My House Destroyer

You're still my wife

Pantulan Mentari dusk in the afternoon Falling On the foliage of the light penetrating right above Hijabku.Spart of its dazzling rays can make me realize From my daydream.me who realized Tadi is still in the Car is still not budging In the parking area Hospitals.

Since a few hours ago My working hours Time has ended, I can only look up and think of What I Can do after this.

there is little concern and doubt to end this household tempest.

Is it true that the path I choose will not be the wrong one?will it all end happily if we truly part?then what about the two Anaku, Syakila and Saga.Are they able to accept with sincerity, Are They later Shaken his soul accept the reality if their two parents can not Live together again.

After a long silence in the car, I input the car key and start the engine, the engine,

sliding towards the Father's House, because for a few days I did decide to stay at his house.

But suddenly came the thought terbesit About My House was the House where we built a happy household until finally it ended with full of suffering.so unconsciously I immediately drove my car to the House Mas Adrian.

Arriving there, I opened the Gate of the House after I got out of the car and left it in front of the Gate, while I began to enter the house by walking slowly land.

I found the House a little Neat and not messy like yesterday although the floor is a bit less shiny.Some furniture is also seen after Lap and not dusty.

I followed the Exit Room and the Living Room, then Toward the Kitchen, and I found there Zahra to wash the Dishes, no laundry Plate that was as mountainous as before,or some used Cartoon Paper Stacks that build up from the purchase of leftovers Online.

Zahra seemed surprised when she turned her body and found myself standing behind her.lantas she immediately hurriedly fix herself and immediately wash her hands.

" Mr moon, since from when mbak already at home mbak.?" he asked her with a nervous face.

" Just now, are you clean?" much

" I yes mbak, I feel I'm ashamed of myself if I continue to leave the House in a dirty state like this." he replied Fearful of fear while bowing his head

" Yes good then.you can continue again, I came here just want to take some of my clothes and the children who are still left here." I said casually as I walked out of the kitchen and put my feet into my Son's Second Room which some time ago I accidentally put all my clothes on the floor belonging to Syakyla and Saga

Zahra was more and more surprised to hear my words, and then she quickly caught up with me.

" Mother moon don't go mbak." When he got in front of me, he tried to hold me back

" Zahra, listen to me...." I took a breath and then stared at him for a moment." The human heart will not be able to tend to like Two things at the same time.at least there is one that beats the other and becomes the main priority." I said wisely." And it turns out I was the loser, and you're the one now that's my husband's top priority, it's not your fault or mine, but a choice from Mas Adrian."

" I know I realize that I'm wrong here, I think we can later coexist in togetherness" he replied softly

I Take a deep breath to suppress my Emotions so as not to Peak, then I grabbed a few strands of my clothes and Also the Second Clothes of Anaku and I put them in the big enough Bag I brought earlier.

" You Know Zahra, I was so mad at you before, but after I thought my anger at you would mean nothing, and change things, so I finally decided to let go of everything." I'm holding back the claustrophobic in my chest

"But Mbak will be hurt if you choose like this mbak." His face looks very angry

" Defend like holding Bara, Zahra.kembutannku slowly Faded because every Must wrestle with Anger that continues to bind my soul if You Have to Deal with You and Mas Adrian, too,it's all for nothing because I'm kept in the loop By feeling jealous of the closeness of you two Zahra, my worship feels like Sia was in vain because it keeps thinking about Adrian and you while together full of wasp." I said with a hold on my puddle that started to condense while Zahra looked at me with a face waving to her

" Mom,---"

" At least if I choose to retreat then I can be free from the negativity of thinking about you, and you two can live freely."

" I'm sorry, because I'm honestly in love with Mas Adrian first, so As a result of my actions married him make your relationship become tenuous,maybe here I'm too naive to like and then want to have without thinking about risk." Say

She looks like she's grazing her tears and looking back at me." Abi spoiled me too much from my childhood and always gave me a million comforts, whatever I asked him to fulfill, so he forgot behind my desires, there are other People's interests to sacrifice." he said again that began to share his life story as a Princess of a respected

" Being the only Princess in her family whose Notabennya distinguished family made me grow into a spoiled girl, and Whatever my wishes must be fulfilled mbak." He covered his face with his palm as he pleased then brought himself closer to the side of the Bed Edge.

