Miss Kissable & Mr. Strawberry

Behind the Teddy Bear Doll

Kayla was pensive, almost an hour she sat leaning on her bed. This whole day he couldn't get Alex and his words out of his mind.

Kayla let out a long sigh while closing her eyes. She did not expect it to be this complicated. Kayla thinks once she rejects Alex's love, the man will understand her. Although Kayla knows Alex's feelings have not changed after being rejected, Kayla thinks Alex will gradually understand and feel enough if they are just friends. But it turns out Alex is planning something more serious than that. Far from Kayla's guess, Alex actually intends to propose to her.

Somehow her way of thinking, Kayla did not understand. Did he think carefully about his intentions, or did he consider marriage as simple as a matter of testing?

He hasn't even spoken to his parents yet, he could have made such a unilateral decision. Not necessarily his papa agreed he got married this early, and also not necessarily his papa approved if he chose Kayla as his life companion. After all, their classes were different. Kayla is just an ordinary girl from a middle-class family. As for Alex, it is not necessary to explain what the wealth of his parents, and how high the class. They are not equal.

About feeling..

Kayla needs to study. Before Kayla was indifferent to this, Alex was one of her friends, and Kayla treated her like a friend, that's all. Might as well.

Maybe more. Maybe Kayla ignored many things or events that she experienced while with Alex. So that it doesn't take all of that seriously, or it will be a thing, as it is today. Kayla recalls the time when her heart felt something different with Alex.

When they first met.. When Alex asked him to talk and met after... Even then Alex had touched his face right, ah how Kayla could ignore that!

Then when they met at school for the first time, there was also a skin-ship between Kayla and Alex! Well even though there is no element of intentionality, still. But it wasn't important to Kayla, so she easily forgot about it. Somehow at this moment he could remember that part as well.

Many times Alex bothered her and even hurt her, there was nothing Kayla felt other than hatred and sadness. But after all that.. Alex begins to show his different side, the longer Alex shows his true self, despite being unaware of Alex himself. Kayla also just realized that she had been watching Alex all along. Especially the moments where Alex showed his attention to Kayla, even before he recognized that Kayla was Miss Kissable, and after that as well.

Somehow Kayla could ignore all that easily. And now.. Kayla realized that there was indeed something that might be different in her heart, as she thought of Alex. But he still could not understand fully, what kind of feeling he was feeling.

"I want to know how you feel about me"

The words that Alex spoke this morning came back to Kayla. Kayla could not answer. Not because he wouldn't answer, but because he didn't have an answer.

Kayla sighed softly, she was agitated thinking this. But what can he do to calm his mind. Sleeping can't. The streets.it's late. No, Kayla is embarrassed to talk to my mom about this.

Kayla spread her gaze all over her room. His gaze then stopped on a doll that was still wrapped neatly. It was her birthday present from Adit yesterday. Kayla did not open it, because since the birthday show was over, Alex had ruined her mood. Until now Kayla has not repaired her gifts. Kayla smiled and moved, grabbing a few more gifts as well which were still wrapped neatly.

Kayla opened them one by one. Finally, the Teddy Bear doll that yesterday made him very amazed when he saw Adit bring it for him. Kayla held the doll warm, she looked at it lovingly, like a mother looking at her child.

"Hey. I miss!" mumbling slowly.

Kayla then held him again.

"People say, if our feelings are agitated or our thoughts are complicated, touching soft objects can make us more relaxed"

Those words..

the words He spoke first, and the same words Adit said to Kayla yesterday. How could they both say the exact same thing. Ah, now seeing Adit makes Kayla look at Him again. Not just Adit, but the Teddy Bear doll in Kayla's deck as well. Kayla missed him.

Ah, Him.

Kayla closed her eyes for a moment. When Kayla opened her eyes, there was a beautiful painting on the wall of her room. The painting Alex gave Kayla yesterday as a birthday present. After a few minutes of staring at the painting herself, Kayla rolled her eyes lazily.

"why do you think of Alex Mulu!" he patted his own head slowly.

Kayla once again remembered what Alex said yesterday, and this morning. Alex says he's serious, how Kayla should respond. It wasn't that Kayla couldn't believe it, it was just that this was too shocking. Regarding his feelings for Alex, Kayla does not have the answer, now Alex wants to propose to her!

It might be easy if Kayla wanted to answer the origin, or tell the truth that she didn't think it was important. Or even immediately he rejected the annoying Alex. If Kayla does that, it means Kayla doesn't appreciate Alex at all!

