Miss Kissable & Mr. Strawberry

The Empty Relationship

"Al, wait!"

Feli follows Alex out of the house, after Alex turns his head and answers his call, he sits in the front garden chair of his house. Alex, who understood that Feli wanted to talk, sat down next to the girl.

There was still some awkwardness between them after the little incident in Feli's room earlier. Feli seemed hesitant to start the conversation, while Alex waited for him with a slightly groggy feeling.

"Sorry, just now.."

"No need to apologize Al." Sergey Feli. He knew maybe Alex was feeling bad about that little incident in his room.

"Al, our relationship has been going on for three more months, and our wedding date is getting closer. In less than two months, Al. And..for the umpteenth time I want you, if you want to withdraw from this relationship. please." Futi is serious.

If you want to withdraw from this relationship, please.

Repeatedly Feli reminds Alex of that, repeatedly Feli asks Alex to rethink her decision to accept their matchmaking, and repeatedly Feli gives Alex a chance for their hollow relationship. Even Feli doesn't matter if Alex wants to step down and end their relationship, but Alex's answer is always the same.

"I've made this decision, and I'm going to learn this relationship with all my heart."

Always the answer, but until now Alex still does not seem to accept their relationship wholeheartedly.

"I still give you a chance Al, think again!"

"Why do you want me to back off? Because I can't love you yet? Because you don't feel like I'm treating you like I'm treating Kayla?"

Feli did not answer.

"You know I'm trying again, Fel. All this time I've been trying to do good for our relationship, I've been trying to forget Kayla. My heart condition is no longer good Fel, I need time to recover. I need time to rearrange my heart, because the first love is not easy. I hope you understand that."

"I'm always trying to make you understand. I know Kayla was your first love, but she's the past. He has also moved on from you, he can be happy now without you. As for you, what have you been doing all this time? You always say if you try again, but you can't stop thinking about him, in your heart there is only him. I think it was your room that didn't want to eat him. Until now you are still not sincere if your relationship with Kayla ends right Al? You don't want Kayla's position to be replaced in your heart, do you?" Feli was getting upset.

Alex snorted long. "Yes, originally. But after I saw he could move on, I really tried to make a move on too." Alex paused his words for a moment. "Love is present without coercion, so she must be erased without coercion as well. All this time I've been trying to get that feeling out of my heart, but what? I'm getting sicker. I don't want to forget he's Fel, but I just can't. If you're tired of me like this, you can back off."

Honestly Feli offended by the last sentence that Alex said. Feli never complained to Alex all this time, although he was tired of undergoing their unstable relationship. But that doesn't mean Alex doesn't know that Feli is tired, it doesn't mean Alex doesn't care about Feli's feelings being ignored. When Feli gives Alex a chance to step back from their relationship, Alex also gives the same opportunity. Because Alex knows he only hurts Feli by maintaining their relationship. But Feli always chose to stay rather than retreat, Feli still wanted to accompany Alex even though Alex could not accept his presence wholeheartedly.

Alex may be forced to accept Feli, but he still respects the girl. It's just that the thing Feli expected the most from him could not give. Love's. Feli wants Alex to accept himself with his heart as well, giving his love for the girl who will be his wife. Alex understood, as his future wife.. Feli is entitled to that. But Alex's heart can't yet, which is what makes Alex feel guilty and sorry for Feli. Alex also does not like to hurt Feli, but Feli is still willing to accept the wound. Alex gives him the option to step down from their relationship, but Feli still wants to stay.

Each of them, equally reluctant to end the empty relationship they live. Feli is reluctant to back down because he loves Alex, and Alex is reluctant to back down because he has already allowed Feli into his life. If Alex releases Feli in the middle of the road like this then many parties will be disappointed. Families, the Company, and people in its business sphere who have placed great expectations on their relationships. And the one who will have the most impact if Alex decides to withdraw from their relationship, is Feli himself. Feli will not only be hurt but also embarrassed, people will look on tilt at the girl left behind by her fiance. Alex could not bear, Alex was not that cruel until he put Feli in such a bad state.

Pretty Kayla is injured and has to accept the skewed view and the situation is as bad as that, because of her. That alone has devastated Alex. Alex did not want the bitterness of such an experience was also experienced by Feli, even though he did not love his fiancee.

"I can wait for you Al. I'm not going to back off. But I want you once again, our marriage is less than two months away. I really hope you can move on before that. All this time I've been trying to understand you, I hope you can also understand me." Feli's voice sounded a little raucous.

