Miss Kissable & Mr. Strawberry

Between Kayla, Alex, and Feli

Kayla was relieved she had been allowed to return home after more than a month in the hospital. But his relief from moving to a more comfortable and familiar bed did not necessarily make him sleep peacefully. He has difficulty sleeping, not because his body condition has not fully recovered or because of the influence of drugs consumed, but because it occurred to him and ranted the words of Bu Feli.

Kayla tried to forget him and did not want to think hard first, but the words of Bu Feli he could not ignore. Indeed, when he faced Bu Feli and rejected the desire of his art teacher firmly, he seemed to show his indifference to the feelings of Alex who said Bu Feli. "still love him very much." But in fact, that sentence Kayla can't forget. What's more about Bu Feli's decision to marry Alex to Kayla on the wedding date that was supposed to be Alex's marriage to Bu Feli. Kayla never thought, how could Bu Feli take such a big decision when he himself was hurt.

In front of her mom, dad, and the rest of her family, Kayla looks happy and calm as they lead her out of the hospital to get home. No one knew that there was a serious problem that might soon surprise them. Hopefully, Ms. Feli will forget that unnatural desire. But it's a lie that Kayla could forget her tense conversation with Ms. Feli this morning, every time she thought about it so she had to put on a fake smile in front of her family, to avoid any suspicions that would be a problem.

An hour ago, she came out of Kayla's room after making sure her daughter was taking medication and getting some rest, she turned off the headlights and turned on the nightlights. But now Kayla turned on the main lights of her room, so that the entire room was clearly visible. Kayla sat leaning on her headboard while pensive. He sobbed small and continued to wipe his cheeks if any tears escaped from his production site. This matter was too serious and sensitive for Kayla to ignore, her heart felt great anxiety in addition to the strange feelings that were still there, a feeling that Kayla thought was the love that was still left for Alex.

Why, why does Kayla still feel that there is love for Alex? Though before he felt calm because he thought he could move on from the man. Why now this serious problem can arise, when Kayla and Alex have decided to really end the relationship between them. Kayla does not want to be a thorn in Alex's relationship with Bu Feli who soon reaches the guarantee. Kayla does not want to be a barrier to the happiness of the couple, both Alex and Bu Feli. Both are people Kayla knows well, both people whom Kayla deserves to respect, not even hurt by her existence.

In his anxiety and fear, Kayla hopes big that Bu Feli will undo his intentions and forget his unnatural decision. Hopefully Bu Feli and Alex can solve their problems, so there is no need for tension and friction between the two families, especially until their relationship is threatened. For whatever reason, Kayla did not want her mother and her entire family to hear the news, let alone get dragged into the family problems of Bu Feli and Alex.

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The two unwillingly closed eyes were fixated with blank gazes, there was not even a reaction from those eyelids as drops after drops of clear liquid flowed making two small river paths on both cheeks. Only breaths were heard from his mouth many times, all the effects of the heart waves he felt.

"*Kok you're angry anyway? I intend to unite you with the people you love, Al, I give for our good too. Make your happiness and my peace."

"I'm not asking you to admit to that crazy thing! I don't want you to give up on my happiness, Fel!" alex shouted in front of Feli's face, he was really upset.

Feli was gobsmacked, confused, and speechless. Alex pulled his hair down and gave a rough snort, then he held onto Feli's shoulders. "Fel, as long as you know, when I left to accept our match.I have accepted you as my future candidate, even though my heart is heavy and unprepared. I promise myself that I will not hurt you, even if I fail many times. I learned many things to prepare myself for you, to be a responsible husband later. I'm serious Fel*.."

This time Feli let out a stifled sigh with his eyes closed and his head looked up. The words Alex spoke to him in the hospital parking lot today continue to ring in his eyes. Because of those words, Feli became in great concern instantly. He was already convinced of his decision not to continue the match with Alex, even he expressed the desire in front of the two families to marry Alex to Kayla on the day that had been agreed as the previous wedding day. Before or after he spoke to Kayla, Feli's decision remained the same. He was convinced of his decision, although his family had not agreed and Kayla also rejected it. She is determined to consummate Alex and Kayla's marriage despite any obstacles.

