Love is Named Us

An Answer

This morning I didn't see Gafi anywhere. When I woke up, Gafi was no longer beside me. The aunt who works at this villa said that Gafi had been out since this morning to run as usual.

Right now my brain is constantly thinking about what happened yesterday. Gafi looked very angry and disappointed in me, but the hug he gave me that night was very painful. Like there's something he's afraid of, but I don't know what it is.

I don't know how to ask him that either. I'm afraid he's not comfortable with my question. The curiosity that still enveloped me could not be answered at this moment.

I helped my aunt prepare breakfast. Fried rice and beef eggs are breakfast this morning. Aunty told me a lot about the Gafi family, including Gafi's dead mother. I, who was curious about my mother-in-law, listened enthusiastically to my aunt's story.

Gafi's mother, whom she knew as aunty, was very gentle and considerate. A motherly and simple woman. As long as aunt knew him, she never saw him speak harsh words and angry words to the workers. The figure he greatly admired.

" Mommy died of illness, huh, Bi?" manya curious.

" Yes, Madam. At that time the great madam was sick and before long the madam died. Auntie was very sorry for Mr. Gafi. Sir is very sad."

" It must have been Gafi's time of great loss."

" Yes, Madam, Mr. Gafi has lost his mother. Even though there is a replacement, it is very different. Aunty just felt it, let alone Master."

" Huh?" I was a little surprised by aunt's last words. It looks like the mother has a poor relationship with the workers.

" The madam who is now very different, likes to be angry. Anyway another same first mistress. Uh..." Aunt shut her mouth. It seems like aunt realized she was talking too much. " I'm sorry, ma'am, auntie, so talk no."

" It's okay, Bi."

Aunt smiled shyly.

" Aunty to the back, ma'am, take care of it."

" Yes Bi, please".

" Excuse me, madam."

I smiled at the aunt's misbehavior. Though I didn't take heart what aunt said just now. It was his heart and it might have been a long time.

...****...

“ Good morning.”

The sound of someone entering the house. I turned around and Aril was already standing there. He smiled as he saw me.

“ Morning, Yuna.”

“ Morning,” reply. “ Have you had breakfast,” I came to him.

“ Glass of coffee, can?”

“ Of course, I'll get you.”

“ Thank you.”

I took one glass and poured coffee from a coffee machine. I took the coffee to the back porch where Aril was sitting.

" This is the coffee" I said, then put the coffee on the table and invited him to drink.

“ Wow...your coffee is very good,” praise after sipping the coffee I gave it.

“ Thank you.”

“ Oh yes, where is Gafi? I haven't seen him since.”

“ Said Aunt, Gafi was running early in the morning.”

“ Oh so.” Aril sipped the coffee back. “ You should have enjoyed your honeymoon, but it ended with work. Sorry yes, Yuna.”

I smiled a little.

“ It's okay, Gafi also told me earlier. Looks like this job is very important to him.”

“ Indeed this is a very important project for him. Even this project was problematic because of something. So slowly, Gafi tried to secure it back. And hopefully it goes according to plan.”

“ Yes, hopefully.”

“ Yuna..”

“ Yes.”

“ What happened something?”

“ No, all is fine.”

“ You sure?”

“ Last night, Gafi was acting weird. Something stuck in my heart when she suddenly hugged me that night and said she was afraid that I would disappear again. It feels so stifling. But, Gafi didn't explain anything to me. And that confused me.”

“ Do you really not understand why Gafi is like that to you?”

I nodded because I myself also wanted an answer to my confusion.

“ You know, Yuna, when you were suddenly not in the car when we got back. Gafi's like a madman looking for you to and fro. Especially when you find out you left your phone, Gafi is getting anxious and scared.”

“ Gafi worries me?”

Aril nodded.

It doesn't feel like it could happen. Why would Gafi worry so much about me. Isn't there no feeling in this marriage, I murmured.

“ Yuna. He's really scared."

“ Ha?”

“ I see the same fear as a few years ago.

Fear of losing loved ones”

“ Impossible.”

“ Yuna... Gafi hugged you that night out of fear of losing you.”

“ Same sense of loss and same fear. Is Gafi thinking about his ex-wife?”

“ Not like that Yuna. Indeed, the marriage that Gafi lived was not smooth. The breakup with Sherin, his ex-wife, is frustrating. The marriage that only lasted a short time, then Sherin who disappeared and returned with a request to separate made her own trauma. But, to part ways when it was not that easy given Gafi, he tried to make Sherin back, he was sure that Sherin was just an emotion for a moment.”

“ Why Sherin wants to part with Gafi?”

“ No one knows for sure the real reason. Sherin just said she wanted revenge and never loved Gafi. That's all.”

“ What revenge?”

“ Don't know.”

“ Then why did Gafi give up? don't they love each other?”

“ Because Sherin.”

“ Mean?”

“ Gafi finally gives up because Sherin is steadfast with separation. Whatever effort Gafi did, it didn't make Sherin disappear. And in the end, the separation happened. A love story that started small just ends.”

“ So, Gafi thinks I'm going to disappear like Sherin?”

Aril nodded.

“ She still loves Sherin?”

“ Yuna. Now you are his priority.”

“ Of course you would say that because you are his friend. Had it been behind, I would have said so too.”

Aril laughing.

“ Am I such a person?”

I nodded with a smile.

“ Wah...It feels like my heart hurts once.”

We laughed too.

“ Yuna..I'm serious about saying that.”

“ Please don't make hope for me, I'm afraid someday, I can't let go of it sincerely.”

“ Why should you let go? Gafi will never leave you.”

“ I don't know, sometimes I'm afraid of this marriage. The fear of this empty feeling suddenly fills up, then something will happen and destroy everything. I'm too scared to hope to come back.”

“ I understand, but try to believe it.”

“ I'll work on.”