"I don't want to make you make spit-cheek lupain Kayla, and I just can't make it. I just want to. On my wedding day later I actually become a happy bride, not pretending to be happy. Hence Al, I hope you consider the opportunity I love. If you retreat now, the effect will not be too bad. I'm not papa. Wedding preparations have not begun, invitations have not been spread, about fitting clothes.can still be canceled." continued Feli bitter.

"You're afraid I can't escape Kayla? Are you afraid of being a sad bride on our wedding day? Can't you trust me, Fel?"

"I accept this matchmaking because I trust Al, I believe that you can move on and accept me. But after all this time, I have not seen anything in you that can make me sure. I think our relationship will improve as our wedding day approaches, but it's not. Is it natural that I feel. Fear of disappointment?"

Alex fell silent.

"Trus what's the reason you want to stay with me?" ask Alex then.

"Because I love you, Al."

Degg

Alex understands now. Why would Feli want to survive in this exhausting empty relationship. Why Feli wants to be patient and continue to understand Alex who has not been able to move on from Kayla. Why Feli chose to get hurt instead of letting go of Alex. Love is the reason. Alex loves Kayla, who continues to fight for her love despite her rejection. A patient and optimistic Alex will conquer the heart of Kayla, who is willing to endure pain when jealous, and who remains in love even though their closeness has turned into a long distance.

It was only natural that Feli was worried about his own fate, it was only natural that Feli wanted to be understood. No girl can stand being ignored by her partner for a long time, all girls want a partner who can make their marriage beautiful.

Alex let out a long sigh, he felt increasingly evil and selfish. Although he had been determined to accept Feli as his companion later, and promised himself that he would not waste this good girl, in fact until this moment he was still heavy to step forward. Quiet in the fragility of his heart, determined to forget his love for Kayla but actually his heart is still reluctant to let go of that love. Alex wants to give Feli what the girl deserves, but deep down he still hopes Kayla is his match.

"Hhh...... O Allah. why is this so.." his sigh was deep in heart.

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Mr. Agus Wardhana, Feli's father. A successful businessman who is quite famous in the capital, is also one of the biggest investors in PT SWill Group. The character of an Agus Wardhana is not much different from his future besi, Mr. Elfattar Smith William. Alex's betrothal to Felisha, these two dads were the ones who arranged it. The matchmaking was a perfect relationship as well as a very lucrative business deal, for both of them. But it actually made Alex and Feli depressed.

This afternoon he said Feli's father wanted to see Alex to talk about something serious. The middle-aged man, nicknamed 'Om Dhana' by Alex, is now on the second floor of the U. S. restaurant, the agreed-upon venue for their private meeting. Soon Alex came to his future father-in-law, shook hands and sat down.

"Look Al, so there's something very important, nobody knows about this but Om himself. But you are Feli's future husband, so you should know about this" Om Dhana said seriously.

Alex frowned not understanding. "What's Om about?"

Om Dhana cleared his throat to neutralize his nervousness, "Om hope you can take it."

Alex waited for Om Dhana to continue his sentence.

"Actually.. Feli's not my real son."

Alex was wide-eyed, "M. You mean Om?"

Om Dhana lowered his head at a glance before continuing his words, "Actually Feli is the baby Om adopted. When Om's wife gave birth in the hospital, our baby died. Om got hit once. We had been waiting for a child in our family for a long time, but the baby did not survive. Even doctors had said that Om's wife was very vulnerable because Om's wife had three previous miscarriages. So Om can't be honest with Om's wife if our baby is actually dead."

Alex felt sorry to hear it, Om Dhana was silent before continuing his story.

"From the same day, a woman without an identity also gave birth at the hospital. The baby survived, but the woman died. The doctor said the woman asked the hospital to send her baby to an orphanage. The woman said that if she lived alone without a family or husband, she did not even have the money for her delivery. After hearing that, Om immediately thought of taking care of the baby, giving the identity to the baby as our child."

"Nobody knows the truth about this other than Om and the hospital. Even Om's own wife doesn't know if the child she's raised isn't the child she's born with."

Alex feels unaccepted to hear the words of Om Dhana. This much truth he hid from his own wife? No one knows but him, which means Feli doesn't know that he's not their real child?

"What until now Aunty Arum also does not know the truth Om?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"And Feli?"

"Where can you talk about it to him Al, make it honest with wife Om aja Om can not." said Om Dhana.

"But they deserve to know."

Om Dhana shakes. Alex snorted, lamenting that big secret was covered for years. Alex tries to understand Om Dhana's difficult position, if Feli and his mother know the truth if they do not have blood relations, then they will feel hurt.

"Trus why did Om tell me?"

"Because you're her future husband. The name Feli can not be connected with the name Om, because Om is not his real father. The name Om can not be called when you say ijab kabul later" said Om Dhana bitter.