However, he did not expect after hearing Alex's words.

Feli knows, Alex doesn't love him. Feli knows who Alex is in his heart, and who he is in Alex's eyes. But why would Alex say that to him? Why would Alex do that? Alex's touch on his shoulder, the man's beautiful eyes, and the words coming out of the man's mouth made his heart tremble, and created a huge influence on him. Why would Alex want to fight for it? Why would Alex be angry about the decision he took, and instead forbid him to withdraw from their relationship? If Alex doesn't love her why would Alex do that?

Feli recalled the words Kayla had said to him as she tried to convince the girl that Alex still loved Kayla, and Feli wanted them both to marry.

"Maybe it's true that he wasn't sure before because he still couldn't escape me. But ma'am, as long as I know Alex it will not be sure of the same decision he took. I'm sure, when he said accept your match with all his heart.he was sure the same relationship with Bu Feli. In the future, he will not make mistakes again. Believe me, Mom!" persuade Kayla expectantly.

Feli was quite unnerved, Kayla had a high trust towards Alex. Kayla is not as close to Alex as she used to be, but she still trusts Alex. Even he chose to believe his opinion of Alex, rather than believe the facts that Feli said, even though the girl knew Feli was right. Kayla knows that Alex still loves her, but she rejects the man and rejects Feli's wishes as well. Citing 'the most important parent's blessing, Kayla refuses to approve Feli's decision. Although Feli assured Kayla that he himself would ask for the blessing of Kayla's parents and Alex's parents.. Kayla refused.

"*You agree, Alex won't agree, Mom. Because he had made the decision to marry Ms. Feli. He will fight for your relationship, until Bu Feli happily accepts him".

"He'll fight for me like he fought for you, Kayla?" Ms. Feli chuckled discordantly. "Why would he waste his time doing that, if he didn't love me*."

Kayla once again believed in Alex. Kayla is convinced Alex will not let go of Feli, whatever the reason. Feli felt astonished and amused himself when Kayla said that. How could Alex who clearly still loves Kayla instead choose to fight for Feli, which he often ignored all this time. Why would Alex do that, it doesn't make sense to Feli. Trusting Kayla's words that seem to try to convince her is ridiculous for Feli.

But once again Feli was amazed. It turned out that Kayla's speech was evident, Alex showed her seriousness today. Feli is upset, but he has to admit that Alex managed to melt his heart. But his feelings are not always calm so easily, on the other hand at once at the same time. His instincts and reason contradict, he loves Alex and is happy to know the man wants their relationship, but he is also hurt so he establishes his heart to release the man and end the story between them.

"No Fel! You can't be weak, you can't be weak. You're going to let Alex go, and that decision is right." she told herself.

"You give me another chance for this relationship, which means you're ready to get hurt again. Alex may want to right his wrongs, but that doesn't make sure he can love you later, Fel."

"Yes! Your decision is correct, whatever the obstacles you will not continue this matchmaking." he said steadily.

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Alex sat with his mother in his room. Even though it was late at night, Mama said she couldn't sleep quietly before talking to Alex. Actually Alex does not want to discuss the problem now, but mama insists him not to buy time or avoid the mother again. Alex knows mama is anxious, Alex knows mama wants her to be happy without having to have difficulties in terms of romance, Alex understands mama's current anxiety. So he relented to being completely open to mama, the thing you wanted from him months ago.

"I'm serious when I say I won't miss Feli, Ma."

Vanessa -sang mama-grunts quietly. Of course Vanessa remembers when Alex said that. Vanessa knew how hard Alex was when she decided to make a match a few months ago. Even so, his son still chose to accept the matchmaking even though he could also choose to refuse. Vanessa gave understanding and warning to Alex, but Alex still chose to accept the responsibility even though he was not ready.

"My fault has always failed to control my feelings, Ma. It was my fault that I always took the time to actually take responsibility for the relationship. But now that I realize, I've woken up from my endless long dream. I'm not gonna hurt Feli anymore."

"Your decision is to take responsibility for the relationship. But the decision that Feli made for you and Kayla is also true."

Alex frowned in disbelief, "Feli's decision is right?"

