My Endorphine 1: The Path of Love

Goodbye

“Why are you going? You're gonna leave me alone?” Ask Luhan.

“No, Han.”

“Not how? Look at you, you're at the airport! The international! You'll leave me somewhere far away.”

Sava sighed, then smiled. “You still have Lien.”

“You can still even smile after you intend to leave me and Lien. You said you were a breath for me. You're air! You're oxygen for me! Don't you understand that?” Luhan raised his voice.

“However, fish will need more water than air. Water can still keep you alive. Lien will always be there for you. Basically fish must be identical to water, not air. So as long as the air is not there, at least the water is still there for swimming. I guess it's like that. Laws of nature..”.

“But why? Why should there be such a law? Can fish, water, and air live together?”

“Han, understand..”.

“Understanding what? What do I have to understand? Don't I understand enough?”

Sava took a breath. “I'm happy to be your best friend and Lien, but there are times when I have to decide my life path. The world is too big for me to conquer. So, I will prepare myself to conquer this vast world.. I only sacrifice for my future. For long-buried ideals.”.

“You mean, you intend to sacrifice your friendship for your future?

“Not like that.”

“Can't you reach your goals with me? With Lien?”

“Can't, Han..” Sava shook his head slowly. But he still tried to smile.

Where is possible, right?

“Is it because of Lien that you intend to go?”

Sava quite jumped at his heart.

Luhan's question was really on target. Indeed the biggest reason for leaving was because Lien and Luhan were in a love affair. But he will not back down from his decision. He will not back down or be tempted by the request of Luhan which always makes him unable to refuse.

Now is the time to live without Luhan.

“Lien? Come onl.. You have the right to choose any woman you like. When you started having a lot of women, I didn't really care who you chose. Whichever woman will be your port of love. Not to rule out the possibility, including if it's Lien.”

“Do not lie!”

“I told you, I want to achieve my goals.. That's my biggest ambition now..”.

“Va...” Luhan does not know what to say anymore.

“Han..”.

“What is your ambition that is more important than me and Lien?”

Sava was somewhat surprised by Luhan's question. If I could be honest, there certainly isn't. For him Lien and Luhan is his life. Especially Luhan, how many years did he harbor feelings for her? It feels upset when it seems to be considered unfaithful, friend.

“Are you insensitive? Don't you understand? All this is because of you.. Everything I've done all this time is only for you and Lien? Was it not important all this time? Not valuable? Who here looks more stupid? Why am I always in the wrong place. Why should I? Why can't you understand it. Don't you think that you are selfish too and honestly you also hurt me a lot.” Inner Sava.

“You are silent, meaning your ambition is more valuable..

“You can say anything, Han.. I guess you just haven't recognized me much further.” Sava was disappointed. But he's still trying to hold it.

“Va, forgive me..”

“It's been 5 minutes. I think I should leave immediately. Sorry, this time I can't fulfill your request. Take good care of yourself!"

"...."

"Don't like to stay up late! Eat regularly! Don't drink too much bubbleta! Don't be too hard at soccer practice! Don't have a boyfriend! Be loyal to Lien! Don't hurt him! Especially betray him! Take care of him for me.."

"..."

"Ehmm, if you take a shower, don't take a night! Reduce spicy food! You don't want your heart to relapse again, do you? Oh yes, seriously study! I know you're not that stupid.."

"..."

"One thing is important, you have to start thinking about your future! If you love football, show that you love your favorite sport! Be a professional footballer!"

"..."

"If you want to be a doctor, study seriously! I don't know what, but I believe you can do it.” Sava said at length.

He knows everything about Luhan.

Luhan fell silent and permeated every word Sava spoke. His heart told him not to be selfish.

Finally Luhan hugged Sava.

Sava was quite startled, as he had not expected at all, Luhan pulled her into his arms. Sava could feel Luhan's heartbeat beating irregularly. Sava could feel a heavy breath from Luhan's mouth. Even Sava can also feel the body temperature of Luhan is quite hot. Sava was sure that Luhan was not feeling well.

There was compassion in his heart. It worries Luhan. Sava hoped that after he left, Lien would take good care of Luhan. After all, Lien was Luhan's lover.

Isn't that what Lien should have done?

Sava immediately released Luhan's embrace from his body. Luhan tried to hold him back, but to no avail. Sava kept trying to let go of Luhan's embrace gently. He looked into Luhan's eyes. His eyes began to glaze over. Luhan again grabbed Sava's hand. He held it tight.

“Take care of yourself! See you..” Sava said. Sava tried to remove Luhan's hand from his hand. Luhan grasped it quite tightly. “Han, already! It's time I went.”

Eventually Luhan melted and released his grip on Sava's hand. Sava cried and left Luhan. Heavy taste.

“Va, when are you going back to Indonesia?” Ask Luhan.

Sava wiped his tears and turned to face Luhan. Sava smiled sweetly at Luhan.

“Until all my ambitions are achieved.Tell Lien, if I love her very much.” Sava waved his hand.

Luhan. Sava had completely abandoned her.

"Goodbye, Han... Lien's.."

Sava continued his path. He even ran towards checking plane tickets so that his stance would not falter if he had to linger near Luhan.

Luhan always managed to melt his heart. He would have a hard time resisting Luhan's wishes. He would usually give her whatever Luhan wanted.

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There were many people waiting in line to check the ticket before entering the plane.

Dio was a little doubtful whether Sava would choose him or not. His heart fretted as he knew for sure, Luhan was a big influence in Sava's life. Only Luhan is always in Sava's brain and heart.

So it is not an exaggeration if he has such thoughts. He knew that until this moment, he had not been the one who could replace Luhan in Sava's heart. Let alone replace, align themselves in the heart of Sava alone can not. It's still a long way to go.

“Please Mr..” The ticket checking officer said.

“Oh, thank you.” Dio.

Kay and Sava's father got on the plane first. Dio was still trying to wait for Sava with anxious expectation.

“DIO WAIT!!” Shouted Sava from a distance.

Dio looked over and smiled.

“This is tiketku.. Ah thank you very much.” Sava said and ran towards Dio.

Sava held Dio's hand. Sava looked very happy. Diopun. This was the first time Sava had held her and smiled loosely at her. It seems like the Sava's burden has been reduced a bit. Not a problem at all.