. Caramel lies on her head with one hand facing Arnesh. An activity that is never boring for Caramel is to look at Arnesh while sleeping. Arnesh' plain face made Caramel feel calm just by looking at him.

"Why are you so sorry?" Caramel stroked Arnesh's head and occasionally kissed him.

Caramel was about to wash dishes and hang clothes that had just been dried in the washing machine. Eventually, he dropped his head on the pillow. Caramel was also sleepy from staying up last night because Arnesh was fussy. Fortunately, Arnesh was able to calm down this morning.

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The digital clock above the nightstand shows 10 o'clock when the sun is getting stinging. The weather forecast Rafka said almost never missed. Utilizing advanced technology and in-depth analysis of weather forecasts that are difficult to predict lately can begin to be overcome.

Caramel awoke from her slumber, shocked to see a wall clock showing almost noon. Why didn't Arnesh wake up and cry at all? inner Caramel. Usually Arnesh will wake up after an hour or two of sleep to drink ASI. Maybe because Arnesh did not sleep last night, this morning he slept very long.

"Well, sleep is dear." Caramel kisses Arnesh's cheek to wake him up. "Wake up uh." His word.

Caramel wakes up from a sleeping position sitting cross-legged still on the bed. He opened his eyes to see Arnesh's pale face as usual. Arnesh's lips are also tightly closed when usually his mouth is slightly open during sleep.

"Arnesh." Caramel slightly shook Arnesh's body. Caramel's face pias because Arnesh is not wrinkled.

Caramel leaned her body to feel Arnesh's breath. There aren't. Caramel threw away all the bad thoughts that suddenly filled her brain.

Caramel opened Arnesh's mouth giving relief from breathing, "one .. two ... " He counted one to fifteen compressions on Arnesh's chest after providing relief from breathing. His chest was pounding with his body shaking violently, why was there no response?

"Goldie!" Caramel shouted, he got out of bed because his CPR actions did not produce anything. He grabs the car keys and the cell phone takes Arnesh out.

"Hello ... Pa." Caramel's trembling voice barely came out.

"What's with your voice?" Rafka's voice immediately replied across there.

"Arnesh .. no motion." Caramel almost dropped her phone when she pressed the button on the elevator, limp in the eyes of Arnesh tightly closed.

"What do you mean?"

Caramel was unable to answer Rafka's question, and ran as soon as the elevator door opened. Some people saw Caramel running out of the lobby, they wondered what made the woman so rushed.

"I'm on the way to the hospital." Caramel dropped his phone somewhere, he stepped on the gas driving the car at high speed. Caramel's destination is RSIA Bunda which is only 2 kilometers from her apartment.

Caramel's gaze was misty, he blinked once to escape the tears that had previously been pooled in his eye peluk. Caramel looked back for a moment, looking at Arnesh on the carseat hoping to hear the cry of the baby.

Caramel runs out of the car, hugging Arnesh's body tightly. Caramel can still feel a bit of warmth from the little one's body. Arnesh must have been sleeping too long. So thought Caramel.

"Doctor help my son!" Caramel yells when he arrives in the ER, some nurses who are there immediately take over Arnesh move him to bed.

A female doctor examined Arnesh's condition, her flat facial expression implying there was no hope for Caramel anymore. Just looking at it he knew that Arnesh was no more. He did the test to encourage Caramel. The doctor examined both Arnesh's eyes with a small flashlight and a pulse below the neck and wrists. The doctor looked at one of the nurses and shook his head faintly.

"Ma!"

Caramel turned to the source of the voice, looking like Rafka was running towards him.

"Arnesh why?" Rafka's breath was panting, as soon as he got a call from Caramel, he immediately let out of the office. Without Caramel telling, Rafka could have guessed that this hospital that Caramel went to because it was located closest to the apartment.

"Pa, Arnesh's bath was sleeping, I also overslept beside her, but once I woke up, she .... " Caramel couldn't continue his sentence, it just happened without Caramel guessing. If he could turn back time, Caramel wouldn't sleep, he would keep watching Arnesh.

"Shhh." Rafka hugs Caramel trying to calm him even though he is also panicked and afraid of not being careless. Rafka believes Arnesh will be as fine as he was when he left for work this morning.

They break down a hug hearing the ER door open and a doctor dealing with Arnesh gets out of there.

"Doctor, how's our son?" Rafka immediately asked about Arnesh's situation.

The short-haired female doctor slowly walked over to Caramel and Rafka. His eyes were reddened with tears, this was one of the toughest things for a doctor when he was about to say that his patient could not be saved. He saw so much hope in their eyes. Before saying a word, a doctor's heart was already broken let alone seeing the patient's family grief, it was really painful.

The doctor took a deep breath before issuing a sentence, "when he got here, the baby's father and mother were gone, although we can feel her skin a little warm it's because she died not long ago about 15 minutes ago."

Hearing that Rafka's body immediately suffocated like losing the bones that supported him.

"Doctor, he's just sleeping, I'm sure Arnesh will wake up soon and ask for milk." Caramel releases Rafka's hand that holds her. "Where can the doctor say my son is not there, Arnesh is not sick, he is healthy, a few hours ago I still nyusuin him." Caramel shook her head fiercely staring at the doctor before her, tears raining down her cheeks without permission on a very bright day.

"The Son of the Father and Mother may experience sudden infant death syndrome, which is a sudden death in infants during sleep, SIDS cases are rare, the cause is also uncertain.

"Rafka you know Arnesh well, he's healthy!" Caramel shook Rafka's arm standing stiffly with a blank look.

"Caramel—"

Before Rafka finishes her sentence Caramel breaks in past the doctor, she wants to make sure herself that Arnesh is just sleeping like the doctor said. Caramel's cry broke immediately seeing the pale face of the baby, no more reddish cheeks and active kicks.

No-no, this is impossible. Arnesh was still laughing and responded to Caramel's words during the shower earlier.

Arnesh's face was soaked by Caramel's tears that he was hugging her and even kissing her many times. Caramel hopes Arnesh moves, cries or whatever it is not like this.

Why didn't Arnesh give any signs? why isn't she sick, why won't she let me take care of her longer? it felt like a dream, everything happened all of a sudden even Caramel did not know if this was real or a nightmare when he slept this morning.

Why did Arnesh leave me so soon? why Arnesh? why should I? I conceived her for 7 months, gave birth to her with great difficulty after being tossed about in the ocean. Why is the world so cruel to me? why is all bad luck on me, why doesn't God share it with others?