"Why not, Ma? Kayla has moved on from me anyway, she is not papa if I marry Feli. And Feli is innocent in this relationship, why did he have to sacrifice?"

"Are you sure Kayla's moved on?"

"Yes." Yeah." Alex nodded.

"He.. Don't love you anymore?"

Alex opened his mouth but did not answer, he hesitated. "He doesn't love me" she replied later, in a quiet voice that sounded heavy.

"You sure?"

"Yakin Ma.." sighed Alex. "He rejected me firmly yesterday" he continued in a protesting tone.

"Therefore you choose to fight for Feli even if you don't love him?"

Alex wanted to shake his head because he did not agree with mom, but indeed that was the reason that made him steady to go forward. So, he should have nodded, right?

"That's just one of the reasons, Ma." finally that sentence came out of Alex's mouth.

Vanessa looked at her son uncertainly. Alex looked down and avoided the look of his mother.

"From the beginning of time I decided to make the match, I had intended to make my decision accountable, Ma. Guys should be responsible for the same words, right?"

"Yes. Mama believes your son can be a responsible man. Mama's just worried that you can't be fair with Feli."

Alex understood the phrase 'can't be fair' that mama meant. Mama always worried about it, mama was afraid that Alex could not stop loving Kayla so that later he could not give love to Feli who would become his wife. I was afraid of it from the beginning, because of the trauma in the past. I'm afraid Alex can't forget her first love like she can't forget her first love. Mama fears Alex's marriage is not harmonious without love, as was the marriage of mama and papa once. Mama is afraid that history will repeat itself, but Alex believes her love story will not be the same as your love story.

"Love can come after marriage, right? Maybe forever I can't forget Kayla, if I always stick with Feli. I can love her too. I'll try to be a good husband to him."

"Love comes unsolicited, unpredictable let alone chosen. You may be sleeping with Kayla and will love Feli, but it may not be the case. Not impossible if your heart will remain like this, until when. That's what Feli doesn't want, son. That's why Feli's taking a step back from your relationship."

"Said mom believed in me. Why is my mom not sure I can? I just want to fix everything, Ma. I want to be the guy in charge, with Feli fighting and really moving on from Kayla. I don't want to hurt them both." Alex was getting frustrated.

"Mom knows, son. I don't believe you, but I am worried. As a woman, she knew Feli's fear until she made that decision."

"I also know, so I convinced him that I was serious about our relationship. I don't want him to back down because it's gonna hurt him, Ma. I don't want to put Feli in the same situation as Kayla was. I won't make the same mistake the second time. I don't want to mess up anymore, Ma." Alex said.

"Feli's situation with Kayla is different, Al. You are the same Kayla was separated, each of you no one intends to let go. If you're with Feli, no one wants your misahin, but Feli himself wants to let you go."

"But people's views on them both will be the same, Ma. Poor girl whose wedding is off. What ugly impression did they get because of me, Ma? And I, would definitely look like a coward."

"No Al, you don't keep feeling guilty gini dong son.." Vanessa stroked Alex's head. "Kayla same Feli is a good kid, they are both equally smart and wise. They will not fall into that view of people. They both also appreciate you all this time, they do not think you are guilty. There is nothing guilty between you, only your destiny is what you believe it is."

Alex swallowed his saliva bitterly, then spoke softly. "Therefore I decided to stop Feli, Ma. Kayla let me be my past, she also can continue her life well. He can live without me Ma, he now has a whole family, which is perfect. In the past she was just the same mom, if the one sad the other also follow sad, fragile together, and mutually rein in each other, just the two. But now there's Om Tio, Arsya, even Om Arman has also returned." Alex pulled the corner of her lips, as did her mother.

"But Feli, if I'm more like Kayla than she is, I'm gonna feel like the worst guy in the world. Because I have given him hope and many opportunities, but instead I was in vain. I can't do that." Alex breathed a long breath. "I don't love him yet, but I will try to respect him, respect him, and love all the things he has to get. I'll make everything he's been dreaming of, I'll try, Ma."

Vanessa smiles, "Mama believes you can, son. Mama supports you." she said, stroking Alex's cheek, then kissing her son's forehead.

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