Miss Kissable & Mr. Strawberry

Move On

"Miss Kissable's.."

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If Alex had not repeated his call three times, Kayla might have thought it was just a hallucination. But this, Alex did call him. Even the man he had been trying to forget for months had stood beside him, then turned to face him.

Alex was silent for a long time while looking at Kayla. Kayla was still tense.

"Are you okay?"

What kind of question is that? Kayla was confused to respond. Kayla's feelings are getting worse, groggy and also restless. Why would Alex meet him like this, alone without Miss Feli, and in a quiet place. Btw, Kayla was still at the place where Arsya had taken her. He did have time to stay in place after Arsya left, but he did not expect Alex would follow him here.

"Miss Kissable, are you happy?"

Kayla raises her head, trying to see Alex even though she is afraid she will not be able to stand it.

"You can see for yourself." Kayla smiled thinly, a bit stiff. "How are you?"

Alex swallowed the salivary, "I'm glad to see you."

That word came out of Alex's mouth.

"I'm happy too, seeing you happy. Congratulations to you!"

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Why does it hurt like this Alex's heart hears Kayla's words. Not accepting Kayla's words, she met Kayla not to hear this sentence!

"Miss Kissable, I'm still the same" Alex said seriously.

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"S.same? What's the same Al?"

"Miss Kissable -.."

"Wait on! Have you been trying to escape Miss Kissable? You still call me.. Miss Kissable?"

"I'm still the same as I used to be. Love you, and hold on to my love."

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Kayla was flabbergasted, staring at Alex in disbelief. Should Kayla be happy, or angry? For months Kayla has been trying to move on from him, but today she shows up to Kayla and expresses love that easily? What has she been doing for months away from Kayla, so that she who is even now engaged to another girl, even claims to be the same as before?! Then what does the presence of Bu Feli the fiancee by his side mean?

Kayla was scared. Kayla fears becoming a barrier between Alex and Bu Feli. Is Alex and Bu Feli's relationship okay all along? Does Miss Feli know that Alex still loves Kayla? And.. how long has Alex been treating Ms. Feli, if she still loves Kayla?

Oh my God. Why is this so? Even after months of moving away from each other, with the distance between them, why did Alex's feelings for Kayla not change? Kayla so felt all her struggle to move on, all this time in vain.

Kayla gave a long snort, "So..you want to say that my efforts and the distance between us have been meaningless? And Ms. Feli, don't tell me you don't have any feelings for Ms. Feli!" Kayla's angry.

"You're my permission to not stop loving you, right?"

"You think I'd gladly permit you? I was just trying to understand you at that time Al! I don't want you to last forever for this unworthy love Al! I thought. Now that you've spared me, you've got Miss Feli."

Alex lowered his head while shaking little, then he raised his head again to look at Kayla. "Do you have any feelings for me anymore? Why are you angry?"

"Trus what should I do? What you are doing is wrong, you should realize that maintaining this love is not really Al. I'm sure no one will allow you to do this."

"But only you have my heart, I love you. I don't know anything about Miss Kissable, I also know that it's not true, but today I can't help myself to not find you."

"I hope this is the last time we're like Al. I hope you don't repeat your mistakes, and I hope there won't be any problems after this. I don't want to be a bully on your new path Al, I don't want to be among you with Ms. Feli. And hopefully.. Miss Feli doesn't misunderstand me." Kayla turned around afterwards.

"Bu Feli would not misunderstand. He's the reason I made you."

Kayla's move was intercepted, she unbundled her intention to leave. "Mom Feli himself who convinced Alex to find me?" Inner Kayla asked.

Kayla turned to face Alex. "Yes, he knows and he knows. So he's the ngizinin I made to see you."

Kayla frowned, "Al you should know more about Bu Feli's feelings! You think your future wife will be happy to see your ex?"

Kayla felt injured again, she swallowed her saliva after saying that. Kayla wants to cry right now. While Alex was stunned, still staring at Kayla.

"Bu Feli knows about how you feel about me?"

"Yes, he knows."

Kayla sighed heavily, "Mom Feli knows and wants to understand you? Don't you think that's Al's disease? You make me feel guilty, you hurt Miss Feli Al!"

"I know. I know, this is wrong. I know-so, too.."

"What do you know?" Sergey Kayla is upset. "You know how Ms. Feli feels, and you still hurt Ms. Feli, right?"

"Miss Kissable, this is heavy for me. I'm the same Miss Feli was fooled. In the past, you asked me to obey my father? I follow, I accept the matchmaking for the sake of not being an ungodly child, even though my heart is rejected. I love you, but I also try to accept her presence. It's not easy Miss Kissable." Alex was complaining.

