Love is Named Us

Returnees

Should I be angry? Should I be disappointed? Should I show a taste I don't want to show it to the people I care about? What they did was probably for my own good, but that's not what I expected. Any pain would be better than the silence of a thousand languages. When things open up, I'll be more disappointed and sick in the name of "for good" .

...****...

I was quiet after I left the party. Sherin's sudden presence made the atmosphere change drastically. Hanum did not dare to look at me. I also don't want to confront him with the question of why and why. Her pregnancy scared me that something would happen to her. But, I know there's something behind it all. I try to accept it even though it is difficult.

Gafi tried to calm me down, clutching my finger. He knows how I feel right now.

" Have she come back to be with you." I don't know why that line came right out of my lips. " I remember what he said. He came back because of someone."

" Yuna don't make it up."

" Did you also know that the woman I was telling you about was Sherin?" Gafi. " Why don't you answer?"

" Yuna, even if Sherin comes back, it doesn't mean we'll be together. I don't even care about his presence anymore. Why are your thoughts concentrated on him, huh?"

Gafi was right, why was my mind concentrated on him. Do I feel afraid of him. " I..." Suddenly Gafi pulled my arm, then kissed my lips softly. For a moment I was shocked, but in the end was lulled by her gentle touch.

" Yuna.." Gafi's voice calling my name made me sigh. " You don't have to be afraid of his presence, nothing will change, you understand."

I nodded small. " I'm sorry, it pisses you off."

" No, I understand how you feel." Gafi gently stroked my cheek. " Yuna.trust me, don't go because of this, you understand."

" Umm..," I replied with a small nod. Gafi hugged me.

In the morning, in accordance with my promise to Hanum, I still went to work at his place. Besides I don't want to make him depressed because of yesterday's problems, I don't want to be affected by that.

Sherin's sudden presence at the party was indeed enough to shock people. For so long he disappeared without news, then appeared suddenly. I don't know what the motive behind his appearance this time, it is undeniable that I was slightly affected by his presence. I don't know why I feel like there's something she's hiding.

" Yuna," said Hanum as soon as he saw me. I smiled and greeted him. " Yuna." Hanum hugged me without saying anything, but just said my name.

" I'm not mad at you" I said later. " I'm sorry I worried you."

Hanum shook his head. " Don't say something like that, I'm getting more and more guilty. I should have told you the truth back then, but I was scared and didn't know where to start."

" I understand you don't say it's a good thing, but it's gonna hurt more if I find out this way."

" I'm sorry."

I took a breath, then smiled at him. " Hanum, I'm fine. Gafi has made me calmer. I also understand you're in the middle between me and Sherin. To you, we are your best friends, you must have suffered a lot thinking about this."

" But, I don't want Sherin's presence to make your relationship with Gafi strain. I don't know why I thought Sherin's appearance was because of Gafi. He disappeared for a long time and then came back, I think because I heard that Gafi married again."

" Koro." I also held his hand. " I also think about what you think, this is a hurdle that we have to live with, regardless of the outcome, hopefully we'll be fine."

" Yuna." Hanum hugged me back. " I'll always be with you."

" Hanum, thank you. I can get through it."

...****...

" Hanum, you just sit down, don't walk this way," I said worriedly.

" I can't."

" Koro." I got up from my seat and sat Hanum. " When work can sit, right, if you need anything you can tell me."

Hanum moved his lips. " but..."

" Nothing but-but," I said firmly, then returned to my seat. " I can finish this, if there's anything I'll ask you."

" Hmm, all right," he said resignedly.

I continued my work again, but had to be interrupted because of the voice from my phone. To Hanum, I asked permission to answer this call outside. While walking out, I answered this call from Tya.

I can guess why he called me this time. He must be bored alone in the hospital.

" Well, when I get home I'll come there. Gafi won't be mad at me because I told him. Already yes, I have to go back to work," I said ending the chat. " Basic, he said it's okay by himself, pretending he doesn't need me" I chanted.

" Aren't you, Yuna." My steps stopped because of that sound. I looked around, not expecting me to see him again. " We're really stupid."

I smiled thinly. " Hanum is upstairs if you want to meet him. "

" I wanted to meet Hanum, but unexpectedly met you here."

" And then..."

" I don't want to get stale anymore. I came back because of Gafi. We'll be together again."

I glanced at him sharply, not thinking he would convey the essence of his presence again.

" What are you going to do to get Gafi to come back to you?"

" Anything."

" Whatever you want won't come back. You left him and now you want him. Do you think all your wishes will come true. Come and come back as you please, if you don't want it, you dump it and when you want it, you force it to happen. Are you sane?"

" I don't have to listen to all of your words. I don't want your permission either, I just want to assert my wish. Like it or not, I don't care."

" Well, there's no point in talking to you anymore. Do it or not, it's your will."

" Are you not afraid?"

" fear?" I repeated his words back. " I was scared at first, but not anymore. I finally understood that there was no point in scaring something insignificant. You don't care about other people's feelings, you're very selfish. Whatever, do what you want to do," I said, leaving him. " Oh yeah, do I have to tell Hanum that you're here?"

Sherin was silent, there was no answer from her. " Alright, I won't say anything to Hanum. Excuse me."

Sherin just stayed there. He probably didn't expect that he would get this kind of treatment.

" Yuna, you're very confident. Let's just see."