" Honestly I feel unhappy mbak if Finally Must be like this mbak,mbak moon Must Get Out of the House just because for my sake mbak, I'm really sorry." The connection again whether it's a sincere speech or just because I can't read someone's mind

" It's not like this is the end of the Household I've been dreaming of.The end of the pieces of heaven that we put together and we built together now has to disappear in an instant,but let it be that all this has become my destiny and not my sustenance, and I do not want to let go and try to mengkililaskan although the reality is very difficult for me, but I will keep trying." I said with a smile

" I go first huh Zahra, just in case Mas Adrian is good." I said with a bitter heart and a painful feeling said it

" Ouiya one more, Adrian's gold should not be late to eat yes, he is indeed a little spoiled and never take care of his own needs, everything is prepared starting from breakfast, provisions for him and his clothes, he said,since he's not used to setting it up himself, even if it can be messy and messy, and he's late for work, please help him." I told my Husband's habits to his new Wife in his daily life

Zahra's tears instantly melted as our eyes met, as much as I could hold back my tears and try hard before her

after that I took my foot out of my son's room and wanted to leave this house immediately.but just wanted to get out of the door of the House, and,suddenly came the sturdy hand of Belik Mas Adrian blocking my arm to make my step stop.

I took off her hand slowly, blocked my arm, and smiled at her,

" I'm still your wife until the judge declares we're separated."

" I still don't want to divorce you Moon." Rebuttals

"I gave up so I could Focus on taking care of Zahra, don't worry about me. I can take care of myself." My answer is no doubt

" But I need you the moon." He replied firmly while squeezing my finger

" I'm sorry but I can't, thank you for sharing so much time with me." I said with a bitter heart

" Till any time I'll never let go of you moon." He immediately pulled me into his arms and held me tightly

" I promise to do whatever you ask the moon to do, please don't leave me." Mas Adrian's tears dripped in the corners of his eyes

"Don't Say like That Mas, what I want will never go according to what you want one of the best ways for us is just a divorce and I just don't burden you too much and trouble you." my answer is still in my husband's arms

"You're really the Moon's good wife." His face with a trembling voice restrained his sobs

" I'm sure a Good Woman must be for a good man mas, and vice versa mas, if indeed by this way our marriage ends,maybe we're just as unworthy of each other." I said softly trying to hold the tightness of the chest

" I'm the one who never bothered to be with you, I'm the wrong month." He muttered with his heavy voice

" It's already been." I patted his back giving it a calmness." Enough already This drama of blaming each other just take the silver lining, let us rise and organize our lives." Say again

He let me out of his arms, long at me fixedly, while gently stroking my cheek, made me feel a strange feeling of greatness, perhaps Love for him still remains, but Pain is more dominant in my Heart and mind

" Without You What Means Meself the Moon" he said full of regret while rubbing his face rough

" Don't say as if you underestimate the presence of Zahra mas, She's also the woman you're married to, which means you have to still respect your wife whatever she is."

" Astagfirullah o Allah, why should everything end like this." his sigh was full of regret, his body Slumped in the floor with random hair was a sign of his frustration

whereas I was only able to close my eyes for a moment, it was honestly Pain once I accepted this reality, To be parted with the same feeling of being left behind,but I still do not waver I will stick to my stance.maybe this is the only way for us not to hurt each other.

I set my feet to leave our Dream House with a Million Memories Within Seven Years Wading the Ark of Our House.May God always give the best for us.

****

Right now I'm sitting in the living room with my Mom and Dad, while Kyla and Saga are busy watching TV in the living room

" Did you decide to ask for your husband's divorce be unanimous.?" Ask the father interrupted sipping a cup of coffee in his hand, then put back on the table

I cleared my throat for a while before I finally began to express my intentions to my father and mother.

" Yes sir, by the time the moon is round." My answer is full of conviction

" Then my grandson must be given understanding." Reveal it with a heavy tone while the mother continues to examine the Father's shoulder

" Sebiaa may be giving understanding to them later in the month sir." Answer me

" Then you yourself Are you ready with your new status later, as well as the new responsibility of bearing As a Single Parent in caring for your two Children?ready also how will society judge you as a widow.?" You asked me a question

" Sign up Mr. ,Moon is ready.although there is still a little Fear.but bismillah only Moon sure it will be able to pass it sir." Say it steadily

he breathed a rough breath." Actually I want you to think again by using a cold head and not rush emotions, if you can be sincere then the reward and heaven for you nduk.but if indeed you are not able to, if indeed you are not able to,father and mother can only pray the best for you nduk." said the father

"Insyallah Moon has been steady to remain parted with mas Adrian sir, please Restui desire Moon so that the moon is not wrong in stepping."My words are full of confidence

Mom and Dad looked at each other for a moment and nodded their heads, I returned a smile to them both

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