"That's why don't you start sparing me Al? The only thing that holds you is the love in your heart, right? Trus why are you still defending, selein Al. I've just released you."

Nyuu.......

Alex's heart throbbed in pain. What Kayla said was true, but Alex's heart still didn't willingly agree to it.

"You.. don't have any feelings for me anymore?" ask Alex bitter.

Kayla turns her face away from Alex, lest Alex notice the change in look.

"Maybe a little, but it doesn't matter. I'm just sad because you haven't moved on while you've got a fiancee" Kayla said honestly.

"I don't want anything from you, other than the best for you Al. You're smart enough to know what I mean. So, you know what you're gonna do?"

"Something I should do. That doesn't mean it's what I like." Alex said flatly.

"But something you have to do is good. Do not let there be regrets in the future, if you want something that you want.as opposed to something good Al."

Alex fell silent. Kayla was silent, thinking for a long time.

Then Kayla pulled the corner of her lips slowly. "Maybe you need to know also Al, I'm relieved because you will be cooled as a girl as well as Miss Feli. Maybe you won't get a girl as perfect as Miss Feli again out there. You're lucky Al, I'm sure your parents' choices aren't wrong, so keep being a good kid for your parents, and be the best guy for Miss Feli!"

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Alex mangernyit, flabbergasted at the words coming out of Kayla's mouth. He could hardly believe Kayla saying that, but he was also amazed at Kayla's wisdom in responding to her. His words sounded calm, serious, and sincere. Honestly, Alex was hurt to hear that. Although the distance between them has come so far in reality, Alex's heart is still not ready to end the love he has for Kayla.

Is it true that Kayla gave Alex away to another girl? Is Kayla really okay and has moved on from Alex?

The knot smile from Kayla's shady face seemed to prove it, but part of Alex remained unwilling to accept all of this.

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Kayla was stunned as she looked at a piece of diamond ring stored neatly inside a tiny glass box on her dresser. Yeah, the ring's still here. Actually Kayla keeps a meeting of all the items given by Alex, as well as objects that can remind her of Alex. He kept all that stuff out of his sight. But every now and then she took out her diamond ring box from the drawer, put it on the dresser, and looked at it.

Just like he is doing right now. If you knew Kayla was doing this, you wouldn't like it. But Kayla did it not to remember her old wounds, but to remember the precious experiences she had, as well as other fun things. Kayla knows this is not true, why remember Alex who clearly had a replacement for her! But Kayla's little heart still wants to see this meaningful ring every once in a while. Especially in such a quiet atmosphere.

After all, Kayla's heart didn't hurt anymore as she recalled her old heart wound. Kayla thinks she can move on from Alex.

I don't know. But Kayla felt that way. He was able to control his heart so that it would not hurt again when he remembered Alex. Perhaps the feeling of love he had for Alex had already turned into something more mundane, yet still precious. Kayla thinks she's managed to move on from Alex, although she can't possibly forget it. The man he once called Mr. Strawberry.

Move on is about erasing the taste, not forgetting the memory. Because memory is part of the rules of life, there is no way we can live without it, and it will not disappear at any time. But if the experience hurts, we can turn it into a lesson if we want to. The memory of a wound will not forever hurt us, if we are willing to try to treat it, not let it continue to gap. Move on is not easy for some people, but also not difficult for those who can accept destiny with a free heart, not accept destiny by force.

It's been almost two months since Kayla's meeting with Alex and Bu Feli at Mami and Om Tio's wedding. Kayla's feeling calmed down, especially after she realized that the fact of Alex's engagement to Bu Feli was not something to be regretted. Kayla should not be hurt let alone cry over that reality. Yes, Kayla understands now. He is grateful that at least the girl who became his replacement for Alex is Bu Feli. A gentle and thoughtful adult girl, Ms. Feli who is her art teacher is the right person to be Alex's companion and also the daughter-in-law in Mr. William's family. Kayla believed that.

Hopefully now Alex can also move on from Kayla. Hopefully now Alex can accept Bu Feli, in his life and also in his heart. Let's hope Alex is happy now, as Kayla is happy with her new life at Tio's father's house.

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Alex and Feli had just returned from a business party, and as usual Alex drove the fiancee first. After their car in front of Feli's house, Alex turned to his left side where Feli was sitting. It turns out the girl was asleep.

"Fel, we're here."