How could Kayla do that. Although as bad as her treatment used to be for Kayla, now she has changed and converted. Although Alex seems too honest and even reckless, Kayla can't blame him. Kayla was angry and very disturbed by the intention of proposing her, but Kayla did not have the heart to yell at her. In any case.. Kayla couldn't possibly forget Alex's kindness to her. If you remember the lack of teachings first, it is indeed sad. Besides the lack of Alex's teachings that exceed the limit was also triggered by Kayla's own mistakes, Kayla who was too reckless and careless because it had provoked Alex's anger. Kayla has noticed this lately.

But, even though Alex had once abused her, it was no reason for Kayla to forget about Alex's struggles and sacrifices for her.

Alex once ruined his honor, but he also once saved Kayla's honor. Alex has hurt and harassed her, but she has also guarded and protected Kayla. Alex used to be an enemy and a disaster for Kayla, but now he's a good friend, as well as Kayla's savior.

Czech

Kayla gasped when she heard a voice coming from the door of her room. Mami's head poked into Kayla's room.

"Mommy?"

"Not sleeping, honey?"

Kayla smiled faintly, "Not yet. But this is going to sleep."

Mami stepped in and sat at Kayla's bedside. "What do you think, baby?"

Kayla frowned, "Not really mi. There's nothing." Kayla.

"No need to cover up, dear, mom knows. As a fellow girl, mom knows your thoughts now. That proposal is a big thing in our lives, and it's no joke. So it's only natural that we think."

"Mami what the hell.." whine Kayla shy.

"Let's go.." rayu mami.

"What story?"

"Where mami knows. What story do you want to tell?"

"Kan mami asked for a story. Where Lily knows what she wants Lily to tell her story"

"Tongue before going to bed!" sahut mami of origin, making Kayla laugh. "Yes about you and Alex dong, baby.."

Kayla then stopped her laughter, and snorted lazily. "That's not Mi.. Lily won't talk about Alex ah."

"Why, he was yesterday.."

"Lupain, Mi!"

"Where can mami lupain, dear"

Kayla was silent with a gritted face. "Today you said you wanted to talk to Alex. Uhhuh?"

Kayla nodded. "So how?" ask mami.

"No matter what." said Kayla flat, she hid her face.

Mami grunts long. "How is it not, how is your child still badmood good?"

Kayla also changed her face. "Lily is happy, look at it!"

"Ber part yes mi, abis sniffed the soft Teddy. Kayak ngeringanin load." said Kayla while stroking her dolls.

Mom's gaze turned to the soft hairy thing in Kayla's hand. My mother smiled meaningfully.

"Who said?" ask mami to fish.

"Say K-.." Kayla mumbled her lips, "Emm. said Adit, yesterday.yes right?"

Mami smiled wickedly. "Why don't you want to call her name?" fashion mom.

"Mami ih. it was Adit yesterday who said that."

"Hmmm..." Mami sneers teasing Kayla.

Kayla puts her shoulders forward while snorting. "No papa if Lily doesn't call her. Not called also Lily did not escape him really, Mi." said Kayla relaxed.

"Oh yeah..? Didn't you just want him fit Adit love this Teddy?" mami's goda again.

Kayla rolled her eyeballs, wrathful with the temptation of mami. Yeah, mommy knows best how Kayla and she used to be. On Kayla's 14th birthday, she gave a gift like this to Kayla. A baby violet Teddy Bear doll, with a shiny ribbon around its neck, and a red heart pad on its chest. That's why, when he saw Adit bring this doll to Kayla yesterday, Kayla became amazed and surprised. The shadow of him instantly appeared before Kayla, as if he had actually come before Kayla. Kayla gets emotional, especially when Adit says the same words as He said before when giving Kayla a gift.

Behind the Teddy Bear Kayla doll, many sweet memories with Him. And now Kayla has a new Teddy Bear, replacing her Teddy Bear who has separated from Kayla.

"What..?" tanya mami teases.

"..add kangen aja same him." continued Kayla slowly, making mami laugh to hear it.

"Masa'..?" ledek.

"did. mami!"

"This is the first time, baby, you have a birthday without her" she said after stopping her laughter.

"Hm, yes mi. There seems to be less yes. Does mami know too?"

"Well, it's different, we're used to him in Bandung. But here we're lucky baby, we have family, and you have new friends too. Mommy's pretty happy, as long as mom's kid is happy"

"Lily is also happy, as long as my mom is happy."

Mami stroked Kayla's head and then kissed her. "Sleep, baby!"

Kayla nodded after kissing both cheeks mami. When she stood up, my mother stopped.

"What's up Mi?"

"Not a story?"

"Mommy.." Kayla's whining is lazy.

"Yaudah, mami wait loh. whenever you want to tell the same mom, do not hesitate dear. Mami is ready 24 hours for you, your favorite child!"

Kayla snorts a smile, "Thank you dear mami..."

"Good night dear.."