Alex was a little flabbergasted to realize such a big thing. He almost forgot that in religion, the name of the bride should be mentioned together with the name of her biological father when the procession of ijab kabul. While stepfather or adoptive father can not replace that position. If Om Dhana is not the real father of Feli, then whose name will be connected with the name Feli later when Ijab kabul?

"So, who's Feli Om's real father?"

"Om don't know. Om has been trying to find information about Feli's biological father, but the results are nil. The longer the less likely Om can find him."

Alex is confused, "So..?"

"No one can know about this, either. The world will still know Felisha Wardhana Arum, my son. Feli and his mother also can not know if they are not children and biological mothers."

Alex frowned more and more, not understanding. "But Om, how will the marriage contract be? If the name Feli is still connected with the same name Om, the marriage will not be valid dong?"

"Yes, that's why I have to talk about this privately with you."

"I still don't understand" Alex said honestly.

"At your wedding, you will still call the name Feli by the name of Om as the ratio of his biological father. Because everyone will see that, and no one can know if Om is not Feli's real father. But before that we have to hold a marriage contract in a closed first, the original marriage contract."

Alex became dizzy thinking about this problem, why the more confusing. He showed his confusion to Om Dhana, until Om Dhana explained the meaning in detail.

"The night before the wedding, we gather at the place that Om of coursein. You, Om, the ruler and two witnesses. There we did not enter the marriage contract behind closed doors, without Feli and without anyone attending. This original marriage contract must be hidden. From kabul later that night, your marriage with Feli will be valid. So tomorrow, you just repeat ijab kabul, open marriage contract, with the name of a different guardian of Feli, Feli Wardhana Arum bint Agus Wardhana. Of course, the marriage contract has no value in the eyes of religion. But it will clarify your status legally." explains Om Dhana at length.

Alex shakes in disbelief. He never thought Om Dhana planned such a big thing. Do the marriage contract in secret without the presence of family members though? Even the bride herself was not told. For what? For the sake of family and business reputation, is that it? Then, what does it mean for a luxurious wedding ceremony tomorrow? Just a celebration, while the greatest truth is kept secret?

No. gabe. Alex can't do that.

"Om, I don't want to admit public lies. Marriage is sacred and sacred, can not be done carelessly like Om's strange plan. And I also can not cover up the actual facts of my parents, especially Feli who will be my wife." said Alex.

"It's for the good of all of us Al. For Feli's future and his happiness too. Keeping Feli's identity secret forever is best, for him and the family's reputation. Not just your family, but your family too. Om does not want to happen more serious problems later if everyone knows Om is not Feli's real father."

"The problem that is now is also very serious Om. I don't want to risk that much by hiding the truth from my parents, the same from Feli as well" said Alex steady.

"But this Om plan is the best way to keep our respective reputations safe. With the original marriage contract that is hidden, then the marriage contract that is held in public, then not your marriage and Feli will run smoothly. The party we arranged will still go according to plan, and you are equally legitimate Feli to be husband and wife in the eyes of the state and religion."

"I still can't Om. I will not start a relationship with such dishonesty. Om you know, until now I still feel guilty about Feli because I have not been able to love him with all my heart. I will not make new mistakes that can be an obstacle to the good of our marriage, Om. I won't be able to touch Feli while I hide such a big truth about his identity Om."

Om Dhana looked hopefully at Alex, while Alex stayed on his feet. "I can't."

Om Dhana was silent.

"You love Feli, don't you Al? You can't break her heart, can you honestly say about her identity? You want your marriage to be together with Feli to run smoothly without any problems, right?"

Alex looked at Om Dhana. "Again the same plan Om, then there will be no problem!" om Dhana was convincing.

"Aren't we hiding the truth for good?"

Alex could not answer. Om Dhana's arranged plan for a hidden marriage contract is a bad idea, but not entirely wrong. Lying to everyone with an engineered marriage is wrong. In the eyes of everyone Om Dhana and Feli are father and biological children, in the marriage contract that will be held in public later even Alex must mention the name of Feli by the name of Om Dhana as his guardian. Though of course it is not legal, because Feli is not the son of Om Dhana. But if not the name Om Dhana which is called after the name Feli when Ijab kabul later, then the big public questions will flood their wedding, and there could be chaos.

But beyond all that, Alex put more honesty forward, Alex can not agree Om Dhana plan. Now a very serious new problem comes along, adding to the pile of things that fill Alex's mind. Alex is dizzy.

"Please consider Al, the problems we face today are not too difficult compared to problems that can occur later if the identity of Feli is actually revealed. Om did it for the sake of Feli's happiness and the good of two families."

"Think of it Al!"

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