My Endorphine 1: The Path of Love

Luhan Special Chapter

Sava has returned to Indonesia.

He's back to me! Back by my side.

I can touch her. I could touch his skin. I can hold his hand. I can stroke her hair. He was so real in front of me. It's not like the pseudo-shadows I miss every day.

I am thankful to God. In a universe that has accepted every groan of my prayer. I thought I'd never be able to have it, never to see it again. But God really loves me, He found me with him again. With the woman I love so much.

Ahira Sava's.

My childhood friend.

The one I have liked since childhood. My love for him has been a long time. I felt the vibration of a unique connection with her. He was always different from the others.

Now...

Now he has me. His heart and my heart have the same taste. We explained all our misunderstandings with our eyes. Our souls seem to understand each other even though there is no explanation from our mouths. I could feel it when I first kissed her lips.

I understand all his wounds. Her tears were proof of how she had suffered all this time. I also suffer because of it.

Now everything has paid off beautifully. All my waiting, all my prayers, all my hopes. All has been answered, fulfilled with the hope I dreamed of.

I WILL TAKE CARE OF HIM WITH ALL MY SOUL AND MY BODY!

I WILL TAKE CARE OF THIS LOVE!

A LOVE THAT WAS DELAYED FOR SO LONG.

I WILL ALWAYS KEEP IT! I WILL PROTECT HER FEELINGS AND SMILE!

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I still hug him at this moment. He has no problem with my actions. She didn't reject me when I held her for so long, so tightly. She'll probably be short of breath considering how I hugged her. But he hugged me tightly too.

Ahh. She hiccups in my arms.

I still shed tears because I was happy.

Yes, the happy tears we produced tonight.

"Han. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.."

The same word he always mumbled. It had been dozens or even hundreds of times that word had come out from his thin lips.

"I LOVE YOU MORE, VA.."

That's all I can say to answer it. Blank's mind. I really don't think about anything right now. There's another side that says if Sava is with me tonight is just a DREAM.

If it really was just a dream, then I really don't want to wake up at this time.

I want to be with Sava!

I held both of his arms. Pushing and holding him so he looked at me properly.

His eyes. Her tears flowed so much between her two cheeks. I could even feel my clothes getting wet from tears from her.

Sava is beautiful.

That face is grown. To me, Sava is much prettier than it used to be. Her cheeks are no longer cubby. More tyrannical. Although the thin makeup is messy because of crying, but does not reduce the slightest bit of beauty.

I kissed her lips again.

I want to make sure.

SAVA IS REAL IN FRONT OF ME!

I kissed her longer than I did first.

I'm very happy. This is the happiest moment of my life. My dream of kissing her had already come true despite having to wait for so long.

Am I a pervert?

I even had that desire for her.

Sava, I'm sorry.

I shouldn't have this kind of thinking to you.

But.. I really want to have everything in you..

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You know Sava..

In every day of my life, when we were in school, I always looked at you with a look of desire.

Even when you're not in front of me, I still think of you. Looking at your photos on our memories albums, in my laptop's secret folder, even on my phone. I take a lot of pictures of you secretly.

If you say I'm a terrible stalker, I won't deny it. Because it's a fact.

Thousands of pictures of you filled my storage room, Va..

I'm crazy about you.

The kiss of my lips to you was MY FIRST KISS!

I really took care of him for you. And. I've got it. Do you know how happy I am?

VERY HAPPY!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. I HAVE NO OTHER VOCABULARY OTHER THAN HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!!!

And because I'm so happy, I want to be open.

I want to be honest about my past in school.

This is my honest confession.

Next to me who always sees you, I also once kissed you when the school was quiet.

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Not on the lips, on the forehead a little to the edge of the hair border with the eel.

He was sleeping in class alone. I went in and saw him so soundly while asleep.

Sava snoring softly.

He looks peaceful.

Fall asleep holding a pen.

Funnier.

He studied too hard for his scholarship. He is indeed amazing. I admire him who is very independent.

I stroked the strands of her hair that covered her cheeks. When I felt my race towards her unbearable, I also gave a brief peck on her forehead.

I wanted to encourage her at that moment through my feelings for her.

Sorry, I secretly kissed you.

Sorry, I kissed you without permission.

And sorry, I kept it a secret from you, too.

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Sava.. I love you..

I love you so much..

Don't leave me again!

Don't leave me ever again!!!

You know, I'm nothing without you and die without you...