"Good night Mi.."

After she came out of her room, Kayla cleaned up the gifts scattered on her bed, then put a Teddy Bear doll next to her head. Kayla frowned when she saw something in her Teddy Bear doll. On the chest of the doll there is a small heart-shaped pad, red color. But that was not what caught Kayla's attention, but rather something behind it. Kayla also grabbed something.

A tiny folded baby violet colored paper forms a flower. The color of this paper blends with the color of the doll, which is why Kayla just realized there is paper there. Kayla flipped through the paper and looked at it fixedly.

The question arises in his mind, why did Adit slip this paper in his doll, or maybe this paper was accidentally tucked away? Her curiosity prompted Kayla to make sure the paper was in the shape of a flower. Kayla unfolded it carefully so that the paper did not tear.

Kayla rounded her eyes when she found out that there was writing behind the paper. Adit's handwriting.

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*Happy Birthday Kayla...

It's good to be a part of your birthday.

Happy to be in touch and close to girls as good and beautiful as you.

Sorry if I was impressed not gentle, with this letter slip in my gift.

I want to talk directly, but my tongue feels stiff to say this with your eyes directly. I'm so scared, I'm too scared, Kay!

It's about my feelings.

Actually, I've liked you for a long time.

If you ask me when, I don't know the answer. Because I also did not realize when these feelings began to appear.

I always feel bad about you, I often keep your keys, every day, even almost every time. You also come to my dream when I sleep again, as if I feel my heart does not want you to go a second from there.

Annisa keeps me Kay, 'cause I'm like gini. I like to smile at myself when I think of you. If you feel this strange or funny, just laugh, no papa. Hehe...

I like you Kay, I think I'm in love with you. Honestly, I feel anxious and not care when you squirm with Alex. Maybe this is what you call jealousy, right?!

I don't know if I'm late in revealing my feelings to you. I also don't know if you have a special guy or not. But the more you come here the more Alex deket. So I thought, there's no reason for me to reveal my feelings. I'm afraid I won't have another chance after this.

I'm sorry Kay, I revealed this in a letter. You can think of me as a coward for not daring to speak directly. But I want you to know, the only reason I'm not talking straight away is because I'm scared.

I used to get this feeling because I know, if you don't want to date. You are more educated than feeling. So I don't want to disturb you, and I respect your principles.

And what I'm afraid of is.. I'm afraid of losing you. We are familiar as friends. I'm afraid you can't change me after knowing that I like you. I'm afraid of losing you as a friend if you reject me. I was also afraid that your attitude would change to me if you rejected me.

Yes, that is if I am rejected. If accepted, I would feel like the luckiest person in the world. Sorry about lebay..

But this way, I hope I'll never lose you Kay. Want you to accept me or not, as if we can still win. I can feel enough to just be your friend, rather than us hanging out and awkward after you know how I feel. I don't want you to stay away from me because of this. I love you, Kay!

I know, you'll probably stay the same principle. But you're squirming more and more with Alex, I can't help myself write this letter and express my feelings to you, Kay.

I'm not asking you to return this letter. I might be embarrassed if anyone knew about this letter other than you. Yeah, you loser.

I just want to know your response to my letter Kay. But one important thing, please, is that nothing changes from your attitude to me, if you reject me.

If you accept, you can give a sign through chatting. If you refuse me, consider this letter never existed. And our friendship remains as usual. Ok?

Maybe after this, I'll be more nervous when I see you. But please don't let you get annoyed Kay! I don't want you to get rid of me after knowing that your friend secretly likes you.

If you accept me...

Ah I don't know what to do. I can only promise, if I will be a good guy for you, and I will not make you disappointed.

I'm not as handsome as Alex or as rich as him. But I sincerely love you Kay. I will take care of you, and try to make you happy.

Thanks for taking the time to read my letter.

Inget yes Kay, if you reject me, your attitude should not change in front of me. And if you accept, I'm waiting for a chat from you. If I can't be a special guy for you, I still hope to be a good friend for you.

^^^With Love ^^^

^^^Aditama Suryananda* ^^^

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Kayla was flabbergasted and gawked. la did not expect, was this really Adit? Adit wrote her a love letter? Many times Kayla convinced herself that this was indeed Adit's handwriting, and it was true that this letter was intended for her.

Kayla looks at her Teddy Bear doll. Ah, Kayla should have noticed the look on Adit's face yesterday when she gave this gift to Kayla.

"Adit..?" muttered.

Kayla felt amazed and amused. la did not understand what to react, fortunately Adit did not say those words directly. Otherwise, Kayla would have been confused, and would have just stared in front of her.

Slowly a thin smile rose from her kissable lips. His face was red, he was shaking while biting his lower lip.

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