My Endorphine 1: The Path of Love

Decision Making

Sava Room. at 23:57.

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Sava is awake. He couldn't sleep at all. She cried again and again, thinking about what had happened to her these two days.

His burden of harboring love for Luhan alone had already tormented him. Now she is faced with her kiss scandal with Ohsen. Because of that, now he knows the heart of his friends. Everyone feels different. Something is blocking.

Is it really time for him to make a choice?

Is he ready to risk his friendship for his ego?

His mind is not that far. He just tries his best. Although he knew in the end also he would be hurt just as Kay said. Sava felt the choice he hurt much better, after all he had long felt it.

Miris.

He could only smile and cry again, again, and again. Sometimes he asks, when will he be happy? But he said, for him he was always happy during that time together with his best friend.

What about these two days?

He felt alone as his two little friends stayed away from him. It felt cold, quiet, and silent. It's the first time he's felt it and it's really heavy, pathetic.

“*Lien likes Ohsen.”

“Lien jealous.”.

“But Ohsen likes you.."

“How about Luhan?”

“How about yourself*?”

Kay's words were ringing in her mind. It hard. It's really hard. Weight. It's really heavy. It felt heavier when the person he needed the most was silent. Away from him. Like it doesn't matter. A saying is not spoken.

What has his presence meant all this time?

“If you're ashamed of what I did and Ohsen, why don't you advise me? Or not just insult me like the others. That's much better than you shut up.” Sava said as he stared at the photo of Luhan on his laptop.

Sava who can not sleep look at the photo of his memento with his two best friends. SMP graduation photo. He smiled looking at the pictures. His thoughts led to the ancient times when they joked with each other without any burden.

“What after this we can still like that again? Will we still be able to take pictures together at High School graduation later?”

Sava returned moody.

He couldn't imagine spending time without his two best friends. A friend he loved very much. A friend who is like breath to her. He doesn't know what will happen after this. His feelings are not out of whack. His heart is not calm. Is this the end of all.

“Hiks..hiks... It hurt so much.”

Sava clutched his chest. Pain is not play.

Only a bitter cry could he do. Her tears kept falling. He could not contain it even though he had repeatedly rubbed it with his hands. His eyes hurt, sore, and reddened, his head felt very dizzy. He had forgotten how many times he had cried lately. It was easy to cry at this time.

Yeah, he's just a regular human being. Cengar is not his fault.

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Kay reinterpreted how severe the problems that Sava had to go through. His heart really is not.

Almost every time Kay heard Sava cry. He even knows that Sava never sleeps. Her crying is always heard at night.

Is Sava not tired?

Is Sava not hungry?

Will Sava not hurt?

What did Sava think?

Does so much Sava have tear reserves?

Many strange questions came to Kay's mind. It had been two days that Sava locked himself in the room from the first day of being suspended.

“Va, eat! I put food at your door.. I left it at your door if you didn't want me to see you eat. Oh yeah, I told you about your problems, your father understood. I believe in you. So, you don't have to worry, your dad's gonna talk to his boss, he says his boss owns our school.. He'll try to keep you from getting kicked out of school.. Be patient..” Kay said from behind the door of Sava's room.

Sava heard clearly what Kay was talking about. But he was not interested in responding to it.

Not disinterested, rather do not have more energy to get out of bed.

The thought of his life problem imprisoned every inch of his body. Forcing him to stay and refusing to let go. Want to be planted deeper. Wants to envelop and embrace deeper in the darkness of the mind.

“How, Kay?” Ask Sava's Dad.

Kay shakes. "...."- ".

“What's wrong, Kay. After me and her mother separated, she became a bit distant with me. I couldn't be a good father to her. I should have wiped her tears.. Makes my shoulder for him to lean on.. “ Continue Sad Sava's father.

Sava's father and mother have been separated since Sava was in elementary school. Sava, who was a child, decided to follow his father. Not that he was beating his mother. He just wants to live with his father.

Sava's mother was a businesswoman. Brother with his father Kay. A very busy person, even Sava himself is not sure once a year can meet him.

Despite having a biological mother, but having almost never met, Sava is like a stranger to her own mother. Although he also had his mother's contact number, he never tried to call his mother.

Kay rubbed Sava's father's back.

The figure of a man who keeps trying hard to be the best father for his only daughter.

“Quiet, Uncle.. It's okay.But obviously Sava loves Uncle very much.. He was also not someone who was easily discouraged. He will rise up to fight for the truth.. Uncle just needs to support him.” Said Kay.

Sava's father smiled at Kay. He is grateful to have a nephew like Kay. Kay is like her own child. Kay and Sava's father return to their respective rooms.

Sava was still crying in his room.

“I can't be like this! For daddy.. I should be able to change. I have to solve all my problems. I'm sure I can. After all, this is just a difficult time for teenagers!… And most importantly, I didn't do anything wrong..” Sava tried to convince himself.

He loved his father very much. Although he rarely met his father because his father was always busy working as an employee at the family-owned company Aina and Enila. He did not want to make his father sad because of it.

Sava pulled the tip of his lips to smile. I don't know why this smile feels different. Perhaps it was because of this his first smile since he had gotten into a lot of trouble. Or did he start to feel crazy for thinking too hard about the problems in his life?

“I've made a decision.” Sava was still smiling.