My Endorphine 1: The Path of Love

Ohsen Confession

The clock has turned ten at night.

The streets of the city are a little quiet from the activity of people, only a few cars are heard passing on the highway.

Sava and Ohsen walk on trotoal roads. Always holding hands. Today is a pure walk.

Here's streets.

Yeah, feet are starting to ache.

On the way home Sava and Ohsen were still joking, chatting ria. They are still the same as before, discussing many fun things.

Until finally, the time that Sava was waiting for arrived.

“Ohsen...” Sava suddenly stopped and released his hand from Ohsen's grasp.

Sava stood slightly in front of Ohsen. Sava turned his back to Ohsen, he spoke without looking at Ohsen because he knew it would be very heavy. He should be able to hide his emotions.

Ohsen responded only lightly.

“Hm? What's up?” Tanya Ohsen relaxed.

“What we're doing now is not true.” Sava said firmly.

“Not true how? C’mon what's wrong, Va? We all day playing, joking, having fun.” Ohsen said in a tone not too concerned about what Sava was talking about.

“Do you enjoy it?” Ask Sava.

“Of course, it's a lot of fun.. It's the first time we can spend time together. Just two. It's just you and me. Time where we can express our feelings Ohsen.

“Yes, I enjoyed it too. This is really fun..” Sava said. “How should I start it?” Ask Inner Sava.

“What's just fun?” Ask Ohsen.

“…”

Sava. He tried to interpret the meaning of Ohsen's words which he thought seemed different.

“Why not answered?.. Hm, well. I want to talk a little seriously with you. Ck. how do I start.. I'm confused..” Ohsen said nervously.

"..." - ".Sava intends to turn his back to speak closer to Ohsen. But Ohsen held him back.

“Stop! Stopit! Don't turn your body around! Stay like this!” Ohsen held onto Sava's shoulder from behind using his right hand.

“You why Ohsen? You're not what you used to be. Are you okay?” Sava said he tried to turn his body again.

Ohsen held Sava. “I told you not to turn around!” Pinta Ohsen's.

“Alright.. Now, say what you want to say, Ohsen! I also want to say something to you. But I will listen to your words first, after that I will just say it..” Sava said.

“Alright.. Sava.. Ak. ak me...” Ohsen stammered.

It was hard to get a word out of his mouth. All night long, he had been studying repeatedly.

“I? I what, Ohsen?” Ask Sava.

Actually Sava understood the direction Ohsen was talking. Sava simply waited for Ohsen's courage to reveal it.

“…”

Silent mood. Sava began to not hold up. “Actually what do you want to say..”.

“I LIKE YOU!” Cut Ohsen fast.

"...." - ".Sava smiled at Ohsen's statement.

“I liked you so much from the first time I saw you. From I greet you. You make me not stop admiring you. Your smile. when you play the piano.. I love everything about you..” Continue Ohsen while imagining his feelings all this time.

“….”

“When you sing poorly.. When you are serious about textbooks... When you are silent..

“Ohsen..”.

“When you fall asleep in the music practice room... When you tie your hair, you bite your hair first.”.

"Ohsen.you..."

“Ohsen, already..!” Sava said softly.

Sava shed her tears while smiling. Although it was only half a year, Ohsen knew him well.

Ohsen really paid attention to it even to the smallest thing.

“Sava..”

“...” Because of crying Sava's shoulders shook a little.

“You're crying?” Tanya Ohsen was worried. Sava.

“I'm glad you're so considerate of me. I like you too. You're kind.. You're good-looking.. You're funny.. ”.

Sava will express his feelings as well.

“Create that? You like me too. That means it's not wrong to be together.” Ohsen smiled happily as he felt Sava also had the same feeling as him.

“Ohsen..my love for you is not like your race for me.. different...”.

“What do you mean.?”

“Ad's.. There is another person here..” Sava said as he held his chest.

No, he squeezed his dress. Imagining others in his heart that he could not reach. It was more than just painful.

“You..”

“Not you Ohsen, not you who are here, but someone already in my heart..He has occupied my heart for a long time to make me powerless.” Sava shed his tears again.

“…”

“Sorry Ohsen... I'm sorry.”.

“…”

“Ohsen..?” Sava started to worry.

It was clear Ohsen's hand was trembling as he held his shoulder. Sava tried to turn his body back. Ohsen clutched his shoulder.

“I TOLD YOU NOT TO TURN YOUR BODY!” Ohsen's repulsive jerk made Sava very shocked.

This was the first time he had been yelled at by Ohsen. Is Ohsen really hurt?

“…”

“Sava... I'm sorry, I can't change listening to what you're about to say.. I can't take you home either.”.

"..." - ".Sava cried in silence.

“One more time, next time when meet let's keep quiet.” Ohsen said raucously.

His voice sounded like he was holding back a cry. Sava knew that right now Ohsen must be crying, just like him. He could not wipe away Ohsen's tears, Ohsen did not allow him to see him. Sava could only feel Ohsen's hand grip on his shoulder getting weaker. Ohsen took his hand off Sava's shoulder.

At the moment Ohsen could not control his feelings. It was like being thrown into a very dark abyss. His first love was not reciprocated. His heart is as complicated as his mind. He just doesn't know what to do.

With a gontai step he left Sava. Walking away left Sava without looking at him.

What about Sava?

Not much different from Ohsen, he was also injured. Feelings are also complicated and erratic. Guilt haunted him. Guilty of making those who loved him hurt.

Fooling yourself by replying painfully to the person who has given him love.

Shadows of fond memories with Ohsen ring in Sava's mind. Just now his lips were full of happy smiles, yet all of them were flipped over quickly.

He had hurt Ohsen's feelings, made wounds, hurt, and invited tears. His legs that felt very weak were unable to hold his sagging body. He fell like he had no energy.

Her tears could not stop. Crying, crying, and crying. That's all he can do. He held tightly to his chest. It hurts, it hurts so much. In the flashback, it should be Ohsen who was really hurt.

“I hurt.. Ohsen I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I wish I could explain honestly, right from the start before you put a taste to me. Before things got like this…. You will definitely not get hurt.”

Sava was still crying hysterically in the middle of an increasingly quiet night. No one passes by. It's almost midnight. The sound of a vehicle engine passing by on the road was lonely, as his heart was.