Love is Named Us

This Guilt

Gafi took me home with my condition already soaked. And actually Gafi was the same condition as me. The car that brought us home was no longer in condition.

My wet clothes, he changed them with new clothes. Actually I have said I can do it myself, but Gafi did not heed my request and still help me. He was worried because my condition looked weak.

" Rest, I'll make you some food" said Gafi, stroking my hair gently. And I nodded my head slowly.

Gafi left me in the room alone. This room feels very cold, probably because of the rain that still flushes out there.

I feel my body is heavy. I put this body on the bed. And my eyes closed after that.

...****...

Slowly I opened my eyes, faintly from a distance a man was standing looking at me. Soon he approached me who had woken up.

" Aril," I said as soon as I realized the figure of the man.

" You've come to your senses, Yuna," said Aril. He seems very worried about me.

" Conscious?" I repeated that word. " Aren't I just asleep."

" You're unconscious. Your body temperature is also very high. But thank goodness you've improved."

" Is this not morning?"

" It's late afternoon."

" A afternoon??"

Aril nodded in response to my confusion.

" You're making us worry, Yuna. Moreover, Gafi, he was very scared because you didn't respond."

" Where is Gafi now?"

" He's on break. If I don't make excuses on your behalf, he will definitely not care about his health. All night until noon, he didn't want to take his eyes off you. Gafi's afraid you're okay even though the doctor's been dealing with you."

" I want to see Gafi" I said. I was about to get out of bed, but Aril immediately prevented.

" You should rest too. Gafi has been treated by a doctor. You don't have to worry."

" but...."

" As I've said, Gafi just needs to rest, he must be fine. You should rest too."

I nodded. " All right."

I was silent for a moment. It was so sad to hear her condition like that.

" Yuna.when Gafi found out you had a high fever and kept delirious, he called me right away. I brought a doctor who happened to be my friend here. His hand kept holding your hand. His eyes are always looking at you. Even though you've been treated by a doctor, Gafi hasn't left you one bit. She's really scared of losing you."

I'm bowed. My tears are falling. Remembering what happened yesterday made me very angry with myself. I was so stupid I didn't believe it. In the name of friendship, I was blinded.

I cried so hard that I confused Aril. He tried to calm me down, but I couldn't stop these tears.

" Yuna..."

" I'm guilty of him. This mistake cannot be forgiven."

" Yuna.whatever it is, Gafi will forgive you."

I shook my head. " It's not what you imagined. I can't even look after myself."

Aril fell silent and listened only to my grievances. This enormous guilt somehow I have to pay for it.

...****...

I stepped my foot, opened the door, and walked to the front room. I opened the closed door, and Gafi still closed his eyes there. I approached him, and then I looked at his peaceful face.

The look on his face implied fatigue from being awake. Somehow she felt at the time.

" Thank you for being patient with me all this time. With all my stubbornness and carelessness. And I can't be a good wife to you either."

" I'm sorry again." I sobbed. Trying to resist the tightness that is in the chest.

" Why are you crying?"

I was shocked by that voice. I was so happy to hear his voice again. But it made me unable to hold back my cries

" Don't cry." Gafi wiped my tears. " I'm glad you're sober. But, please don't scare me anymore, can you, right?"

I nodded. " I'm sorry."

" Yuna..." Gafi. " Don't apologize anymore, it makes me feel guilty for not being able to take care of you."

" You're innocent, I'm guilty."

" No, don't say that." Gafi.

I'm sorry, Yuna. I should have come there sooner after getting the info from the Son, so you wouldn't have experienced that. Seeing you being treated like that, I was so angry with myself for not being able to take care of you. Especially because of that incident you keep delirious because of your very high fever. I'm so scared that something will happen to you.

" You're okay, right?" manyworry.

" I'm good, I'm just exhausted and need to rest. The doctor has been treating. You don't have to worry."

" How could I not worry about you. Because of me, you're like this."

Gafi smiled a little. " I'm really okay. After the break, I feel much better."

I'm staring. I know he just calmed me down so I wouldn't mind. The pain he felt, I know how it hurts.

" Yuna.I'm really okay," she calmed me down.

" Umm..," I nodded.

" I won't let you work anymore."

" I understand."

" I'll take care of everything. And you should know who did the vandalism and who made your resignation letter was Martin himself."

" Ha??" I was so shocked to hear his words. " Martin did it? Why would he do that to me? It's worth it when I find the letter, Martin snatches it out of my hand."

" Because he likes you and wants you to hate me. He knows that you must think I did it because we fought before. That way he wants us to separate."

" So he's already planned it. I didn't think he'd do that to me."

" Anything can be done if you're frustrated."

" I also made him angry because I didn't follow his words. I said whatever happens, I'll stay with you."

Gafi smiled knot.

" Forget what happened, Yuna. That bad event was a waste, don't you remember."

" I don't want to remember either, but I feel disgusted with myself. I still feel the incident coming at me. I feel guilty for you."

" I feel the same way. I also failed as your protector. If you knew, he would be very disappointed in me and if Aydin knew, he would definitely kill me for not looking after his brother. Let's open a new chapter as a real couple."

" Huh?"

" We met and married in a strange way, but even so I remain serious about this relationship. I just hope by saying this, you don't have any more doubts. Whatever happens we need to stay together, you want to, right?"

Without hesitation I nodded. " Yes, I want to."

Gafi hugged me back. " Thank you, Yuna, for coming with me."