Usually if spoken to, Feli immediately responds even though his eyes closed, but this time not. Alex patted Feli's shoulder slowly, Feli frowned small in his sleep but did not wake up. It seemed like this girl was exhausted, so her sleep was very good. For two days in a row Feli accompanied Alex here and there taking care of business. Alex couldn't help but force her to wake up.

"I'm sorry Fel." said Alex slowly.

More and more Alex feels guilty for Feli, because until now he still treats Feli like a personal assistant business only, not like a fiancee. Alex gave a long snort then got out of his car. He walked around the front of his car, then opened the door on the side where Feli was sitting. Alex looked down at Feli for a moment, because if he lingered on seeing Feli he would feel more guilty. Many things Feli did for Alex to make their relationship close like a couple in general. Feli lately likes to cook food for Alex, make it stock, to wear something that Alex likes. Like wearing Alex's favorite fresh mint strawberry perfume, to strawberry-scented lipstick. But instead of Alex liking it, Alex even remembered Miss Kissable.

"I'm sorry Fel." Alex muttered inwardly.

Slowly Alex slipped his hand to the back of Feli's body to then hold him. Feli looked small but did not wake up from his sleep. Then Alex took him in, ART Feli let Alex take Feli directly to the girl's room.

Once Alex was near Feli's bed, he lowered the girl slowly onto the bed. Feli frowned feeling something strange, he opened his eyes slowly and was surprised to realize he was being carried by Alex. He reflexively put both hands on Alex's boat, because he felt almost fell when Alex held it quite tightly.

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Feli's heart beats many times faster, especially when his neutrals meet Alex's dazzling neutrals. Alex removed his left hand from Feli's body after putting the girl onto his bed, while his right hand was still on Feli's boat. Alex was actually preparing to put Feli's head to the pillow, but it turned out that the girl had already opened her eyes.

A moment both of them were silent, staring at each other with eyes that implied different meanings. Feli feels very happy to be this close to Alex, while Alex feels compassion for the girl he often ignores. Besides that Alex also felt disturbed by the smell of strawberries from the body of Feli out possessed his sense of smell, but he was still in a conscious state. But it would probably be bad if he lingered in this position, this favorite scent of his could anesthetize him at any time. Alex is afraid that the incidents that once happened to her and Kayla, will be repeated today.

Hence, Alex immediately removed his hand from Feli's shoulder and rewinded his body from the girl. But unexpectedly Feli instead held him with both hands of the girl who still held Alex's shoulder. Alex stopped too.

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There was no other choice but for Alex to see Feli again. What is this girl doing!

Slowly Feli brought his face closer to Alex, Alex noticed it but somehow he did not react. Alex's heart sparred with his logic, yet his body still did not react. While Feli, whose heart holds great hopes for Alex's change towards him, wants something beyond his mind all along. Feli wants to be honest that he really likes this kind of closeness with Alex, but he does not want to admit that he actually wants more than this. While the turmoil within him drove him to do something he had never done before.

Feli's gaze was fixed on Alex's eyes and lips in turn, and it seemed like Alex was too. So that Feli did not hesitate to continue his action. Although his wits forced him to stop, Feli's body was unwilling to agree to that. It's a shame to admit that Feli really wanted just one kiss from Alex. When this opportunity came, Feli did not waste it.

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As the faces of the two got closer and each breath could be felt on their faces, Alex immediately felt his entire body being struck by lightning suddenly, until the reflex he stood upright tensely. He was surprised to find himself almost making a mistake. Feli who almost closed his eyes was shocked.

Alex swallowed his salivary while closing his eyes in a flash, "Sorry" he said, shaking his head.

Feli.

Alex glanced at Feli at a glance, "S.sorry!" he said again then turned around, out of Feli's room.

Feli breathed a long breath. He should be grateful that Alex is aware and not to make a mistake with him, but is kissing a future wife also a mistake? I don't know why even that question that appears in the mind of Feli. If Feli can be honest, his heart feels disappointed with Alex's rejection earlier. What was the reason Alex rejected him? Is it because Alex does want to respect him so keep their limits, or for other reasons. Is it possible that Alex turned him down for not wanting to grieve the love he had for Kayla? Even Feli still doubts that Alex is trying to forget Kayla.

Feli snorted a heavy breath. His relationship with Alex only looks good in public, different from the truth. Their wedding date is approaching, but Alex still has not accepted Feli's presence with all his heart. Feli always asked himself..

Did Alex give Feli a place in his heart, even a little bit? Or is it still Kayla who fills the place? Or maybe... Is only Kayla there?

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